PhantasyMan: I'm a bit late to answer your questions, but nothing can stop you to extend your meditation about me for some more days
. I'm fourty years now, about my bodily health I only can tell that the standard examination some months back showed that I'm perfectly healthy, only underweighted, I have some flaws which feel like physical, but so far a physical reason couldn't be found; my usual sleep pattern indeed is that I go to bed way past midnight, but as I wrote, since a few days I go to bed around 11pm.
Blink (and all):
Yesterday (Thursday) was a bit different. I still felt quite well, and have good sleep. I felt a strong desire to read some Zen texts, I've always felt a strong affinity to this, and read some. When I went to bed yesterday night I practised a bit what I've read, combining it with what I have experienced on my mind journeys. There actually were brief moments of experiencing and realizing oneness, one time accompanied by an energy wave. The sitting person you saw, well, what could it have been other than someone practising Zazen
? My starting place for meditations regarding oneness is similar to outer space, as it is a place distanced from the physical earth, but furthermore, outside of time and space. When I was at TMI, there was an exercise of becoming bigger and bigger (or, seeing more and more of the whole) and after I saw stars, galaxies, clusters of galaxies the final image I saw was a regular cross (the shape it would have when consisting of 5 squares). Or maybe the X is showing my attempt to get past the ego? Or something we don't know.
So, sending out healing energy isn't a one-way street it seems, and I'm happy you've had an interesting time
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That spot in the middle of my body is a hard nut, it's still there. I noticed it get's better when I consciously accept it, whatever is happening there.
Spooky