Hey old friends... Im back and ready for some more action!!! hehehe

I have cut my old journal entries and placed them into this new thread so it is much smaller in size.  Enjoy the new entries, I plan to keep them coming...

JOURNAL ENTRY 15 Reply #51 - Dec 4th, 2006, 1:32pm

Last night I listened to Wave 2 part 2. I read in one of Bruce's articles that he had a convo with himself and requested to be able to percieve the nonphysical wheneever he desired, and he said that it works almost always. So thats exactly what I did. I didn't really have a convo, it was more of a one sided deal. Do you know if your suppost to imagine that your higher self is responding and come up with the other end of the dialogue yourself, or are you suppost to actually recieve responces? Maybe I should try it again and imagine I'm getting responces. It just seemed a little silly to me last night. 

Im starting to get really deep. A little disoriented at times, seeing different lights at times and moving dark objects. Its not like I felt when first starting. Then I knew I was in focus ten but my perception basically stayed the same in that state. But now it feels different. However, when it gets really different for some reason my eyes start to open. I dont know why. Just when I know Im really about to see something and go further then Ive been so far, my eyes seem to open if I dont clench them shut. But then that disrupts my relaxation a little. Any advise? Does this happen to anyone else?

JOURNAL ENTRY 16 Reply #55 - Dec 5th, 2006, 12:05pm


Wave 2 part 1. Now before I go on I just want to point out my mom was in the room next to mine in a very heated arguement on the phone, so I had to listen to that nonsense while trying to relax and do my thing... a very difficult task. So I get into focus 10, and I find it very easy to pass of my moms yelling, which is unusual for me. I actually feel an expansion into focus 12 too... which is crazy, I never would Have thought I could get so deep with all the commotion in the other room. But I realized it was definantly holding me back and I was loosing my focus, so I stopped. 
WHile falling asleep I skipped to Wave 3. Here he gives you an exercise where you create your own light rod tool. THen you imagine you have a shell of light on your body, and a didffernet color shell represents a different physical function of your body. Then if you have any dim spots on the light shell, you heal it with the light rod tool. I must say, I think it may have worked a little. I feel so good today. I usually always feel good, but today I feel especially good.    Very cool.

Reply #57 - Dec 5th, 2006, 3:09pm

I forgot to mention that last night during my session I began to have extreme energy sensations on the right side of my throat. It started just as a twitching, but before long there was energy shooting down my body from that spot and it was almost electrifying. I dont know why but I tend to get random energy activation at random places on my body. I was not comfortable with it after a while and rubbed it out. That didn't help much but I couldnt get rid of it by just focusing.


JOURNAL ENTRY 17 Reply #58 - Dec 6th, 2006, 1:23pm

I listened to Wave 2 part 1. I was really tired while doing it, so I wasn't really getting the most out of this session. What I remember is feeling disoriented, I think I was going deeper than I have before. Like I was lost in the blackness. 

This morning I woke up, and went back to sleep. But When I went back to sleep, I seemed to have entered that weird state I would go into in the morning where I would vaugly remember being somewhere else and being taught things. Well while in this state I was semi consious. I remember viewing the universe, I dont know if it was this one, but I remember seeing starts and I was in space. I just get the feeling Ive been getting where I was just told something but do not remember it.  I'm almost positive its my higher self. Ive been trying for so long to reach me, there has to be some communication going on.  I feel it.

Journal Entry 18 Reply #61 - Dec 8th, 2006, 12:18pm

Last night I decided to back to the basics and did a focus ten exercise. My proficency for entering focus ten has probably doubled since my last f10 exercise. After getting into ten I did a focus 12 exercise and got the usual expansion feeling. Ive been reading Bruces articles lately, so I decided that maybe to phase I need to start it out as an imaginational scene. So I imagined meeting with my guide, he was human form but made of light. I was talking to him for a bit, and then asked to do a retrieval at a hollow heaven. So we went to this place with lots of clouds, and I tried to talk to someone but it was a little awkward, so I changed my mind and asked to go to the park in focus 27. I tried to imagine what the park looked like the best I could.. I was still imagining this journey. Then I imagined talking to the lady at the park that Monroe described in Ultimate Journey, the one who greets everyone. I got a distinct picture in my head of what she looked like, so I was talking to her for a little bit but couldn't come up with many good questions. I was hoping maybe this imaginational journey would jumpstart some phasing but I dont think it did. After it didn't work out I just layed in the blackness. I was always seeing things, mainly just different shades of grey and black, some little lights. I would get a distinct picture of someone every now and then. One time a scene of two women walking in a distinct place outdoors flashed in my head. I concentrated on it but nothing happened. I was also shown a picture of this guys face. He reminded me of a backstreet boy haha. I read in Bruces article that in order for a retreival or phasing to work you have to totally shut down "the interpreter" and only be the perciever. Its hard though because every time I see somthing I immediately ask to myself who is that what should I do this and that. Any tips would be appreciated.

JOURNAL ENTRY 19 Reply #68 - Dec 10th, 2006, 1:58pm

Last night I take it back to focus ten excerisises again. I'm on Wave 1 part 6. It seems like each time I do an exercise I get deeper than before, and faster. I get the 3D blackness almost half way through the tape, about 15 min... which is my record so far.  I see things that look like some hyroglyphics or some kind of symbols. I see this chineese dragon type thing. Then I see dots of light all over, and they start moving as if I'm moving through them. But I only get this feeling when I'm out of body, moving through space quickly. I'm thinking maybe this was the begining of a phase? I'm not too sure. The morning session was much much better...

This morning I woke up and decided to try an exercise in the morning. I've never done this before so I did not know what to expect. You know what happened? OBEEEEEEEsssssss.  I was laying down, and realised I was getting the sinking sensation that I get before I project. So I got vibrations soon after, and floated out. My vision was terrible at first, I couldn't see a thing. So I moved away from my body and demanded clarity and to be able to see, and my vision came. I floated out of my room through the wall and outside. As I was going through the wall, the first thing I saw outside is somthing I'm not too sure of, but for some reason I have a memory of it and a strong impression. But I'm not sure if I really saw this or not. But I think I saw an angel looking being floating up. I looked to the right, and about a foot away from my house was a door, just floating there. It was wobbling around a little bit. I wanted to go investigate but I was sucked back into my body. 

I was easily able to slip out again.  This time I rolled to my left. But my vision was terrible again. The demands for clarity and sight did not work, so I decided to try the good old spin around a billion times technique that I discovered to work well for sight.  It did not work too well though, so I flew up through the house and into the sky. My sight came when I was up in the sky finally. I think that when I spun around, I transported myself to a very very strange place. The sky looked like a cartoon. It honestly looked like it was drawn with colored pensils and crayons. So I flew down and saw a large field. This field also seemed like a cartoon. I saw very strange abstract sculptures. Then I saw something protruding from the field. I think it may have been bushes. They were sculpted into letters. The letters read... Georges Dream. I got a feeling that I may have been in someones dream world. My memory fades at this point and I don't remember much else. 

I think I'm going to do an exersise every morning. This one provided a few OBEs with no effort on my part, so daddy likes.

OBE December 12, 2006, 03:17:15 AM

I was laying down after waking up, and realised I was getting the sinking sensation that I get before I project. So I got vibrations soon after, and floated out. My vision was terrible at first, I couldn't see a thing. So I moved away from my body and demanded clarity and to be able to see, and my vision came. I floated out of my room through the wall and outside. It was extremely bright and sunny outside.  The moment I was outside, an Angel flew in front of me and up into the sky.   I looked to the right, and about a foot away from my house was a door, just floating there. It was wobbling around a little bit. I wanted to go investigate but I was sucked back into my body. 

I was easily able to slip out again.  This time I rolled to my left. But my vision was terrible again. The demands for clarity and sight did not work, so I decided to try the good old spin around a billion times technique that I discovered to work well for sight.  It did not work too well though, so I flew up through the house and into the sky. My sight came when I was up in the sky finally. I think that when I spun around, I transported myself to a very very strange place. The sky looked like a cartoon. It honestly looked like it was drawn with colored pensils and crayons. So I flew down and saw a large field. This field also seemed like a cartoon. I saw very strange abstract sculptures. Then I saw something protruding from the field. I think it may have been bushes. They were sculpted into letters. The letters read... Georges Dream. I got a feeling that I may have been in someones dream world. My memory fades at this point and I don't remember much else. 

JOURNAL ENTRY 20 Reply #70 - Dec 14th, 2006, 5:36pm

Since my last entry, I have been doing the exercises. However Ive been experiencing a hell of a lot of clicking out.  I think I have clicked out just about every night for the past 4 days.  I finally got Bruces Afterlife Knowledge Guidebook, and I read last night about the interpreter and perciever and how it relates to clicking out. So at least now I know why I was doing it and fix the problem.  Yesterday afternoon I clicked out within one minute. I can't believe I did that. I remember hearing the introduction to the exercise, and the next thing I know its over.  I think a big factor of my clicking out is that Ive been getting to bed too late. I need to start regulating my bed time!

This morning I woke up and listened to advanced focus ten while falling back to sleep. But only my body fell back to sleep. I got vibrations and floated out.  Some strange things happened that I will try to explain.  After a short while of exploring I went back into my body. Only I wasnt in my bed. I was in my old bed, at my old house, with my old sheets on me. But at the time, I didnt even realise I was not in the right bed. And I was listening to the same exercise too. So I relaxed again, and had another OBE.  I got out, and was somehow at a hotel on one of the top floors.  I flew out the window and saw one of my friends in the pool below. I went back into my body unintentionally soon after, but this time I was back in my real bed. In each of my OBEs, I was able to hear Roberts voice while he was talking.  Even when I ended up in my old house.  Crazy stuff.

JOURNAL ENTRY 21 Reply #72 - Dec 15th, 2006, 1:58pm

I have been reading Afterlife Knowledge Guidebook, and am about 3/4 through.  A lot of my questions about phasing have been answered so far, and the book has given me a vast amount of tips on doing it. So I decided to try an exercise from the book while listening to advanced focus 10.

