Hi all
I am having such a bad tiome,i am so unhappy,nothing seens worth it anymore,i cant seem to fit in the world anymore no matter how i try,i'm preety but that does not matter anymore,nothing matters anymore,nothing,i have had a lot t0o drink tonight as i want to forget about the fact that i was even born ,i dont knowwhy i'm here,i have had so much hurt from that person i married,why have io had to suffer all my life,is it the fact that i was s9ome kind of bad person in a previous life cause if i was then i've paid my debt in full and i'm tired so tired of paying my debt,li just want to go to sleep and forget everything as i cant take it anymore,i've had enough,had enough ,theres nothing anymore,i'm so tired,so tired,canttake anymore,cant take it God ,you hear me ,cant,cant,cant,cant,cant,no,more,no,miore,no more please God help me ,help me,i dont belong here anymore,i cant take it inside,it hurts to much,please God take this suffering away,i cant take it anymore,you hear  me God.

From juduitha  who loves you God,i wish i was with you.....]

It's okay to feel those things, Juditha. And these feelings will pass. I also feel like this sometimes. Just remember, you will feel better.

Fill yourself up with the beauty that does exist in this world. It is sometimes hard to notice, but it is there.

There are a lot of people who love you, Juditha. The very same ability which allows you to feel so 'blue' also allows you to feel the great joy in your heart which you do feel when you feel close to God.

Just let your tears fall where they may. You are not alone.

Hi moonsandjunes Thanks for what you wrote and i know ypour right,i just feeling sorry for myself right now and i'm rather drunk ar =the moment cayuse i';ve hjad enough

loves judithea      

Juditha:

Perhaps what you should get sick of, is anything that makes you feel afraid or unhappy.  I'd suggest you pray for help, but it might be harder to receive it if you're drunk. Going by what you've written in the past, you've had spiritual experiences that were much more fulfilling than alcohol intoxication.

Try to surround yourself with people who are a pleasure to be around. If they aren't, perhaps a change is needed.

I don't think I will, thats the problem, I want to, I want to be someone else, somewhere else.

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Dear Juditha,

Have you ever read about spirits needing human ectoplasm in order to have enough energy to stay down here and communicate? That's been written about in a lot of 19th Century writings.

DearLady, sometimes you sound just exhausted, unable to face life. Do you think your involvmentwith so many spirits could be taking some of the energy you need?

I find that meeting spirits, retrieving, OBing etc about two times a week is Ok but more begins to drain me of energy.  Everyone's different of course. PUL helps, but who's to say if the PUL you send out is balanced by what they are able to return?

Have you ever had a week or two without spirit contact? If so, can you recall if you became stronger during that time?

Love, Bets