Romain wrote on Sep 28th, 2009 at 12:03am:spooky2 wrote on Sep 27th, 2009 at 9:53pm: I realised I had been full of grief that I did so, just like the ones I left behind, and who I, that's what it felt, betrayed, them, and our love we shared.
I only had to know what I had done. And it hurted so bad.
Spooky
Spooky;
Well said..
and to the point.
sorry to say that what you felt like...betrayed..yes you did betrayed the love you share with those members of family/friends/acquaintance etc.
People who suicide only care about themself and only themself not about the peoples who love them and care for them, otherwise they will have made the effort to talk to those they love before doing it.
I personally find it very hard to care for those suicidal especially when they leave young children s/husbands behind. I know i should not and try to change that, but it's hard to care in those circumstances..it's something i have to learn.
PUL
Romain
Hey Romain,
I have been suicidal many times and trust me, when you're in that frame of mind, you're not thinking rationally, but you "think" that you are. Suicide seems like the only option sometimes (I know its not)
I have an 11 year old, and when I'm suffering from my pain, I think hard and long about things. She is the reason why I've been here this long.
Honestly, I can't make any promises, but I go to my scheduled therapy so that I can be there for my kid. We have a great relationship and I'd never want to leave her, but depressed people suffer from a chemical imbalance which makes that part of our brain, not think in a logical manner for a while.
I hate that I have this, but its something that I'm dealing with and hopefully will overcome.