I place intent to contact and retrieve an individual who is stuck. Then I place intent to meet with a helper.  I imagine a being of bright light coming to me, and I hug it. Immediately I get a very strong sensation of love. Very strong. I did not even intend to feel this way.  So I introduce myself and say, lets go help someone.  I see tall buildings, were flying down from the sky, its a street in a semi-large city.  We float down to a black woman on the corner of the sidewalk.  I indroduce myself, she told me her name but I forget it.  I ask what she is doing, and she said she was waiting for her friend to pick her up.  I asked how long she was waiting for, and I think she said something like .. a while.  So I said, well my friend can give you a ride to where you need to go. She agreed to come.  Just then the helper pulled up in a taxi-looking car.  The woman sat in the front, and I was in the back.  I think the helper was talking to her for a little. But I clicked out soon after getting into the car. Otherwise I would have written down the experience and probably remembered much more of it.  The next thing I remember is waking up with missing time.  The usual feeling I get after a click out.  I'm not sure if this was an official retreival, I have never done one before. But I'm going to try every night.  What I was the most amazed about with this experience was the feeling of love I recieved when I hugged the helper.

JOURNAL ENTRY 22 Reply #75 - Dec 16th, 2006, 1:47pm

I attempted another retrieval last night while listening to advanced focus 10.  When I asked for a helper, I got an impression of 3 figures next to eachother a little in the distance.  I figured maybe this was a helper, so I asked to do a retrieval.  Suddenly I was in front of a store. At first I thought... I don't get it. But then I thought OOHHH maybe I should go inside. So we went inside, the helper behind me.  There was a woman, maybe age 50, all alone inside. I introduced myself, she said her name was Silvia.  I asked what she was doing there, and she said she was working.  I asked when she gets off, and she said whenever the person working the next shift comes in.  I got a feeling that this person hasnt come in in a long time.  And I was correct, she said she has been waiting a while to be relieved.  So I said, I have a friend I'd like you to meet. Just then the helper stood in front, he looked like a 30 year old good looking man wearing a suit.  He introduced himself, and they started talking. He said somthing like... What if I told you that you didn't have to work here anymore? they started walking out of the store, and I followed them. But I kind of lost track, and it was around 4:00 am at this time, so I went to sleep.

This morning I woke up and put on the advanced focus ten again. I did not have an OBE like I usually do, but I had a dream that I feel is worthy of sharing with everyone.  I can't remember ever having a dream in which I am not myself.  however, in this dream I was an old man. Probably 85.  I am at the doctors office with my wife.  They diagnosed me with Prostate cancer.  They said I did not have much longer to live.  My old wife started crying, and I hugged her.  However, I did not feel sad.  I did not feel any negative emotion at all actually.  Because I knew where I would be going, how amazing it was going to be, everything I had learned during my life on earth was soon going to be realised.  I am not sure whether I was a completely different person in this dream, just some old man, or if it was me in the far future.  Either way, there was nothing different about me except my age and appearance. So maybe it was me.

JOURNAL ENTRY 23 Reply #77 - Dec 17th, 2006, 2:41pm

I decided to try another retrieval with advanced focus 10.  I called for a helper, and saw a large black bird, maybe a crow, fly to my bedside.  I had no doubt this was a helper of some kind.  It started to fly out of my house, so I followed right behind it.  We went up really high, then suddenly we are in front of a house on a street that gives me an impression of New York.  I go up the stairs and enter the house with the crow right behind me.  The house looks empty.  I go up the stairs, and in the first bedroom I come to there is an old woman, probably 80, laying in bed. I introduced myself and was talking to her for a little bit. From the information I got from her, she was disabled in some way or sick, and needed some kind of an assistant or helper to get her out of bed and possibly bring her what she needed in bed.  She had been waiting for this person, or anyone, to come to assist her but noone has come in a long time.  She thought she was still alive and did not know she was no longer bed ridden in a physical body.  Just then I introduced the helper to her, there was no more crow anymore, but a man about 30 years old dressed nicely.  He told her she could get out of bed if she wanted, and told her to just try. She did it.  They talked a little more, then they both floated almost a foot off the ground and were drifting away.  I followed them, and we all arrived at a place that I immediately realised was the park.  This is the most detailed I have seen the park so far.  It was a very pleasant place.   

This lady with dark hair came up to me and asked if there was somthing I wanted to do or someone I wanted to see. I asked to see my deceased great grandmother, for she is the only close family member of mine to have died in my lifetime so far.  She appeared to me, but looked like she was 30 or so.  I was talking to her for a little bit, and asked if she could give me somthing to verify to my mother that I made contact with her.  I saw a image of a chair, and possibly somthing under the cushion like money or somthing.  So I asked my mom today if this had any meaning to her, and all she said was... well she used to sit in her chair a lot.  But then I thought.. maybe what I saw wasn't for my mom.  Just then an old, but a very faint memory came to mind, of my cousin finding a dollar or two under her cushion.  So I dont know if this was real or not.

This morning I think I may have had an OBE.  I say maybe because I only have a faint impression of actually leaving my body.  My memories of full consiousness begin when I arrive at a muesum-looking place.  I was floating all around looking at the place.  There was a pencil and some paper on a table, so I drew what the inside of the place looked like for some reason. I think I did that so I could remember the place better.  I have some more faint memories of floating around the place.  Thats about it.

JOURNAL ENTRY 24 Reply #79 - Dec 18th, 2006, 1:07pm

Last night I did the same routine as the past few nights. I called for a helper, and was waiting for maybe 30 seconds. Suddenly I see a chair with its back facing me, and there is someone in this chair. Suddenly the person in the chair stands up and turns around to face me, and walks over to me. He looked like a mix between a really tall elf and a court jesture.  He was wearing green, a goofy hat, and had facal features like an elf, and was very tall.  I asked him his name, and I got an impression of something starting with an E, but then he said I dont have a name.  So we lifted up, and the next thing I know I am looking at the side of a huuuge clif, probably 1 mile high, and at the very top of this clif is a house residing on the edge.  We go up and through the door.  The house was empty, and I got an impression of sadness. I was drawn to the person in the house, and even before I saw this person I knew that she was crying.  It just came to me. I went into the room and a lady was in her bed crying and crying.  I asked her what was wrong, and I got an impression of her husband and children.  I am not sure what to make of this. One thought was that maybe they died while she was alive and she felt responsible in some way. Or another thought was that maybe she had died and left them and felt bad about it. Or maybe she died but did not know she was dead, and her husband and children never returned home because she was no longer home but did not know it.  At this point I became distracted with other thoughts, somthing happened earlier that night and I started thinking about it, I got too distracted so I just cleared my mind and fell asleep.  Maybe Ill revisit tonight.

JOURNAL ENTRY 25 Reply #82 - Dec 19th, 2006, 12:59pm

I attempted to revisit the crying lady on the cliff top.  While getting into a deep focus ten, i realised my whole body was vibrating with energy.  I would get these natural vibrations sometimes while doing Gateway exercises, but these were much faster and stronger.  I did not even do any energy work, which is somthing I usualy have to do to get these vibes.   

My Jester-like friend came to me once again.  He knew we were going back, I think, because I did not even say anything, suddenly were on the porch of the house.  I went in, and the lady was not crying anymore, but was still sad.  This is where my fully lucid memory ends.  Sometimes when I click out, I come back with the faintest impression that I went on some kind of journey, or I was communicating or learning from someone.  This is the feeling I got when I became consious again.  So I don't know what became of the sad lady. Ill find out tonight I suppose.

JOURNAL ENTRY 33 Reply #119 - Jan 16th, 2007, 2:48pm

Last night I listened to Wave 7 part 5, which is a Focus 21 excersize.  During the count up to 21, I began to feel like I was no longer laying on my bed, but floating in space.  My state of mind was quite different than normal as well.  The next thing I know I became conscious and the track was concluding.  Darn clickouts.

This morning I woke up and put on the same track.  About ten minutes into it I felt as if I was free.  I slowly flew off my bed.  Once again, I skipped over the intense vibrations that are a common signpost of OBEs.  I am convinced that I simply do not need this vibrational state anymore.  I believe that Monroe eventually did not experience the vibrations after a while either. 

So I flew up into the sky.  It was dark outside, so I was obviously in a lower astral level.  My surroundings were extremely different.  There was a large building amoung many houses, and the entire area was surrounded by mountains.  I flew about a mile and reached a house.  I do not know why I went to this particular house, it just felt like the thing to do.  When I arrived there, something made me do a reality check.  I felt my face with my hands, and was shocked when my awareness skyrocketed.  I felt my hands on my face, and felt my face on my hands as if I were in waking consciousness.  Simultaneously my awareness became much higher.   

There was someone in this house.  Or somthing.  The details are not clear in my mind, but what I remember is seeing somthing there, and somehow letting it out of the house.  I get a strange feeling when I try to remember this part.

I decided to leave the house.  Things were seeming too real, and I actually thought that I may end up stuck permanently in this place if I did not leave.  I jumped and flew out of the house and into the dark sky.  I flew back to my house.  I have no idea how I knew which house was mine, because I was totally unfamiliar with the entire city.  I came to a house that was totally different from mine, actually it was totally different from any house I have ever seen.  It was even too abstract to describe it right now, no words can accurately describe what it looked like.  There was one very interesting thing about it.  On the outside of the house where my room was, I saw a sign.  It said, "Afterlife Knowledge."  I was amazed.  I wondered, why does it say this?  I floated back into my room and into my body.  This is the first time I actually went back into my body on my own, I am usually slung back into it.  Maybe I did so because the track was saying to come back to waking consciousness?

I was back in my body, but I again felt the ability to slip out easily.  I began to wonder off from my body once again, but I thought that maybe if I had another journey, I would forget my first one.  So I woke up and wrote down the experience.

JOURNAL ENTRY 34 Reply #126 - Jan 23rd, 2007, 9:21pm

Between recently starting a new full time job and the begining of the spring school simester, I haven't had much sleep lately, let alone time or energy to do my Gateway exercises.  Hopefully I get my sleep schedual back on track soon!

