LaffingRain
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Choose this Day
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all I can say is don't give up hope you will make contact. since you said you read everything and nothing helps I won't direct you to what worked for me. I can share a few thoughts about when I lost my husband back in 83. maybe it might help you, if it just gave you some hope that it will happen for you.
I empathize the enormous pain of losing someone is the most truamatic thing can happen to any parent.
me and my husband made a deal whoever crossed first would contact the other one with reports how they were doing on the other side. so this way I had it set up, where you didn't have that ahead of time.
yet maybe heres a clue: when that huge feeling of grief comes to you, where u feel the loss, think a thought that just possibly, someday, somehow, you can contact him. when we grieve, we are essentially closing down the doors to contact, with that grief itself. So I told you a clue, that you are going to grieve, for as long as it takes, the sorrow becomes bearable over time, yet the sooner you can produce the idea contact is possible, then you build on that possibility, stronger and stronger, you can believe, then you can open the door for your son to make you aware that he is there, and perhaps he is there, more often than you can imagine right now. there's that love bond to consider. If you love him as much as you say you do, then he is loving you back and trying to reach you too. its a job. I know. god bless you. I wish I could help more. love, alysia
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