Hello Neil:
I hope you don't mind me providing it, but here's a link to a thread you started in the past. I believe that some of the responses still apply.
http://afterlife-knowledge.com/cgi-bin/yabb/YaBB.cgi?num=1233807687/15It sounds as if you went from experiencing life as if you were in contact with something, to wondering if some sort of contact still remains. Perhaps this is a good sign.
I believe there are several keys to dealing with this situation:
-Understand that it is completely up to you to decide what kind of person/soul you want to be. I've had a number of experiences with imaginary unfriendly beings my spirit guidance created in order to help me see that it is always up to me when it comes to what kind of person I want to be. I've also had experiences with actual unfriendly beings, and once again it was my choice.
Another key, is letting an unfriendly being know that as far as you're concerned whatever it has to say is completely meaningless, because how could thoughts that come from an unfriendly being have any meaning whatsover?
I figure if I would've responded to the unfriendly beings I encountered with fear or took what they said seriously they might've hung around, but I didn't, and they buzzed off.
I'd tell them different things. Sometimes I'd tell them to pray to God and Christ and ask for forgiveness and help. I know this might sound a bit fundamentalist, but I just wanted to let them know that I'm not somebody to fool around with. That I'm willing to call for divine help if needed. It is also a matter of letting them know where my allegiance is. With the light, not with a bunch of ridiculous, confused and ill meaning thought patterns.
Sometimes I'd tell them that they are really wasting their time, and whether they realize it or not, things are going to become worse and worse for them if they don't change their ways. On the other hand, I also tell them if they decide to change their ways and move on towards the light, their life will get better and better until it is absolutely wonderful. Then I'll tell them, "You can tell that I'm speaking the truth. I have no reason to lie to you."
It is also essential that we take care of whatever it is in our life that troubles and limits us, so we don't become a magnet of the wrong kind. The very fact of how you don't want to be troubled by an unfriendly being suggests that your intentions are pointed in the right direction.
Whatever the case, just in case, I'll say a prayer for you, and send some good energy in your direction.
Regarding suicidal thoughts, this is precisely the kind of thoughts an unfrienldy being would want you to have. Don't give such a being the satisfaction. When it is clear that they can't force you to be something you don't want to be, one reason for having suicidal thoughts will go away.