I listened to Wave V parts 1 and 2 last night.  They are non-verbal tracks with metamusic, and are suppost to help you develope non-verbal communication skills.  I did not know this until just reading so, I was clueless of the purpose of these tracks last night.

While laying in focus ten, I felt a tingly energy sensation at both of my temples.  It became stronger and stronger until it was begining to feel uncomfortable.  Last time this happened I sat up and rubbed the pressure out.  However, this time I let it go and decided to ride it out and see if anything unique happened with the buildup of energy.  The energy felt as if it was going to burst from my skull.  Just at that moment, it shot to the back of my skull, and immediately zapped down my spine with intense speed and energy.  It was such a rediculous amount of energy going through me, I literally lifted off of my bed!  My entire body jumped up a couple of inches.  After this, I felt a rumbling, movement of energy feeling in the base of my spine.  Then it subsided and I got on with the exercise.

I was laying in focus ten after being attacked by my own energy, when I got the sense of floating in a dark space.  The music coming from the track seemed to give me a certain feeling.  Not so much of an emotion like happiness or excitement, but more like a feeling of being in a unique environment, and I felt a pinch of familiarity with this feeling, as if it was not totally new to me, although I have no conscious recollections of being in this place.   

The same thing happened with the second track.  I found myself floating in a new environment, different from the first one, but similar.  I felt as if I had experienced things in this place before, even though it was my first time there that I can remember.  The feeling I got was very simliar to one I got the other night while walking down my street at night.  I was walking down my block when my perception changed drastically.  I felt as if I were in midevil times, and that there was a large castle in place of a house I was walking by.  I did not see a castle, but I felt like I was very close to actually stepping into the past as I was hit with this unique feeling of being there.  It was a feeling you get of a place you have been to before and are well familiar with, and therefore have a certain feeling associated with this place.  The strange thing is, this was the first time I felt this particular feeling, and yet it felt as if I had felt it a million times before.  I was reminded of this feeling while listening to track 2.

JOURNAL ENTRY 35 Reply #128 - Jan 24th, 2007, 6:31pm

Last night I listened to Wave VII part 5, entry into focus 21.  It instructs you to go to focus 12 by yourself, and then counts up from 12 to 21, assisting you into focus 21.  I got into focus 12, and then the count-up began.   

"12."   

"13."  I see myself bursting with light and energy in a place of light with beautiful clouds all around me, yellow sunstreaks coming out of the energy burst.   

"14."   

I now have a feeling of just being somewhere, a place so extravigant and brilliant and wonderful I cannot begin to fathom it.  All I am left with is the feeling of being there.    I am filled with joy and awe. I feel this for just a few moments.

"You are now coming back to normal waking consciousness."   

Wait a minute.  What happened to 15 through 21?   

It took me a few moments to realize I had clicked out.  I was still filled with a feeling of just being in an undescribable place.  The memory was so close to my recollection, but got dimmer and dimmer each moment.  I guess my conscious memory cannot handle what I had just done, where I had just been.  O well!

I listened to the same track two more times.  Each time, the same thing happened.  I would hear up to a certain number, then would feel as if I were in an abstract state of consciousness and the next number I would hear would be 4 or 5 numbers higher.  I would enter this state after about 14 or 15, then come back to semi-normal consciousness, and waiver inbetween these two states for the remainder of the excercises.  What I remembered from these altered states of consciousness was too abstract for my conscious memory. I would only be able to get back feelings associated with the state I was in, rather than a concrete memory.

JOURNAL ENTRY 36 Reply #129 - Feb 5th, 2007, 6:16pm

Last night I had the most profound, amazing experience of my life(that I remember).  It is somthing I will never forget. 

I fell asleep during my Gateway exercise, and a few hours after I fell asleep I regained consciousness and heard that the Gateway tracks were still running.  I began to fall back to sleep, but my mind stayed awake and I felt my energy body loosening.  I exited my body with  tremendous force.  For some reason I was violently launched from my body.

I was travelling through this amaaazing place, wizzing past what looked like billions of beautiful blue bubbles.  I felt the most intense feeling of love and joy I have ever felt in my life, it simply overwhelmed me.  I was so estatic with joy I began doing backflips.  There were brilliant, indescribable colors bursting all around me.  There were wonderous sounds.  My feelings seemed to form words and were dancing all around in the beautiful colors.  The senses I experienced(colors, sounds, feelings, words) were unlike anything of a physical nature.  This was totally unlike anything I have ever consciously experienced before, and yet I soon felt a feeling of familiarity, and the feeling of wonderment of this new undescribable place dimmed, and I found myself half-remembering where I was.  The intense feeling of love stayed, however.

I seemed to be flying through tunnels, and somehow it seemed as if I knew where I was going.  I believe that whereever I was, it was very abstract, and the closest thing I can describe it to is going through tunnels.  I found my way to a certain area, and I immediately knew where I was.  The thoughts were mine, and yet seemed to be coming from an outside source.  I believe it was my higher self.  After translating the knowledge I recieved into tangeable thoughts, I came out with... "This area shows how human's corrupt has developed."  What this meant to me was that every spirit gets corrupted in one way or another in their lives on earth, of course some far more seriously than others.  The area somehow showed people's spiritual developement, and displayed how they have been corrupted by their earthly life.   

While in this place, I have memories of certain friends and family members.  Many of the people I remember from this place have truely been spiritually corrputed during their life.  I cannot tell whether these people were actually there, or if it was just my thoughts manifesting. 

The rest of the experience is quite fuzzy in my mind.  The rest of what happened seems to be too abstract for me to recall in detail.  Rather, I am left with subtle feelings of what occured during the remainder of this wonderful journey.

After regaining waking consciousness, I quickly wrote down what happened, shaking from the love and excitement I was still feeling.  The beauty of what I had just experienced was unlike anything I can remember, I hardly have any tangeable thing to compare it to.  I believe I have had similiar experiences such as this due to the familiarity I felt.  Chances are these trips occured during my many clickouts.  I hope to be able to recall many more abstract journeys in the future, and I am truely thankful for being able to embark on this journey and remember it.

BTW.  I just began reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce.  Reading this before bed, I experienced a newfound excitement for OBEs.  This probably contributed to this spontaneous fullblown projection and my ablity to recall it.

JOURNAL ENTRY 37 Reply #137 - Feb 17th, 2007, 9:35pm

Full time work + full time school = loosing consciousness during Gateway Experience

That is the equation I have discovered.

I've been doing the exercises every night, but I am constantly passing out during them due to extreme tiredness.  Last night I managed to stay conscious long enough to remember the experience.

I was listening to Wave 2 part 1, focus 12.  It seems I can instantly get into focus 12 now.  Whether I am laying down doing an exercise, or sitting down in a chair for a minute.  I have a way to feel myself joining the source of infinite consciousness(this is what it feels like anyway).  I will myself to become one with everything, and almost instantly loose most of the awareness of my body, and it feels like I am HUGE.  Not body-wise, but consciousness-wise.  It is a feeling of total peace and tranquility.

So while in focus 12, I feel myself entering a deep trance.  The heaviness of my body lets me know I will soon be able to have an out of body experience.  Then total lightness sets in along with light vibrations, and my energy body's arms reach up and I start pulling an imaginary rope, lifting upwards.  However, I only feel this lifting for a moment, and I am instantly back into my body.  However, I do not think I was actually sucked back into my body.  I did not feel the usual pull that I get when I am brought back, or the dropping sensation.  Rather, it felt as if my conscious awareness shifted from my real time body back to my etheric/physical body.  According to Robert Bruce, sometimes during OBEs, our awareness does not enter the reflected energy body having the OBE, but rather stays inside the etheric/physical body which is still laying in bed immobile.  I believe this is what happened to me.  Its ashame, I probably missed out on a great experience.

JOURNAL ENTRY 38 Reply #141 - Feb 27th, 2007, 9:50am

Last night I listened to the Focus 21 track of Wave 7.  I was well rested at this point, having just slept a good 6 hours, so I knew something interesting would happen-that I would actually be awake for!

I soon lost almost all bodily awareness during the countup to 21.  I then got a strong ability to visualize and see what I was visualizing perfect.  I saw myself on a familiar street, and I was flying down this street, turning down this street and that street, all familiar places to me in my town.  Soon I was actually on these streets, flying around at high speeds.  Sometimes my legs would scrape the ground, and I would feel them going through the pavement.. a weird feeling to say the least. 

I then find myself back in my body.  However, I do not feel back in my body.  I feel as if I am floating in an infinite void.  I am a geometric shape, spinning around in all directions, expanding and changing forms.  This was a very abstract feeling so I am doing my best to desscribe it.

Soon after I see a scene in my head.  It is a midget and a model food shopping.  I believe they were a couple.  I was just watching this scene as if it were a movie.  However, this couple goes to a clothing store inside this food market(?), and at this point I find myself actually at this place, my consciousness flying around.  In this clothing store I notice a clothing brand that catches my attention.  I look close and it says, "Astral" on the logo.  I thought wow!  I would probably buy this if it were real.  Of course, the word astral is significant to me.

I then find myself back in my body again, falling deeply into the trance state.  The final sinking sensation let me know I was about to leave my body.  A few more moments in an abstract state of conscious meditation and I was soon floating up towards my ceiling. 

I was approaching the ceiling quite slowly, and was soon passing through it.  However, somthing began pulling my backwards.  I thought I was just being pulled back into my body, but I soon found out I was wrong.  I began to see my room enlongate as I was being pulled backwards.  There were a lot of windows or posters on the walls and ceiling, and this whole room was just being stretched out as my point of view was vanishing backwards.  The room was dark and shadowy.  I then felt a pretty deep pinch on my left shoulder.  It did not feel pleasant.  I immediately thought... this must be some kind of negative entity.  Whatever it was, it came from behind me and did somthing to give me an unpleastant feeling on my shoulder.  I immediately snapped back into my body, and still felt a buzzing sensation in my shoulder a moment after. 

I wonder what happened to my shoulder, and who did it?  I sure as hell wasn't sticking around to find out.  Especially not in that low level I projected to.

