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Spooky

Vee;
Tomorrow is your day...enjoy dear Soul
Thank you all for joining in for Vee

Let us know how it went Vee..

PUL; R.

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Hehe Vee, exactly that was it what I thought/felt when I tried to help you. I remembered incidences where I was loosing my temper, and it was a real challenge to me. The ultimate solution would be to immediately become aware of "the situation", you know, that there IS now a situation of that kind, and then turn away from it- saying ahh yes, there is this, there is that, I see, but I don't care, it doesn't touch me. I had to realize that seemingly I have a similar problem. I still hope my problem is a bit different of yours, so that I could (and can) send you informations which are possibly useful for you.

Spooky

Hi Romain. Thanks for your post and your kind sending of PUL to me and meeting me in the coffee shop.

The woman who rose out of me and stood tall and proud was my Higher Power, Higher Self, I met her just a few days ago and saw her do exactly what you described...move out of my body and stand above me, a strong force indeed. I felt good to connect with her, in that CERTAINTY and strength.

Yesterday in talking with a very dear old friend, we were talking about learning how to ask for bank loans, start businesses, the strength it takes and the courage, and how hard it is to start doing that stuff, and she thought always I was so much beyond her in that strength!! HO HO.

I told her how, when I was in my early teens, we lived out in a remote place and to get anywhere we had to go to the highway and flag down the Greyhound bus. So I did this one day to get to town, by myself, no one protected us from much in our family, and alone by the highway I flagged down the bus and guess what? The bus just shot on past me and left me in its dust by the side of the road.

That message went ridiculously deeply into my core and for the rest of my life I never believed a bus would stop for me, an inner city bus or any kind of bus. If no one else was at the bus stop, my anxiety was huge until the bus came and actually stopped, even though I was standing at a bus stop.

A thousand things like that happened to me, and so when I nowadays, as an old lady of 64 go into a place of business and am ignored or neglected or made to feel stupid and a nuisance by the youthful staff, I just fly right off the handle.

And I know how to use language effectively and terrify the little monsters, so I do. Only thing is, then weeks later I need their services again and of course I have left an indelible mark on my relationships in that place of business.

So there is a huge price to pay for this indignation and resentment and, according to Stuart Wilde and his writings, I am supposed to be trying to become a Warrior Sage...like Bruce.

Well ho ho, I guess I have a long road to travel to get there. How to overcome this resentment and anger? You see, I can get out of body, three cheers for me, and send PUL to people, and fly out phasing and see vast landscapes and have fun out there and retrieve lost souls, and go to the Park, it's great, except when it comes to interaction out in the market place, I am Genghis Khan on horseback with my sword flashing in the sun. Vee

Thank you Bets! As Winston Churchill once said, Never never never never never give up. We went on to win that war..I think. And we create our own experience, so each time I meet with this kind of problem in my daily life, it is something I have created myself. Now that's something I never thought about before. Ah Ha. Thanks to all who participated in sending me PUL with regard to this difficult challenge. Vee

How startled I was the other day to read your post describing seeing my Higher Power emerge from my body!!!! It was unbelievable, you should have seen the same thing I did at that "imaginary" cafe!!! It felt very pleasant and strange to see her, Romain. I am not able to identify myself with her at this point, she is way beyond me. I felt warmth, compassion and unconditional support coming from her. I also felt that she had total faith in me and there was a certainty that I would one day measure up. It was, like, unavoidable, that kind of feeling. But she was kind of Royal and wore her dignity and assurance with such ease, no question about it. I think it is the kind of assurance that comes with knowing you are loved, unconditionally. There is more to PUL than just giving, the receiving end is what transforms us...I think. Like, I had trouble Receiving the PUL you all sent, because I think, none of you out there have this kind of dark energy problem, you all sound so incredibly enlightened. I'm probably hopeless. So the PUL didn't get in very far. Today I had a small enlightenment with regard to my anger problem, a friend showed me her copy of the book, The Secret which I had not looked at yet. I didn't expect it to be as good as the film. As I looked through it, I was struck by how well they did the job of putting it in writing. And specially where they explained about how we bring negative outcomes toward us, by saying, for some examples: I don't want these shoes to fit badly, I hope they don't. (They won't fit.) or I do hope the car doesn't break down on the trip to Victoria. (It will.) And so on. I thought, OK, I say to myself now all the time, "I hope I can stop being angry when I am meet those old circumstances again." (I will be angry). or what I feel is, "I will never defeat this anger problem, I will always lose it when I run into this problem downtown." (I will never defeat it.)  Vee