Greetings kirolak,
Indeed you are welcome!
I'm wondering if your answers aren't already in your question.
You said you don't believe you have ''loved enough.'' And you have been given some information in your chosen language
regarding chords
" that can be "changed by diminishing or augmenting"
them (I studied music!) & which could alter events as
we see them, & even replay them. . . . ."
I'm relating your situation now to an earlier thread-- which may even have been written by an adept.
He said that we can repeat/replay our life events in our minds and edit in our changes, interjecting our more loving process. ("replay them.")
Perhaps the chord/theme/act will then come to a more satisfying conclusion that you create/imagine. It may even take on a life of its own and act out its own surprising developments. It may even move from your editing board/ imagination into the physical realm involving incarnate persons.
You are after all creating life's essence, love.
Start with the easy ones, a minor misunderstanding, gaff, etc until you feel how your heart and body take to this.
You do seem to have been grounded
by the TIAs. If you focus now on adjusting your 'chords' instead of encouraging OBEs, you'll be putting your energy into your heart chakra, thus avoiding the upward whoosh that might be too powerful for your crown area right now.
I slipped and fell in the kitchen once. My head fell six feet to the floor and took the impact of the forced big blood rush from my 'belly-flopper' dive with great surprise! It took a day to get it back to normal functioning, during which time I considered how it would be to die on the kitchen floor. After some consideration I decided it would be kind of funny!
I cartooned the fall for my doctor and he thought it was kind of funny too
Bets