JOURNAL ENTRY 39 Reply #161 - Mar 9th, 2007, 9:37pm

Last night I fell asleep listening to Gateway, as usual.  I did some light chakra stimulation before I passed out.  Anyway, during a dream soon afterwards, I became very lucid.  I immediately decided to have an out of body experience.  Suddenly I was in a black void observing geometric patterns moving and changing.  I was not aware of any exit sensations, or at least I do not remember them occuring.  My next memory is me being out of my body.

I was in a place that seemed to be in front of my house.  However, it was extremely different.  My house was actually a fire house, and there was a large field across the street, where in real life there is actually only a small grass lot.  However, there was a body of water where my bay actually is, so I believe I was in an astral realm in the same spacial location as my physical location.  The sky was sunny with some clouds, quite beautiful.

The first thing I remember is observing a group of guys outside of the fire house.  They appeared to be fire fighters.  They seemed to be having a good time conversing and joking around.  I flew away, towards the field. 

I decided to look at my hands, and almost immediately they disintegrated before my eyes.  It was as if they had just been burned extremely quickly by an invisible fire.  My hands and arms were gone.  I looked away, and glanced back at them.  They were there again.  I then flew up into the sky with extreme speed in an attempt to shift dimensions to an astral realm, not knowing I was already in one.(I realized I was in an astral realm after regaining waking consciousness)

I came back down to the field where there was a man standing next to a fire hydrant.  I flew to the edge of the field, and passed by a half bull-half human being.  I had to dodge to the side to avoid him.  He was doing some kind of labor, it seemed. 

Still under the impression that I was not in an astral realm, I spun around with great speed to shift dimensions.  When I stopped, the sky appeared to be slightly darker, and things were different.  The top of the fire hydrant in the field was cut off.  The man next to it began talking to me.  He said.. "I'm trying to teach you how to.." and the rest, I forget.  All I know is that whatever he wanted to teach me, I was not interested, because I payed him no attention and flew to the fire house.  I get the impression it had to do with labor.

Things were very different at the fire house, as well.  The group of fire fighters were instead dressed in postal uniforms.  They were drinking beer, and looked not so well-groomed.  A group of guys, who were wearing the same uniforms the postal guys were wearing before I spun around(which I assumed to be fire uniforms), soon approached the postal guys.  They said they were in the military, and started making fun of the postal guys and giving them a hard time. 

It seems as if I may have shifted dimensions slightly, by spinning.  I am thinking that in the dimension after the spin, the people there had different status, different roles, different lives than they had in the dimension I was initially in.

Your experience with the energy and your connection to aliens is quite familiar to me.  A couple weeks ago I saw a bright light in the sky appear while looking out my window in the middle of the night.  It stayed put for about ten seconds, then disapeared.  I was in awe, I couldn't beleive I just saw that.  So I was going back to sleep, but I wasn't going back to sleep.  Instead I was drifting into a deep trance.  I started to feel a upwards pull, and was about to leave my body.  However, I believed that the UFO I saw(or whatever it was) was abducting me!  I quickly aborted.  I feel back into this state another two times, and thought I was being abducted again.  When I woke up I thought... darn! I just missed out on 3 OBEs cuz I saw a stupid light in the sky!  Oh well, you live and you learn.  If I was being abducted, I wouldn't have had any control over whether or not I stayed or left.  Heck, next time I'm just gonna let them take up!

Reply #167 - Jun 26th, 2007, 6:47pm

I am considering starting my Gateway excersizes once again due to an experience I had last night.

It wasn't anything special (for me, anyway), but it brought back the feelings of excitement and wonder which are caused by going out of body.

I sleep on my back every night with my fiance next to me.  I woke up for a few minutes, then fell back to sleep.  However, I did not fall asleep, only my body did.  It entered paralysis while my mind entered the familiar altered state that always accompanies paralysis.   

I was unable to see, but I felt a spirit next to me.  It was raised slightly, maybe a foot or two higher than I was.  I felt what seemed like an arm touching me.  I knew it was my fiance, because she was sleeping and the spirit was right above her body.(Our spirits raise out of our bodies while we sleep in case anyone did not know this).  At the same time, I heard my fiances voice.  I am unable to remember what she said, or thought, since I was most likely hearing her thoughts.  Then the experience ended.

So perhaps you will see some more posts with some more detailed experiences. Who knows.

JOURNAL ENTRY 42

I woke up in the morning, and wanted to leave my body.  I rested and kept my mind clear, trying to stay conscious.  The next thing I remember is feeling a falling sensation, and then an extreme lightness.  I floated up out of my body.   The room I was in seemed quite different, although it had the same feel to it.  I looked back at my body to make sure I was really having an OBE.  I was.  I was slowly navigating through the strange new house.  I looked at my hands, and they melted down to my elbows within 3 seconds.  I went back on my journey, but was sucked back into my body. 

I slipped out once again, quite easily.  I felt that I was low on energy due to my sluggish movements, so I attempted to draw energy into my energy body from my etheric body which was back on my bed, as advised by Robert Bruce.  This worked, quite well, for I felt energy flowing into my being.  I took a look at my hands, and they looked more solid than before, and did not melt right away.  They were quite deformed, however, for I had ugly, short, stubby fingers.  I went on my journey, attempting to leave the house.  I needed to get farther away from my body, because I felt somthing pulling me backwards when I would ease my focus on moving foward.  I created a rope going 45 degrees up, and i was pulling myself along this rope, trying to leave the house.  I was sucked back into my body and the experience was over.

Its great to have these all in one spot to review Dude. I'm sure somebody would benefit from these explorations. thanks! I'll have to review it soon. love, alysia

Hey OOBD, I'll be sure to read these when I get time. You inspire me to keep persisting even though I am only slowly learning Bruce's techniques. Welcome back 

Never say die

I realized somthing today during my OBE.  I often intend, and even attempt to leave my body before bed and after waking in the morning.  Sometimes I recall my experiences, sometimes I only have shallow impressions of my experiences, and sometimes it seems that I have no experiences at all. 

Robert Bruce says that a lot of the time when we leave our body, we dont remember it because of the mind split effect.  this occurs when we leave our body.  a duplicate of our consciousness is created in a douplicate  of our orignal energy body(the etheric body). from that moment on, we have multiple sets of consciousness.  the one in our etheric body, which stays with our physical body, and the ones in the reflected energy bodies which go on the OBEs to higher dimensions.

Our experiences are recorded by our consciousness as energy. when we return to our bodies, that energy is absorbed into our etheric body with our reflected bodies and consciousness, and the memory is translated from that energy.  the downloading of that memory depends on many factors, the most import is the conscious state of the etheric body and its reflected doubles at the time.  if levels of consciousness are low upon reintegration, the download is usually lost. 

when this occurs, absolutely no memory of the experience is recalled.  usually when this happens, you remmeber laying down, about to leave your body.. sometimes thats the end of your memory of the experience. sometimes you even remmeber feeling the energetic sensations that come before the obe. but then nothing happens, and you find yourself laying in bed as before, in trance.

this is because when you reenter your body, the download into your conscious memory bank is unsuccessfull.  you remember absolutely nothing.

so what i realized today was this-  when i am trying to have an obe, and i feel myself rising from my body, and i feel myself leaving my body, and i leave my body... i will always remember at least some of what happens during my experience from that point forward. usually mostly all of it.

this is because the memory download was obviously at least partially successful. if the download wasnt successful, i wouldnt have been able to remember leaving my body.  I realized now that everytime I have consciously left my body and remembered the exit, I always remember the experience as well.  I knew from the moment I felt myself leaving my body that I would remmeber the experience... it now seems as if I experience only the memory of my true experience.  without the memory, the experience is totally absent from my waking consious mind. this is how i know the moment i am aware and out of my body that i will remember my experience.. it seems as if i am experiencing everything at that time and after it happens at the same time.  i know i was there, but i only have the shadow memory to prove it, which is usually always at least partially incomplete or distorted in some way.

this is important about downloading the memory..thanks for your keen work Dude! it is my supposition, (and others) we may go obe and not recall it due to the veil between the two worlds, as it was called in days of old.
I too am persistent to work on bringing back memories, I do it by waking up and jotting down a few words or turning on the tape recorder.

then going back to sleep. even with this technique I can sometimes lose the meaning of what I've jotted down.  btw, Buhlman I believe has also a keyword to help memory: its "clarity now!"  I've heard this works.

in some of my previous obes I will become lucid in an obe if someone I'm interacting does something off the wall, then I know I'm "out." but still choosing to remain out but more aware that I'm out, because the thing that has been done is not possible in physical plane.

the museum seems like a lower level astral due to reference to sexual acts, and the feeling you got that you'd just as soon not be there. well, I see business is good for sex on the other side! haha! its a little funny.
I suppose we could put our body in the museum, oh yea, and here's my 1946 model, she had some fine gams, and over here we have an 1898 model T still in good shape!

   sounds like great fun as usual, I still can't keep up with you, but I am planning to review the whole thread. love, alysia

JOURNAL ENTRY 44

This OBE occured about 3 to 4 weeks ago.  This has been my first opportunity to get online and write about it. 

I floated out of my body in the morning after the vibrations came, almost without trying.  I went up and through the ceiling.  A very strange thing took place.  As I was drifting through the ceiling, I was able to TASTE the matter that I was going through.  The wood, the dust, the shingles on the roof.  I tasted all of it as I passed through.  It didnt taste bad, though.  I believe this is because in reality, I did not taste it.  This was simply the most similar sense I could relate this contact with in the nonphysical.  I flew outside for a bit, and then reentered the physical.

sure seems like phasing to me Dude. where theres a dual consciousness, both of physical and yet somewhere else.

good one. love, alysia

ps come by more often, I miss you!

JOURNAL ENTRY 47

This morning I awoke with the memory of an amazing Out of body experience which occured just before waking.  I do not have the memory of the separation process.  Instead, I some how gained consciousness during the trip.  I gained realization of the journey as I was flying down a road on a beautiful day.  This was a very hilly road.  Coming up the hill, my breath was taken away as a most spectacular thing came into view. 

