I am glad you are feeling better now, Ally.
I, too, have gone through a bout with illness lately. It does, for me, cause an immense amount of gratitude for the simple things in life, as I grow back into full health again, with a new perspective.
Ally wrote on Oct 8th, 2009 at 1:57am:Yeah, the fear of death. Certainly a heavy topic. Everyone is afraid, whether they realize it or not. I still am. That could not have been made more clear than recently when I lived through a really bad bout of the flu, possibly swine flu.
At the worst of it, I felt like I was becoming a prisoner inside of my sick body, and losing the coherentness of my mind, and when you can't think like you normally do, it gets scary. It really makes me wonder what terminally ill people go through before they die. God, it must be so confusing and terrifying. The body is so strong, but at the same time so fragile.
I find it more scary to lose the coherency of your mind while you die. It's like not having any control even of your own brain.
But, I don't worry, anymore, because a good friend of mine told me that when you die, it's like jumping into a pool of very cold water. Right at the moment when it happens, you get a shock, but then, after, you feel just fine. So, perhaps it's more shocking going through the process of the death of the body rather than death itself.