Alfred
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Hallo All!
Those who've been following this thread will know the background to this story, and anybody new hopefully can refer back on it.
I promised to post a message about a contact with my mother (I believe) which has happened since the earlier messages, and since my posting on the Retrieval Forum, so here it is.
First of all, last tuesday (1st Apr) evening, a cool, sunny evening, about 5.15pm UK time, something happened which at the very least is very aptly symbolic, but perhaps more than that. My mother's bedroom is pretty much as she left it when she went off to hospital for that final illness (just as an aside, she was quite chipper when she left, and our only doubts were whether she'd be home before the weekend of the 23/24th Feb, or after. In the hospital A & E, she was in much better fettle than on some previous occasions when she'd gone there - but, as usual, I digress!). I had occasion to go into her room, and, just in time before stepping on it, saw a queen wasp on the carpet beside her bed. It was very groggy and almost too feeble to move much. As an amateur entomologist (bugman!), I knew this wasp would have been hibernating for the winter somewhere in the room, which is not uncommon, sometimes in curtain folds, or under the bed, etc. and had woken up intending to start a new colony outside. If she did not escape the room, she would soon die of dehydration and starvation. This one wouldn't have made it on her own. I coaxed the wasp onto a piece of paper and placed both on my mother's bed while I went to get some honey and water in a teaspoon. The wasp drank this for a good solid 10 minutes (like a thirsty man given water in a desert!), visibly gaining strength all the time, vibrating her abdomen, etc. When done, she had a thorough wash-and-brush up, cleaning feelers, jaws, legs and all, and started to walk about on the paper vibrating her wings. I knew she was strong enough to leave then, and held paper and wasp up to the open window, gave a tap, and away she flew into the sunlight. I was pleased to have helped, but didn't really give it too much thought just then. In bed that night, in the early hours of Wednesday morning, about 6.15am UK time, I found myself in a half-awake state. I was, though, conscious enough to feel a need to mentally ask if my mother was there. The instant I expressed this thought, like a bolt from the blue I experienced a jolting, almost physical, all-enveloping hug, which felt wonderful, suffusing my entire body with a blissful warmth, tingling and love. At the same time, I felt my face break into a broad happy smile, almost unconsciously. This smile I have sometimes experienced when deeply under the influence of certain Hemi-Sync tapes, but the "hug" itself was unique, something I've never experienced before. In fact "hug" is a very poor term to fully describe the feeling. This wonderful sensation lasted perhaps for 10 seconds (though judging time is not easy, it could have been more, or less) faded briefly, then came back less intensely, before subsiding. I tried to project a feeling of thanks and love back.
Shortly after, I fell asleep, but the memory of the event was still extra-vivid when I awoke, and I think will be one of those memories which will always be vivid in my mind (like the visitation dream from my father, after he passed on 19 years ago). I KNOW that must have been my mum! As for the wasp incident, in hindsight, it has tremendous symbolic significance, if nothing else, especially as it preceded the experience above. My mum had been effectively trapped in her room, and the upstairs of the house, since her mobility badly declined over 2 years ago. The thirst and starvation of the wasp before drinking the honey reflected my mother's hospital experience - she was placed on Nil-by-Mouth when admitted, due to the aspiration pneumonia caused by swallowing problems, and never ate or drank again up to the time she passed away 5 days later. Because she developed fluid on the lungs, even her IV drip was removed. But most of all, I think, and hope, it seems to symbolise her progress in the Afterlife - after rest and restoration from the horrendous final illness, and from the insidious long-term Alzheimer's, she was now free to move off and out into the light, and as a result, could visit me with that wonderful hug!
All best wishes,
Alfred
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