Perhaps one mile ahead were beautiful, heavenly clouds.  On or running through these clouds were the most majestic buildings, shining of gold and silver, almost like a castle, something so beautiful you could never see anything like it on earth.  behind these clouds and the heavenly castle was a spiralling tube of energy, starting from the clouds and running off into the far distance.  I approached the castle, but my memory of being actually at the castle is shadey.  My next strong memory is of flying through this tube as if I was on a rollercoaster.  I was not enclosed in this tube, however, for I would occasionally slip outside of it.  The journey ends here, in my conscious memory anyway.

It is such a wonderful thing to experience such a beauty as I did in this experience.  I cannot wait to visit this place, or places like this, again.

Hi OutOfBodyDude,

That's great that you have OOBE's - lucky! I haven't had one, yet. Then again, I haven't been disciplined enough to do it.  I'd bought the Gateway CDs early this year and been reading on Robert Bruce's technique of raising energy. Maybe one day, I will succeed in leaving my body and remembering it. My main goal is to make contact with the other side and get validation for myself that there is an afterlife.

Thank you for sharing your experience, it is very helpful for me since I am practically on the same path as you minus the OOBE part.

JOURNAL ENTRY 48

This morning I had a seemingly ordinary experience(at the time this seemed so), but upon awakening to C1 consciousness I realized how unordinary it really was. 

I had an out of body experience.  Pretty common stuff for me.  But this obe was during a dream.  Now, one might think... well, if it was during a dream then the obe was just a dream as well, nothing real occurred.  That is where it gets tricky.

When I left my body from the dream, my waking consciousness kicked in immediately from the separation process, just like I was having an OBE strait from the waking state.  However, I still had no awareness of the dream I was just having, I thought I was really in that place in the dreamworld.  All of my nonphysical senses were fully operational.  I was at a party during the dream, and in the obe i was still at the party, floating around in the real time zone version of the dream world I was in.  After the OBE, my waking consciousness faded and I slipped back into the dream state I was in, thinking I was still at that party and just had an amazing obe.

It seems to me like I had a real OBE from my dream.  Almost as if my consciousness temorarily left my dream body, rather than my physical body.  I do not know if this is in fact the case, or if this idea is even possible.  I do not believe it was a lucid dream, I can tell the difference between the two rather well.

Hi friends, I thought I might get back into obes after many years doing other type explorations. I picked up a book on Astral Travel. although you all know I am dedicated to TMI methods. however, after reading partway through this book, I woke up in early morning and I knew I could separate now if I wanted so I began to move my astral form from the body and it was like pulling molasses away from the body...lol...I was grunting...it spring back into place and I only got it 2 inches away from  body so I said oh to heck with it.

but still,it's exciting to try new things and to watch Dude here, i can learn from him. and from Spooky. I like to read about it anyway.

JOURNAL ENTRY 49

Last night I layed in bed and meditated, no gateway.  I went too deep and temorarily lost consciousness, but came back a little while later.  I then decided to make some suggestions for my subconscious to carry out.  I said to myself... "I will consciously leave my body. I will remember the experience upon returning."  Immediately I received a message, quite possibly from my higher self.  I translated it to... "no, you will have an experience with aliens."  I then thought, No I will leave my body.  Immediately again, the message came back.. No you will have an experience with aliens.  I have suggested to my subconscious to leave my body many, many times, and somthing like this has never happened before.  This is not a response I would consiously think/construct.  This must have been from a higher part of me.  Then I had the dream.

I had this dream very soon after receiving this message.  In the dream, aliens wanted me, and quite possibly my family as well.  They sent a tracking device to my house that was simultaneously an alien being.  It was thin and about a foot in length.  I took it and pulled it apart, piece by piece, and dispersed the pieces around my neighborhood.  The head of the being had a sharp beak, and when i touched this beak an energetic sensation went through me, almost hurting.  I ran from my house, trying to escape from these aliens who were possibly coming to my house.

I then found myself in a mall.  While running through this mall, I realized I had amazing psychic powers.  As I passed by people, information about them would pour into my mind.  I was able to see what was going to happen in my near future as well.  I then heard a phone ring in the mall, and I answered it.  A voice said, "is this Vince Field?" I said yes, it is.  Then a deathly tone exploded through the phone, and I immediately knew it was the aliens.  This tone was designed to put me into a state of shock, which would give them enough time to come and take me.  However, I overcame the tone and escaped.  They were never able to find me.

So there are two possibilities here:
1.  In meditation, I connected with my higher self and recieved information about what I would, and DID, experience.
2.  I created this message consciously(however this seems unlikely), and with this suggestion implanted into my subconscious, I experienced a dream similar to this suggestion.

Alysia

"Excited" is a term used by Robert Bruce regarding the energy body, all it means is it becomes active, as far as the energy flow goes.  My energy body becomes excited right before I leave my body, this is felt as strong vibrations all throughout me.  I do not mean mentally excited-this is a no no.

I know that I need to conquer this fear of aliens.  It is a work in progress, lets just say.

By higher self I mean the part of me located in a higher dimension than the physical.  I-there.  Oversoul.  Whatever you would like to call it.  I would think that most "guides" who assist us here are members of our higher self.

OobDude: Could "aliens" be a symbol for something you have forgotten and/or something from long ago, maybe even from a past life, which should be re-discovered by you?

Spooky

Recoverer:

I do not know if you are familiar with Whitely Striber and/or his works.  He has had continual contact with aliens since the 1980s.  In his first book, Communion, he actually describes an experience when the aliens took him aboard their ship and were dancing with him.  That dancing may actually be more than just a signal or symbol from your guidance.  I have read reports of others experiencing a situation very similar to this as well.  With others having the same type of experience, it may be more than just a subjective event from your guidance.  Somthing to think about anyway.

my daughter danced with an alien. he gave her a box of geometric shaped colored stones. she never forgot the experience and the joy of it. the alien was a being who was not male or female but both at the same time.  he was acting as a teacher for all the students on the floor sitting crosslegged. he gave them each something and danced with each.

I read Whitley Striber a long time ago. a very good book. thoroughly believable and took Striber a long time to get through his fears, but at the end, it looked like the relationship he had with the aliens turned out beneficial for both, and that he had agreed to this relationship before incarnation into this life. his whole family was being abducted if I remember correctly.

I have read some books that it does hurt when aliens do human examinations and that also if they are aware you are in pain they can take the pain away. dancing is concerned with the inner emotional energy. thats strange indeed, its good R was in control to break free, shows you have will power and choice factor, not to go.
all this is the effect on the astral body, which the physical body will sometimes pick up on it, what has happened in the astral. very strange. not to speak of tiny implants that have been removed from abductees placed there by aliens.
I am not fearful of aliens, I don't think our friend here, Dude, is really afraid, I think he is curious to learn what he can. Right Dude?
anytime in the astral, if you have self love, you have control over who and what you are interacting with, because nothing can hurt you unless you believe it can hurt you. a little PUL goes a long ways, but it's your right to not have your space invaded, once you know this, you are without fear.
its sort of like, god don't make junk. we aint junk.

Or, maybe just a different point of time? Past or future. Who knows.

Spooky

JOURNAL ENTRY 51

This morning I listened to the lifeline track(going up to focus 27) after 5 hours of sleep.  Because of my relaxed state, I achieved a trance quite easily; probably by focus 12 I was starting to get deep.  I eventually reached a point where I was extremely detached from the physical, having a feeling of floating in a void mixed with spinning in every direction, all while hearing a wind type noise.  I momentarily started to fade out of waking consciousness, but soon regained my alert state once again. 

Immediately upon coming back to my mind awake-body asleep state, a deeply dark, creepy growling rang through me.  It almost sounded like low screams from some kind of monster.  I do not know if this noise is what caused me to regain consiousness or not, but it was certainly very very present.  As I was listening to this, I began to think that it was either a trick of my mind, some entity trying to scare me, or some kind of test from my inner/higher self.(if i had to choose, i would say it was the last option)  Instead of getting scared, I thought to myself- " I am infinite consiousness. Nothing can harm me.  I am infinite consciousness.."  The sounds stopped immediately.  For the rest of the session I went in and out from a light trance state to a medium-heavy trance state. 

I learned an invaluable technique from reading one of my Seth books(Seth Speaks) recently.  Instead of doing all the mental techniques to achieve a deep meditative state, I simply layed there and noticed.  No thinking, just noticing.  The first time I tried this suggestion from the book, I entered a trance in less than two minutes.  Extremely effective!

After the meditation session I had a relevant dream.  In this dream, I was at an extreme hight.  I fell into the ocean, but it was from so high up that I died.  As my body floated down, I floated up.  I was soon in this place(forget the details) walking with some friends(dont remember them).  I then was handed a book of some sort, and knew that I would have to study while in the after-physical-death stage.  Looking upon this dream, I believe the book and studying represented a true occurance of after-physical-death existence- we have to prepare for our next stage of life, whether it is another reincarnation, or existence in another energy system.  Either way, we have to prepare for the next stage of existence, this being symbolized by my having to study the book.

JOURNAL ENTRY 52

This morning I was having a dream.  I was in an unfamiliar place in an unusual situation.  Something occured which made me consider doing somthing.  In a spurt of lucidity, I thought to myself... "wait... I would never do somthing like this... why would I even consider it?"  This led me to futher investigate my surroundings and the situation I was in, and it hit me.. I was dreaming. 

I said to myself, "I am dreaming!  I am dreaming!"  Then a whole world of possibilities opened to me.  "What should I do first?"  I thought.  I flew up through the ceiling and through another.  I looked at my hands.  They were just as real as they are now, and yet they did not melt as they do in OBEs. (This is one main difference I have noted between lucid dreams and OBEs.)

I then decided to visit "the park."  I closed off all visual input, like metally closing my eyes.  I thought to myself, "I am going to go to the park."  I kept the ident of the park firmly in mind.  In the blackness I saw a white swirling energy in the distance.  It began to get bigger, possibly I was moving closer to it.  I have no memory of what happened next, if anything did.

