Hey everyone,
As I might have mentioned before, this site has been of tremendous benefit to me in the past; reading about other people's retrievals and gaining the ability to perform my own, was the single major thing that allowed me, back in 2005, to finally leave Christianity, without fear of going to Hell for doing so.
However, I am at a point in my life now where I need your help again. I am no longer living in my own house, but have had to move back in with my mother and two brothers.
Because of this, I truthfully feel as though in the last three months, my vibratory rate has dropped like a rock. I've been having anger management problems; living with one of my brothers in particular is terrible...he has been forced to leave by every other person he has tried to share a house with, which is why he is here now, and he is treating us just as badly as he did the others who he previously lived with.
Given this, I'm finding that while my capacity for astral perception was increasing while living alone, it has now seen a corresponding decrease as well, to the point where I am not sure that retrievals would be possible for me at all right now.
I need to re-open to PUL, and I need somehow to continue to love my younger brother, even despite the things he does. I will be moving out of here eventually, but it's going to take a while.
I think the only real way in which I need people's help though, is in terms of observation of your interactions here. I need to watch all of you be as positive as I know you have been, at least in the past; I need to be around that and be exposed to it. Hopefully, that will be enough and I will start to learn ways of becoming more positive again...I do want to, it's just very hard because of some of what I'm going through right now.
I will, however, also gratefully accept any prayer which anyone is willing to offer me, as well.