Hi everyone,

I have to ge beyond my ego and ask for some helps.  Since few days, I go trough some fears an anxiety.  I almost sleep 2-3 hours per night and I wake up in fear.  I'm in a state of being I really don't like.  It remembers me my old days. 

If you could send me PUL energy, to help me to go trough this hard time, it would be very appreciated. 

I know that I have to find by myself the cause of those fears, but if information comes to your mind while you do it, don't hesitate to share it here. 


thank you in advance,
pm

 I kind of echo what Albert conveyed.  Often times when we deal with difficult feelings, life experiences, etc., we repress them into the unconscious rather than fully dealing with them directly.

 When we get to a sufficient spiritual state and level of awareness, these repressed energies get brought up to get worked on.  

 No one can work on an issue that they are not that aware of to begin with.  

 Remember when we did a group exploration/healing type thing awhile back, and you were at one point, one of the subjects?  Well the stuff i was picking up at the time didn't make any sense to me consciously because it seemed you were confident, physically fit, etc.  One of the main things i picked up on was emotional-physical insecurities relating to body image etc.    

 Like i said, it didn't make sense at the time from what little i knew of you consciously, later on down the road you shared some info about your earlier life, how unhealthy, unfit, and unhappy you used to be.   These were very difficult times and feelings for you, and i think for awhile you concentrated so much on rectifying things "immediately" and in a more physical kind of way, that you kind of glossed over the psychic, unconscious, and feeling parts of it (as we men are more inclined to do).   In other words, the healing wasn't complete and holistic enough.

  So some of these repressed issues are surfacing again to be worked on.   But please check all the above from what you get while turning within and tapping into your own guidance.   I could be off about some things.  

 Next time i meditate, i intend on feeling some PUL towards you.  I sense you are beautiful, older soul type, and quite frankly you deserve to be consistently happy, joyous, and at peace.   Please keep that in mind.

Thank you so much.  

Today was a much greater day.  Yesterday I had a breakthrough  for the understanding of my current situation.  I now understand the specific work I have to do on myself, and some error I have done recently.

This episode surly created some chaos within my emotions and my mind, but in a long-term, it'll be amazingly benefit.  

recoverer:

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I think something like that  happened to me.  A mask (of illusions) felt, and my fears was seen as fears, not illusion to mask them.

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In the past, yes.  But I think it will be a good idea to redo this list.

Justin:

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You really got an hit on that one.  This is a big issue right now for me...  I worked on that the wrong way, but hopefully, I can now make progress... even if it's little step.

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Well said.  Maybe I tried to much to make things happen, instead of allowing them to happen.  I must find the right balance between doing and allowing thing to happen.  So helping them, not forcing them.

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I'll keep that in mind.  It's really appreciated  

Bets:

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I'll do step by step this time, not trying to rush.  Who know, maybe it will be a big leap forward


Thank you again for your good help,
pm

PhantasyMan;
Thanks for asking; much appreciated.

Sending PUL you way for understanding.
So be it.

PUL,
R.

That's pretty good PhantasyMan. I can't say my interpretation is more accurate, but here goes. It may be that both interpretations are correct:

The garage represents lower energy (this is what garages have represented to me in the past). Your father represents your lower human biological self. I saw him working on something because aspects of your lower self have become activated. Eating sphaghetti means consuming tangled up energy that is confusing.  Confused by aspects that come from your animal self, such as your self defense instinct and sex drive. Tomato sauce (I don't remember seeing the sauce), because of the color red, could represent lower chakra energy.



PhantasyMan wrote on Jan 11^th, 2009 at 2:21pm:

Hi SnoozE,

Welcome! 
(Your English is fine!)

I had some visions of attacks similiar to yours. In my similiar cases it turned out that I had an uncle who liked to toss me into the air when I was an infant.  That is how he played with children. 
But sometimes he caught me wrong, and as an adult I began having pain where he caught me.
( I remembered all this when I saw my nephew play with his infant brother in the same way.)
When I happened to forgive him in my mind, a tightness there (from pain and fear that it could happen again somehow) relaxed. After that amazing relief I purposely say in my mind that I forgive him any time the tightness starts to return. And it works!   
I hope this gives you some ideas to try  

Betson

Welcome aboard Snooze
Looking forward to read some of your experiences..

PUL
R.