Eventually I slipped back into the dream as my lucidity faded.  At this point of my dream I was well aware of the lucid dream I just had.  I thought... "I wonder what caused the lucid dream in the first place?" Meanwhile not realising I was still in a dream! (DURRRR!!)  Instant knowledge of the reason I became lucid came to me in clear, crisp terms.  My explanation of me catching myself consider somthing I normally wouldn't is but a crude translation of the actual information I recieved in the dream. 

It is a very common occurance for me to recieve information or to simply be communicating with someone with a lucidity, superb vocabulary, greater knowledge of the topic, better flow, confidence, and non-hesitation that is noncomparable to my normal waking state.  I feel as if I have a much greater connection with my higher self in the dream state, in fact I am sure of it. 

JOURNAL ENTRY 53

This morning I was listening to my lifeline track.  I easily fell into a trance, and felt extremely detached from my body.  Every once in a while I would feel an energy which felt like a wind blowing through me.  I felt as if this was some kind of attempt at communication from someone, it seemed as if this energy I felt came from an intelligent source.  I slipped into a dream.  During this dream, I was given information about different states of consciousness.  The different states were symbolized by a letter, followed by a number.  For example, one of the states may have been H4, another one F6, another one J5.  I cannot remember details.  I was given a list of these states and their corresponding abreviations.

The letter-number combinations I gave (H4,F6..) have no literal meaning, they are simply symbols for the different states of consciousness I explored during my dream.  These are just examples, most likely not the actual letter-number combinations.  These states came to me in an order going from being the closest to physical waking consciousness to being the most far removed from it.  I feel the dream was the interpretation of me actually going through these states while having knowledge of each one I passed through.

JOURNAL ENTRY 54

Last night before falling asleep I decided to set some affirmations.  These were not verbal suggestions, however.  I decided to send out pure feelings describing my desires. 

The first feeling I released was of my great grandfather, who is in another plane of existence.  This feeling actually seemed to come through subconsciously, basically out of nowhere.  The feeling had to do with his assistance.  The next feeling I sent out was of obtaining more knowledge and experience of our greater reality, that which is consciously experienced after death and subconsciousnly experienced while physical. 

I had an experience last night which was translated through a dream.  In this dream-translation, my great grandfather wrote a book before he died.  He somehow obtained direct knowledge of our greater reality, and documented this knowledge in this book.  I communicated with him, and found this book.  I remember there were 7 or 8 parts to this book, each on a different topic relating to his findings of the nature of our existence, both of physical and nonphysical nature.  These sections were out of numerical order for some reason. 

I read this book, or rather absorbed the knowledge within it.  There are things I learned during this experience which I simply cannot translate into words, yet I know this knowledge is mine, I see it in symbols recieved through the dream and can feel the ideas within me, lingering between the border of consciousness and subconsiousness. 

JOURNAL ENTRY 55

With my more advanced insights about the nature and reality of dreams, I am now see the importance of all dreams, and especially of lucid dreams.  I therefore feel it important to include them in my journals.  This lucid dream I recently experienced had elements of previous Out of Body Experiences I have had, further providing evidence of the reality and importance of the dream state.

In this dream, I was in a grocery store with some friends.  For no apparent reason, I did somthing very obscene, not in a malevolent manner, but more in a joking way.  I will leave out the details of the action.  Needless to say, a lady ran away and called the cops.  The police officer(a coworker of mine in physical) came running after me.  It seems the mental mechanism which causes me to run away from a threat in dreams also causes a sudden burst of lucidity, and with this my waking consciousness emerged in this dream with realization, "This is a dream!"  With this thought, I took off, flying away.

Although I was flying, the cop was still on my tail.  It didn't matter much to me anyway, for I knew I was dreaming.  However, I began loosing flying power, and would drop to the ground at times.  I realized this was due to me slipping back into dream consciousness, or my fading waking consciousness, which was due to lack of concentration.  I would regain concentration usually by looking at my hands, giving me instant power. 

One time I stretched my arm out from the ground, reaching up to the top of a tall building and swinging myself into flight like spider man.  I remember looking at my ten foot long fingers with astonishment. 

I eventually slipped more or less back into the dream state, and was caught by the cop.  They had me tied down, and did an experiment on me.  They knew I was special in one way, and wanted to know the science behind it, wanted to know the specifics.  I cannot recall the details of the experiment or the results, but their findings concluded that I had very supernatural powers.

With another sudden burst of lucidity, I escaped, stretching my arms out at great speeds and breaking down a door which was apparently unbreakable.  I flew up through the sky at tremendous speeds, reaching a peak in lucidity during this experience.

For a moment I was floating in a void.  Suddenly, lights came into view from the far distance as I approached some kind of star system or galaxy.  I was zipping by these stars and planets at great speeds, through galaxies of all sizes.  I finally came upon a planet that I recognized as Earth, only this planet was different.  It seemed darker, as if the sun was nowhere near.  I felt tremendous energy radiating from this planet, and from all of the planets and stars surrounding me as well.  This energy was overwhelming.  I believe the uneasiness came from me experiencing this energy and from the realization of my situation, of how large everything was, especially this powerful energy, compared to my tiny point of consiousness.  I found myself flying around this Earth-like planet, or it was orbiting around me, twisting and twriling in no particular pattern.  As the speed increased, so did the feeling of energy which made me more uncomfortable.  I decided to end the experience and forced myself back to the physical.

Dude:

I agree with what you wrote on your last post.  I've analyzed thousands of my dreams, and it is clear that they are created by spirit guidance.  Often while communicating with spirit guidance, I'll suddenly find myself in a short waking dream. The symbology used in such dreams often compares to symbology used in regular dreams. I've also found that when I become self aware in a dream, I might start flying around. One time I became aware that I was dreaming while in a dream, looked around at how real everything seemed, and told the creator of my dream, "You're amazing."

Therefore, there isn't a good reason to make a big division between what happens in so called regular dreams and what happens in out of body experiences.  Often such experiences serve the same purpose.  I've found that one can become aware of spirit activity one is involved with but isn't conscious of, by paying attention to the messages one receives via dreams. If one wants a confirmation other than a dream, one can ask for such a confirmation.

When I consider some of the experiences and dreams I had before I made conscious contact with spirit guidance, it becomes clear that they have been here all along.

Dude:

I had a feeling that you don't have it in mind that guides are involved.  Here is one of the key reasons I believe they are.

One night I had three back to back dreams that were so perfectly crafted, just the right number of clues were presented so I could figure out that I was dreaming.  At the end of the third dream while thinking that these dreams would make a great novel, it suddenly hit me in a "very" clear manner that these dreams were created by an intelligence beyond my own!

When I woke up I was in an expanded state of consciouness. Lots of energy ran through me.  I heard a voice say, "Just as you found inconsistencies in your dream state, find inconsistencies in your waking state."  I asked if I was in contact with my I-there (I hadn't read Bruce's books yet, so I didn't know about the term "disk").  I could feel and hear numerous voices answer yes. I could also tell that they were happy that I finally made contact with them.  I see spirits appear as flashing points of white light. This is how I see them when I see them through my crown chakra. Usually I see only one flash at a time. During this experience I saw numerous points of white light flash at the same time, on an on and off basis.  I figure my I-there members flashed in such a way in order to make their presence known.

As I already wrote on my last post, while in contact with my spirit guidance, it will create short waking dreams in order to make points. This shows how spirit guidance is involved with the dream making process.

Another clue is that when I'm too sleepy to wake up to take dream notes, I'll hear a voice say something in order to wake me up.

Another clue is that as I write dream notes, I'll see little brilliant points of white light flash either on my right hand to say "right," or they'll flash on a key word as I write it.  I'll also be shown images and sent additional thoughts that provide additional input. 

Robert Monroe went out of body for a number of years before he found out that he was being helped by his guides.  The same happened for me, even though I first saw a guide during my first OBE years ago. The guide appeared in a monk's gown that had a hood.

Robert wrote in Far Journeys that his guidance created all kinds of experiences for him in order to help him progress.

Being in touch with guidance doesn't mean that one doesn't put in self effort. I put lots of effort into my spiritual practice. There are many times my guidance won't answer my questions. Especially when it comes to cosmological questions.  They figure I'll learn more if I figure things out for myself. Plus, I often already have the answers. I'm just not acknowledging them.

The guidance I receive serves the purpose of helping me overcome psychological limitations. My guidance will also point out psychological isses I haven't noticed.  My guidance will also bring up aspects of mind so I can deal with them.  It also provides significant energetic work I couldn't possibly reproduce with an energetic technique.

There is no need to take on a spiritual warrior attitude. We are all one. There is nothing wrong with helping each other. Even those who do the helping sometimes learn by helping others.  What's most important is that each of us evolves as quickly as possible,  so we can help raise this World's vibrational rate. Plus, eventually a point will come where we will want to humbly show grattitude towards those who helped us. 

No man is an Island.

Dude:

I see where you are coming from now. Sorry for the misunderstanding. One and many at the same time.

Dude said:  My self retreival of last year is a perfect example.  At face value, we were totally different and separate beings.  In this case, I was the guide.  Yet on another level of existance, we were one.  I had direct knowledge of this fact during the experience. 
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you folks know how Inpec turned out to be BobM I/there...part of the disc personalitys, guides helpers, individuals, yet it explains our oneness, that monism discussion we were having awhile back.

from another slant on monism, we can see how we influence each other's reality, here or there by the tiniest gesture or word. then we are impressionable, to be effective of what is desirable to create.

I sometimes hear voices in C1. here's a few things I've heard last year: "you said I could come anytime."
I knew who was speaking, it was a disc member I had definite relationship with out there, at night. at first when I reacted to the voice, I was annoyed. I replied back, yea, I probably did tell u that, but now is not a good time."
Then another time, lol, this same disc member who now had managed to impart tonal quality along with the voice imprint, said "you are some special spaceship."

It was not a compliment! lol, but I took it as a complement because I love to be flattered, keeps me positively oriented even when I know I've lots to learn and in most cases I do not deserve such a fine compliment. I should write a book on what I don't know. It would surely be a continuing series and wouldn't sell very well.

