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Alan:
Dave and Vajra are coming from an Eastern perspective. I know this perspective quite well, because I was involved with it for years. Eventually, after finding about false guru after false guru, I allowed my self question the viewpoints of the Eastern way of thinking.
First I did so on my own. I thought I had it covered. Then after being in abidance for a number of years, my kundalini reawakened. This was a concern for me because I knew that kundalini can be troublesome at times, and I knew that I couldn't rely on gurus for help. So I prayed for help from spirit guidance and received it. In my case, this help has come from Christ and higher self.
Eventually, I found that I hadn't gotten over certain nihilistic eastern ideas as much as I thought. I found that there were parts of myself that didn't want to let go and open to love completely, because I believed that doing so meant that I'd have to become non-existent as an individual soul.
Fortunately, because I opened myself to spirit guidance, I have been shown in various ways that ourselves don't dissolve into nothingness, as soon as some supposed delusional sequence of thoughts some how thinks us out of existence. I'll share an experience I had before, in order to share what oneness actually means:
One night while laying in bed awake I wondered about what oneness is. My higher self responded by providing me with this experience. I found myself walking on a city street (not physically). I was very happy and excited because I understood that everything is one self. I walked up to complete strangers and hugged them, and they hugged me back, because they also understood that everything is one self. The city, the people I hugged, and my existence as a unique being didn't have to be negated, in order for the truth of one self to exist. It is just that this one self, call it God if you like, has the ability to manifest in many ways and still be its divine self, despite how nihilistic gurus say that everything has to revert back to pure consciousness before this can be the case. The problem arrised during this experience, when I first tried to hug my mom, and then a lady I found physically attractive. This is because my limiting ideas about them prevented me from loving them completely and therefore experiencing oneness with them.
If one believes that one is going to be able to reach the point where one can think one's self out of existence, one is fooling one's self.
What I write isn't a matter of my clinging to wishful thinking as Dave suggested above. It is more of a matter of my forgetting what the gurus have to say long enough, so I could see if it is possible that the divine source of everything just might've come up with a way to make it so that in the end, many souls and God get to share a marvelous state of love and oneness with each other. Years ago I had what I refer to as my night in heaven experience. I experienced myself as a bodyless being who abided in a realm of wonderful happiness with many other beings. I understood this to be the state that we eventually reach. For the life of me, I don't know why a being would want to think its way out of such a glorius state. Because some guru claims that nothing other than pure awareness is real enough to be everlasting? If the awareness aspect of being is real, then so is the energetic/creative aspect, so what's this talk of only the awareness aspect of being being everlasting?
My guess is that Dave views the higher self/disk/I-there/oversoul viewpoint some of us speak of as nothing but a high level of ignorance. Until he opens himself up to such an experience, he his "not" qualified to comment on it. Neither was a person such as Ramana Maharshi who spoke as if he knew who he was, yet never said anything to indicate that he had even a clue about the higher self/disk/over soul level of existence. Ramana Maharshi said that a mountain was his guru. I on the other hand receive guidance from light beings who clearly don't have to be negated into nothingness, in order for divine reality to exist.
Questions: 1. Why would God/source being bother with creating all of us, it the plan is to dissolve all of us into nothingness at the end (The Eastern viewpoint is that everything that has been created is nothing more than a big mistake, illusion, maya, samsara). 2. Is love important? 3. If it is, who would God share love and oneness with, if there was nobody to share it with? 4. If we all eventually get negated as if we are nothing more than a bunch of unwanted warts, does this mean that God is much crueler than the fire and brimstone viewpoint some people have? 5. If a spirit being uses its creative aspect of being in a loving and intelligent way, is there a need to lable such activity as nothing but a play of ignorance?
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