LaffingRain
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based on just what we can call medium tendencies and obe tendencies also, I can stick to experiences as these seem to be what folks understand best.
my experiences are in what I call the astral areas or we could say focus levels 10 on up to 27 and once in awhile focus 33.
when I obed and dreamed I was dead was a time I was just beginning to do retrievals in conscious manner with phasing. there was a very real sense that I was "released". actually, in physical reality, I was freed from a role where I was realizing I was playing the role of my mother's daughter whom wished to win her love. so you may see here that the daughter role died. In the roles we play in life a large belief system complete with attendant expectations, emotions, desires, is built into a role that we as spirit put on, and essentially, my mother and I had become room mates, in one swift moment when I realized she was incapable of being the mother I had expected her to be for 55 years. I released the need to attain her love and she presented to me her inability in this matter.
actually a burden was lifted from the heart to complete the karmic ties with her, and realize we are spirit which dons different roles life after life. so I was floating out there in the obe feeling rather free at first, noting I was no longer attached to whatever I had been attached to.
I had no memories at this level just a sense that was of the adventurous sort, in my essence which must always seek interaction with others and communication.
so perhaps we can say the memories are saved as the akashic records, and what changes in death is the roles we play, as we can come back and play different roles to one another. waking up was strange the next day as it felt like a new life was to begin and it really was all new.
also my grandmother, deceased retained her form and acted as guide to my mother, we both could see in our mind's eye her form living with us in the house. when I established contact with her, I asked her to change into her younger self for my sake to see. she did and was at once a young lovely woman. then I asked why she did not retain her youthful appearance? she replied mother had an image of her older self as she looked just before she died, and that mother would have difficulty remembering her youthful appearance.
so we are not talking about an enlightened, self realized family..just down home folks in my family, bunch of rowdies actually but admirable in a sort of rough way.
my sister died young, at 38 or so, and was astral bound for a number of years before I knew consciously to help her get on. she also took the form of a 13 yr old younger version of herself to appear to mother whom failed to recognize it was her. my sister haunted the family a bit, until she could contact me and settle our differences via a conversation. then she went to live on I think focus 27, she had a house, I saw it, she had a new beau, it could have been focus 23 though. but it was definetely a rise for her from the lower astral to something better.
and so I'm not answering the question you brought up very well Ian.
I have heard from another explorer that his parents he has contacted whom passed over and he said they were not as emotional as they had been in life but they were still together and were pleasant to him.
I think perhaps in relationship to Buddism, we can say where we have been defines to some degree where we are headed, in that our experiences produce an essence, which experience cannot be the whole of us, but we distill our characters from the many experiences and roles we play life after life. I'm reading of root races at present. apparently the 6th and 7th root race has begun its work of evolvement here, these are the ones who were born after 1900, these are the ones who can reach enlightenment the quicker. some say there are nine root races, just depends which book.
a personal self versus an impersonal self, I don't know what that means. you'll have to explain it better Ian. Basically PUL runs the universe and it adds to a soul, but does not take anything away from a soul, so I don't see loss in the term, personal loss of self. in enlightenment an expansion of awareness occurs instead of a contraction of awareness and I would think on the other side, a continuation of this expansion process occurs, what is started on this side. there are a loss of anger, hatred, and lust upon death in a process where the emotional body, as these are building blocks, these are real material of finer nature, does disintegrate gradually within the lower astral field, which I am sure my sister was trying to burn off all her bitterness over dying young and she finally did. also while she did this sloughing off of her hurt and anger, she took care of abused horses, and was burning off some karmic thing doing that, as she had a great love of horses.
while the self is being cleansed, it feels like part of you is dying, because we get so attached to the idea that an emotion, or a role is us. so it wants to live. if it's no longer useful and slows us down, it has to break away from us, and I think the Buddhist are talking about the negatives are dying, but whatever is a fruit of the soul endures along with the sense "I am."
what I think this is, is a person begins to realize they own their soul, but before claiming ownership they may go thru very difficult trials.
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