Might be fun though to write a book on all the voices I've heard over the years and what that means as to who and what I am, and how a human being can be like a receiver set, and even the flesh itself can pick up signals from I/there.

In the book I've already written is stories about my own Out of Body excursions, all done before reading up on Monroe, Bruce and some other voyagers. Dude is talking about a self retrieval he did and in a way, Monroe was doing his own self retrieval with a continuing relationship with the Inspec.

With my studies of other travelers of these inner dimensions of self, I notice they  too have their I/there they are in relationship with, who often drops tidbits of wisdom, little hints which come in quite useful at some point.
When I first began to write my book I was sitting in the yard thinking "oh, where to begin?" this is where guidance began to help me shape the thing as my head was buzzing with too many ideas, all of them seemed good to me and so I felt overwhelmed a bit, but eager to begin.
I was quietly reminded of a psychic minister who told me I had been a zealous minister, quite judgmental with some natives whom I had grown to love, however, I was not loving them the right way. I was filled with sorrow at the end of the life that I had preached too severely and JC took me to task what his real message was.
so guidance was saying name this fellow DP, short for dead preacher, as he's dead, and he no longer preaches, but he had some writing talents, so start out your book by letting him start it out.

So he writes most eloquently, but basically doesn't say nothing, it's just pretty. But at least he helped me get started to writing..got my juices going. I soon began to associate DP with the way Monroe had his Inspec. The relationship was fascinating. sometimes I was a man, sometimes I was just me, alysia, with my own life,  until now, I'm ok with that we are one and he was here just for that time period so I could get my book written. It's because we never die. any life that is lived is continuing. Yet he is me, as I was born in this life to continue this man's consciousness evolving. I am not threatened by this concept, I feel instead the PUL he learned from the other life is given to me as a gift, to continue my evolvement.  the PUL makes us one, more than any character traits I might have carried over in an essence distilling process. Nothing that is real and true will be destroyed. Im sorry Dude, I am messing up your thread!

I love that Dude started his journal here and I love reading about Recoverer's guidance, and that process. Kudos to you guys.....

jiminy cricket R! I do so enjoy you lately! just to add a thought about angels...

we really shouldn't get the idea that angels and guides and helpers are somehow ranked by the size of their wings. the wings are symbology of something that can fly. I once asked Don a long time ago, "do u believe we can entertain angels unaware?"  I never got a response so I just went off and figured it out on my own, which I think we can all get our own answers by going within anyway. I was at the time just making conversation with Don, as I already believed that yes, we can be entertaining angels unaware. Vicki here did receive an angel who made himself look like a man. Vicki does not lie and is not deceived by fantasy, my opinion of course.
I think I met such a fellow once myself. knocked me right off my feet! after he left I was a nicer person, lol.

A friend of mine handed me a huge book couple years ago when I was thinking about angels and I'll tell u why he did that in a moment. I found a definition of Angel which satisfied me for the moment: it said angels are Messengers.
Didn't say they were ascended masters or gurus, or born leaders, nothing like that. just that they deliver messages to mankind. Sounds a lot like guidance factor, where we are picking up a message from out of the blue, right? guides and helpers, thats what angels are, but we are in a different time period now, and so we call them helpers or guides, because we have new language now.

We are all in different levels of our soul development. PUL is what makes us one. One day I needed a man to fix my foundation and I asked spirit to find me an honest person, who does good thorough work. when I need something fixed I always get the right person, they just show up. its like a prayer thing.

In walks this sort of man that I had prayed for. He was psychic as it turned out. He said with his eyes bugged out I had a vision of you Alysia. You are an angel! (ah, not hardly chum, I was thinking) this man didn't know what to do or how to interpret his vision. he explained that he saw my book being made into a movie (I have no information on this, the thing is not even selling) At any rate we became friends over the 4 weeks he did excellent work on my foundation. We would discuss things like book writing, and he wanted to write his own book and he told me his dreams, which I knew then, I was supposed to inspire him to write this book of his own.
One night he called me crying. He'd just been evicted. he vented awhile. Spirit let me talk to him. Spirit said to disengage his anger as he had some rage there, and I was the only one in town who could deal with it, so I felt it was an honor, the position I was placed in, to listen, and still believe in his ability to get through this without becoming fearful of all of this emotion he had, rage and sorrow and tremendous in quantity. I was able to help him by being his angel.

so why can't we be each other's angels? life is hard. no doubt about it. There may be some angels never come here..they may be afraid to tread here even. they are innocent, these ones who stay in the heavens. We here are dreaming we are separate from God and all that is good.

We may have lost our innocense but in my humble opinion we will all get it back shortly and we need each other to do that.

JOURNAL ENTRY 56

This morning I was laying in bed in an altered state of consiousness.  I wanted to do some exploring, as usual.  I saw an image of a dollar, and focused in on it.  I began travelling closer and closer to the bill, until I was so close I could see microscopic-sized patterns.  As I would get closer, new yet similar patterns would emerge, and it would constantly change as I scoped in further and futher. 

Finally I broke through and emerged in what seemed like a different world.  This was probably some type of inner dimension.  I was next to this little funny looking man.  There were thousands of these people, all dressed in strange clothing and armor.  They were fighting in a war, with their opponents on the other side of a closeby bridge.  Then this little man began charging at the enemy, and strangely enough, I knew this little person was me, and yet I still had a third person perspective.  I travelled around the area to see what was going on at the other side of the bridge.  Lucidity may have been lost around this time, for any futher memories are blurred and seem unrelated. 

It was interesting how I seemed to travel through the pattern of the bill and then finally completely through it to another dimension.  This is a new method of travel for me.

JOURNAL ENTRY 57

Yesterday afternoon I lay down to take a nap after a short sleep period that night.  I listened to the lifeline track (my favorite one).  I quickly entered an extremely deep state, the sensation of my body fading as the sensation of my energy body increased. 

I strongly had the urge to open the connection between my physical aspect and my greater aspect, and remember it.  I will sometimes intuitively have the strong impression that I was communicating with my higher self after dreaming or meditation, but I have no solid memories of this.

I believe I began to phase into a nonphysical level.  It seemed as if I was traveling, I was nonphysically sensing my environment, for my vision was mainly black with colors in all sorts of intricate shapes and designs.  I continually sank into a deeper states.  Visions of people and events manifested, symbolizing knowledge which was on the tip of my tounge, yet unexpressable at this point. 

The intent of making contact with my higher self was strong.  I felt an energy above me, and began reaching out my consciousness towards this energy which I knew was my higher self.  I saw a vision of a majestic being.  It was a slender human form with a human face, with grace flowing from his inner being, I was almost in awe.  He was doing a graceful movement while spinning in place.  I then saw his face and realized it was me.  However, the face did not really look like mine.  But I KNEW it was me.  I intuited that this was a higher aspect of myself which I am physically-consciously unaware of at the time.  I was shocked by the feeling I had in the presence of this being.

I went even deeper, and my memories become very blurry from this moment on.  I have the impression, the feeling, that I was communicating with someone, there was some type of exchange of information. 

I believe I was in an area of consciousness where the experiences there can only be translated through symbols, and this graceful aspect of myself who I encountered symbolized my higher self.

same here Dude and R. often find myself dialoguing at length to someone, sometimes more than one person and only remember the flavor of it all, meaning the emotional content.

one particular dialogue happened more than 20 yrs ago, just now remembering more parts of that.
these communications is what TMI calls receiving rotes. balls of thought to take back to C1 for unraveling..it's just that TMI does not mention, unraveling, or remembering can take a very long time, which leads me to think the future happens before the now moment. but we handle the details here in the now by at least trying to remember.

I've heard we can set an intention to remember more before going to sleep or meditating. I think this works to a degree, if when we are "out" we can remember to nudge ourselves to remember.

Buhlman says when he goes out CLARITY NOW! Sort of a leap of faith idea.

I have reports that you can't judge a book by it's cover Dude! many report we can change what we look like over there, and some friends create me to look different when they say they have visited with me, as well, Gordon does not look like his picture either when I have met with him. I think form is so malleable. I can very well see Dude as spinning, as i even see myself this way, spinning; it has to do with your energy signature, your frequency. we are basically energy, not solid components.

I'm glad you continue to share your explorations here Dude, it is really helpful to me, speaking personally. I think we are all due for more clarity and remembrance.

I'm reminded of Monroes first book. You know he sometimes found himself in a very different environment, and got a brief snippet of what was going on there, but couldn't really tell what it was all about, only that it had been a different world ("Locale 2"). Later he was able to more structurize his journeys, meaning he invented a system, or developed a feeling for "where" he is in his journeys.

What I (and surely others, too) envy is your ability, or gift, to really shut down your body awareness through these journeys. I can do that only when sleeping/dreaming. I'd expect much more vividness and a higher feeling of "reality", "being involved" as compared with split awareness.

Btw, I too find that a Lifeline track I have (moving between F23 and F27 and back) is absolutely relaxing. I think about prolonging it and cutting out the instructions.

Spooky

JOURNAL ENTRY 60

Recently I have had a number of experiences in which I seem to focus in on another level of reality momentarily.  It feels as if I am tuning my consciousness into another dimension and seeing my environment from a new perspective.  This has occurred before, but not as often as it is happening now.

Last week I was in my friends car on my way home from work.  I slipped into a trance-like state while sitting in the passenger seat.  I suddenly became aware of a duality within my consciousness, for I realized that I was outside of the car, looking at myself talking to my friend, and yet I was inside the car as well.  From my point of consciousness outside of the vehicle, I observed myself talking to my friend, yet I could not hear what I was saying.  At the same time, the aspect of my consciousness which was still inside the car was explaining to my friend what was taking place.  I was amazed at this duality that I was experiencing.

After a little the duality subsided, and I began thinking of seemingly random things.  To my further amazement, a picture perfect, fully colored, 3 dimensional image of a symbol representing each thought flashed before my eyes.

After explaining this new experience to my friend, I consciously willed the duality back, and once again I was inside and outside the car.  After a little while longer my consciousness resumed to normal.

