Konnichiwa Bets,
"You're very facile with words ---this could be fun! Unfortunately you have a filter on what you read here that distorts what you're hearing and so I won't play this game very long."
I differ, no begging involved, but I sure do have my own set of filters and challenges. Depression/suicide is one challenge I have dealt with, internally and externally with others I care deeper for than words will do justice. I've slashed the wrists both the right and the wrong way, walked into the sea during the winter, and kicked the bucket twice. Still here though, and the black hole is gone, including the body's control in this particular area. A body controlled spirit would not consider suicide. Another piece in the escape velocity puzzle.
"You remind me of someone here I was very fond of. I'll not claim I loved him enough for your standards but I did love him and it took a long time to mourn his leaving. He wouldn't believe me either. Actually several guys have said my gentler nature doesn't show up much in my posts. Occasionally I regret that."
I bet you a warm hug that you'd be surprised at my gentle side. Your gentle side does indeed show through in the posts I've read. Otherwise wouldn't be bad neither. I'm brutally honest about what I view not to be heartfelt when the implication is otherwise, words I see tossed around like salad in the imaginary food for thought show. Though, in my naming of what I dub flat out to be bullshit, it's not a secret that I'm also reminded of my own bullshit. Been pretty good at the too gentle side, and now focus on adjusting my feisty side to a level I'm happy with. But I do still stand by my response, like it or not.
"that mourned fellow also knew I'd worked in a library, oh psychic wonder. Actually it was a noisy nature center with books but close enough. -- R U him?"
The only librarian with an interest for the beyond I've chatted with was on mIRC, a realtime chat program.
"Volu, what's OT? In my day and age it meant Old Testament. I bet you young whippersnappers have a new meaning for it tho'."
I meant that most of my post was off topic. Perhaps a mixture of white- and midnight snapper.
"Could you paraphrase why you apparently haven't tried following the Guidebook? I think we could get somewhere with that if I could better understand what you're saying."
Most of the time I like bits and pieces of what I read. Could be argued that I take in what fit my views and dump the rest. Could also be argued that I take in what works for ever important me, and leave what doesn't, though it seems to be common to eat the entire dish out of expectation, enriched by a heavy flavour of conformity. A combination perhaps, but I got what I need for now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yNpqASFNs5s