Justin aka asltaomr
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Hi Alan,
I guess i've tended to be much less skeptical about the whole reincarnation issue than yourself. I've had some verifications here and there of hunches, dream info, and info that sensitives told me (which when pieced together added up to a very similar picture).
But hard core verifications as in scientific method...well don't know if this likely, and i haven't experienced it.
One of the more affecting experiences and verifications i had, happened rather spontaneously and out of the blue.
Many years ago, i had this really vivid dream wherein i was at a large library and a very wise seeming older looking man handed another man, whom i knew was "me" and/or an aspect of our Greater self, a large book. I was experiencing the dream as a detached observer and from inside this man too.
The man opened up the book and a very vivid and real life, 3D type movie began to unfold. To make a somewhat long story short, both "me's" started to observe this other man, a rough trapper type (a white, euro-american) guy trudging through the forest. As both we's were watching this "movie" we started to experience it from the perspective of the settler/trapper guy too and i knew he was a part of us as well. He got mauled by a bear, the bear didn't kill him though, and a Native American half breed healer woman found him and tried to nurse him back to life. For some reason, in the dream she strongly reminded me of the singer songwriter Tori Amos and i jotted that down in my dream journal even though i thought it was rather odd and out of place at the time. I don't remember if she looked like her or what. Remember she was half N.A. and half White.
A few years or so later, i became friends with a lady on an astrology site, we had many deeper commonalities (as well as more superficial things, like i found out i use to live right near where she was and had been living for awhile), and we both felt rather familiar to each other but we didn't talk much at all about past life stuff.
Not too long after becoming friends, her husband whom she was very close too, died accidentally and out of the blue. She was very devastated and became very grief stricken and became very wrapped up in her own self and pain. For whatever reason, i felt a very strong, deep, and pervasive sense of obligation or duty to her and i told myself that i would be there for her no matter what, and honestly that wasn't always easy at times. Normally, i'm not very good at keeping up communications especially through email and online kinds, i'm a rather detached and very Aquarian like in my relationships.
We ended up meeting in C1 a few times overall when i visited that area i use to live at because of family and friends. One night when at a bar together, while talking, for some reason she looked a lot like or reminded me very strongly of Tori Amos. This dream had been years before, i hadn't consciously thought of it for a long time, but all of a sudden the dream clicked in my head and i started getting this stream of impressions about her, us, our other selves all connected to that dream from a few years back.
I "knew" beyond a doubt that she was the half breed Native American woman and very talented healer in the dream who had tried to nurse that other self of mine back to life, and i got info that i did not remember from the dream, like that we had a relationship and that i ended up hurting her a lot (emotionally). I got more detailed info than that as well, but i decided to ask her if she felt she had strong connections to North Native American at all.
She said yeah, and at one point it was pretty strong and especially along healing stuff. I decided to just let go with all the impressions i was getting, and gave her all the main points in the above and some other info about "us" then, and as i was telling her she got a very strange expression on her face. After i finished and some silence, she told me that many years ago her spiritual mentor an older lady, decided to give her a unique b-day present. She knew an even older lady who use to give intuitive other life readings and who was involved with the A.R.E. for many years, and decided to ask her if she would give our mutual friend a reading even though she didn't do that anymore for the most part. She agreed and two major lives and their influences came up in the reading.
One was when she was a very gifted and intuitive Native American/White mix healer who became involved passionately with a settler, white man, but who ended up hurting her a lot. She was told she and the man had unfinished business and that she would meet him again in this life. In that life, both felt like outsiders and parts of two worlds. Though the settler didn't have Native blood, in many ways he fit in more with the tribes, but yet he was still apart and not fully accepted by them and he because of his close relations with the "heathen" Natives, he was not fully accepted by the White folks either. She being half breed had a hard time, but because of her gifts in healing and her general intuitiveness she was important to her tribe.
Anyways, a lot of the major and minor parts all fitted together and lined up.
Was it just a coincidence? To further complicate things, the man i viewed in the library was given psychic info regarding some of his other lives and one of his influening ones was as a settler/mercenary during very early American period, who became deeply involved with the Native Americans (both in positive and very destructive ways on both sides), and in particular a woman who was a half breed healer whom he had a relationship with and hurt a lot and the woman who had had this life, was told she became very embittered towards Whites, and especially white men after her experience with whom and what the psychic source called a "wastrel".
I had this dream at a time during greater inner turmoil and doubt regarding some info i had been getting regarding other lives of mine. I had had some strong hunches, had been to a couple of sensitives, had some other dreams, etc. which all strongly led me to believe that some of my hunches might be true.
But at the same time, i was worried it was just ego crap and that i was possibly deluding myself even though i had experienced a lot of synchronicity and matching info on many levels in many areas previously, even BEFORE i had any conscious belief in a particular other life or before i consciously entertained same.
This dream came when i basically threw my hands up and said i give up, this is causing too much inner turmoil.
Anyways, the dream and the later experience with that particular friend, now makes a lot of sense on many levels, particularly my unusually strong inner need and desire to be there for her no matter what, the deep obligation i felt to her as if i was righting some deep wrong to her. And its interesting how i came into her life, right before all that really challenging stuff happened and i ended up being one of the few people, if not the only person to consistently keep in touch with her for a long while after.
Now, was it hard core verification? Probably not, but it was deeply meaningful to both of us and we both deeply felt the truth of this synchronicity. To me, reincarnation and karma is all about relationships and balance. The physical offers unique experiences and conditions, maybe not completely necessary to begin with but when one does become involved because of the nature of energy, attachments, etc., we tend to get somewhat stuck in relation to the physical and the relationships we have here.
Or like Bruce said in his story of Curiosity the probe, one of the pig pulls to the physical and to having other lives, was simply these emotional things and relationships, debts, etc. that Curiosity kept on creating in its relationships with other Probes and yet always feeling the need to balance and right once created. That's the God part of us, the part of us which knows exactly what is right and loving and which desires perfect balance and perfect love.
Someone once asked a well known psychic source this, "What will convince me of reincarnation?"
The source just simply and succinctly answered, "An experience." I've had enough experiences to realize that while the whole thing may be a bit more complicated than certain Eastern belief systems have promoted, and that we can sort of take in memories from other Souls/Discs, our own Souls/Disks still have their own physical lives and the karma connected to them independent of any memory melding type thing. And instead of completely linear lives and gradual evolution through space/time, its much more like a Disk thing that Bruce talks about wherein a Greater self which exists outside of space/time, projects many various aspects of itself into various space/time cycles and not necessarily in a linear way that we tend to think and perceive from.
The truth is not either or, but both and all inclusive. But to each their own and nobody is going to convince anybody else with the most logical arguments and/or the sharing of one's own personal experiences, or with collected data. In order to believe, you have to be open to begin with, in order to have an experience it really helps to have some openness to begin with. People can get really caught up in endless straw man arguments (on both sides), and more and more lately such stuff seems like a waste of time to me. And yet, part of the reason we exist is to self express and to share and so maybe it's not a complete waste of time.
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