A few days later, I was at the casino with my wife.  As we were walking up a set of stairs, my consciousness seemed to shift.  I suddenly became aware of being at another place at another time.  I felt as if I was in the past.  The stairs became something they were not before, they were no longer the stairs at the casino, they were the stairs at a mystical place that vibrated of nature and royalty.  After about 8 stairs I was back to normal.

Yesterday I became aware of a higher form of my energy, as if I tapped into the source of my being.  This was induced through a song.  I was sitting at my computer, and entered a slightly meditative state.  The song at first activated an emotional state, the feeling of beauty growing stronger as the song progressed and changed.  I reached a state so intense that I could feel my energy body buzzing with a magnificently beautiful energy.  By this time tears were coming from my eyes.  I left this state when the song ended.

Today I was on the jitney coming home.  I closed my eyes and began to see all types of imagery and symbols, as well as intricate patterns of what I believe may be structures of some type of energy.  I then started to reach my consciousness inside and feel for the energy of my higher self.  I felt only a slight presence of this energy, but received some symbols and moving imagery which represented my inner being and related ideas.

good one (gasp!) Dude. thank you so much for sharing with us.

once read of two ladies who were on vacation in Europe and the difference between your slipping into this other dimension of time, and theirs, was there were two people involved, to verify to each other what they had seen while there.
it happens. suddenly as they walked, the scenery all shifted from modern to something like horse and buggy days...I'm not sure whether they interacted with the people they saw as the dresses they wore were out of place, so maybe they couldn't be seen, but everything was quite real.

Some would say a label, what you did as Dual Consciousness. I only did this once or twice but it's very vivid and real. Bruce mentioned here once, that he was splitting his consciousness up more than two places, during some classroom seminar, and he was made aware of it.

Monroe was reported to be able to be in several places at once, why am I not surprised?

Interestingly, my guidance factor explains Yeshua was able to be in more places than one, and in the form of his body.  I just read about that he could make himself a new body by gathering those particles around him and they would vibrate to denseness according to his will. Also I think he walked on water in this other body, the astral body.

then to compare a bit to your experience (truly amazing!) one day I was discussing, I thought all in my head, just me, myself and I, right? to a person on this board, responding to a post. I remember thinking about the question they had asked. I was on my porch, about ready to respond to the post.

I "pretended" to talk to them. A conversation began. like an interaction. Suddenly I knew what I wanted to say to them in the actual post. I jumped up to go post it without excusing myself from the interaction, lol, after all, I thought I was just talking to myself.
as I opened the screen door and walked to the puter, this interaction continued and I heard myself still talking to them and they were still responding, even though "I" had left the whole scene, I was no longer pretending, and it seemed another me was still talking, but I had no clue what I was saying!

I was just watching that from like peripheral consciousness. Since then I can sometimes hear conversations going on here. I can sometimes hear people's thoughts..I sometimes read my own posts "with them" as they read it. weird, but fun! It's part of this oneness thing.

very interesting that you heard yourself explaining what was happening while it was happening Dude. this phenomenon is also discussed in Bruce's books concerning how Rosalie trained herself to use the recorder when she did explorations.

this has something to do with the subconscious mind and the conscious mind becoming completely merged, so that the "split mind" (explained in ACIM) is no longer split, you become then the observer of a new definition of what reality is, and of "who" you are.
and you sir, have my admiration as a pioneer explorer. love, alysia

JOURNAL ENTRY 61

This morning I awoke with the memory of a dream, during which I was being sought after by a group of people(can't remember who, or how exactly they were after me), they wanted me because I had special abilities. I wish I could remember the details of the abilities, because I remember thinking how mindblowing they were in the dream, I remember how amazing the abilities were, but can't recall the specifics.

Anyway, this was the third dream I have had in a short period of time(maybe a month) in which people are more than interested in me because I have acquired amazing abilities(for example flying, telekenisis, and basically the ability to do whatever I want).  As dreams are a translation of nonphysical experiences into physical symbols, there is a deeper meaning to this dream.   

I believe that I may be harnessing advanced abilities or new abilities during sleep, while in nonphysical dimensions.  Or perhaps I could be phasing into a reality in which another aspect of my inner being/higher self actually is acquiring or using new abilities while in the physical... perhaps in a time in the future on Earth or somewhere in a physical-type universe, or quite possibly a species totally different from ours, in a dimension very different from ours.

JOURNAL ENTRY 62

I have recently begun to perform exercises to aid in the expansion of my consciousness.  These exercises are given in Seth's books, the ones I am using now come from The Unknown Reality.  These exercises are designed to allow you to become accustomed to experiencing some of the other levels of reality which are normally blocked off from our normal waking consciousness. 

The exercise I practiced yesterday has two parts.  The idea is to first totally engulf yourself in your physical reality.  Try to become as aware as possible of your environment and your relationship in it, by analyzing the things around you.  Pay attention to each sound and determine where it is coming from, allow everything you see to enter your consciousness, feel your body sensations as they come in contact with the world around you.  Then, when you are at a level of highest awareness, allow your consciosuness to stray.  Let it go off in one particular direction.  It should be allowed to drift as far away from normal physical consciousness as possible.  Feedback such as visuals or feelings or sounds should enter your consciousness from other levels of focus.  As this is practiced more, you will become more and more accustomed to experiencing your consciousness in a different way, in different dimensions.  Basically, the idea is to learn to recognize your point of clearest conscious focus in the physical, so you can in turn recognize when your consciousness is off focus as well, or focused somewhere else.

I have just begun practicing this exercise.  As I drifted away from my normal state of consciousness ( I chose to move off to the left ), I faintly percieved another area of consciousness.  As I drifted, I became aware of having a sort of energy body.  I saw this body more than I was able to feel being inside of it.  I also percieved the environment, although I couldnt make out anything clearly.  I could definately tell I was moving though.  I began to feel as if I really were somewhere else.  It was a very strange feeling.  There was an aspect of duality in this feeling.  However, it also felt like something totally new, I couldn't put my finger on it. 

I was doing this at work, and would do it a few times during two two-hour periods.  To my amazement, the time flew by rediculously fast.  My perception of time was altered from this exercise.  Two hours felt like about half an hour.  This, to me, was amazing, for it was real.  I know what these two hour periods feel like, for I have been working at the two-hour post for a while now.  This is definately something I am going to continue.   

JOURNAL ENTRY 63

Last night I was in a particularly expanded state of consciousness.  I was walking towards a window, and in the glass I could see my reflection.  Suddenly an idea came into my consciousness.  I began to ponder the reality of my reflection.  I thought, what is it like to be my reflection?  I understand that everything is consciousness, and because consciousness is always conscious of itself in its own way, I realized that my reflection must have a reality of its own.

I suddenly seemed to focus into this reality.  I was in a dark space, in front of me was a window which I could see through.  On the other side of the window was the environment I was in when I saw my reflection.(I was still seeing my reflection, although now this aspect of my consciousness was out of focus)  I was my reflection.  I understood that the reason for my existence was to do whatever my human counterpart did while in front of a reflective surface.  I was in a state of happiness and even slight excitement, for I knew my purpose and was content doing it.  This state soon faded and I was back to normal.  This was a very odd, and awsome experience.

JOURNAL ENTRY 64

Last night a series of syncronicities occured which further proved to myself my beliefs of the reality of the dream state and its intimate connection with the waking state.

Last night I received a message from a guy who works with my wife(and obviously thought my cell phone was hers), saying that he wants to pick up thursday or friday.  However, I read this wrong, and thought he said he wanted to pick [i]her[u] up thursday or friday.  I was devistated, thinking he and my wife made plans to go out behind my back.  To investigate this further and see what he wanted to do with my wife, I asked, what do you want to do?  He said, its your call, then he said somthing about their boss which was irrelevant and rather odd.  Then he said something else to even add to the irrelevancy, having to do with their schedule at work.  It didn't matter to me.  By this time, I was having physical symptoms due to my new mental state of shock and heartache. 

However, I received a final message from him.  It said, just let me know if you want me to work thursday or friday for you.  I said, wait... and looked at the first message.  I then realized he wanted to pick up her days at work, not her herself.  I was extremely relieved.

About a minute later I had an amazing realization.  The night before I had a dream that I found out that my wife was going out and having dinner with a guy behind my back. 

Now, one would think, well your dream didn't predict anything because your wife wasn't actually going out with this other guy.  However, in my reality, for that brief and emotionally intense period of time, this was a reality in my eyes.  I mentally and emotionally experienced what it was like for this to happen, even though it was not a fact in physical reality.  Therefore, whether this event was a fact in this reality is irrelevant, for I still experienced it's reality.  The correlation with this event and my dream is uncanny.  Even the time of day she was would have gone out matches with the dream.

During my dream I experienced a probable reality in which my wife was going out with another guy.  The next day, I experienced this same probable reality, only it was temporary.  The reality then changed to another probable one, in which I realized it was actually a misunderstanding on my part and this wasn't happening.  It seems like the dream state is a nonphysical level where probable future realities are experienced in a nonphysical way and manifested into the physical reality later in time.  This is not nearly my first experience in which this occurred, and each one further solidifies my ideas of what dreams really are. 

Recoverer

That is a very logical explanation, and basic, like you said.  However, it feels too basic for me.   There is obviously a strong relationship between the dreaming state and the physical state, for there have been too many syncronicities for this not to be so.  They key here is to try to understand this relationship, and grasp what is actually occurring during these higher levels of consciousness. 

You said the dream showed me a concern I have, and this will lead me to solve my issue.  However, this dream literally manifested in my physical reality to a certain degree.  Your explanation does not touch on this most important aspect of the situation.  We need to understand the mechanics of this manifestation, even if it is a very basic understanding.  This will lead us to the true understanding of what occurs during the dream state.

Hi OutOfBodyDude,

I have been lurking here and reading your journals. I had registered, then lost the password. Now I have re-registered here so I can participate in the forums.

Thank you for such detailed journals. These are especially cool for me to read because I have started my own Gateway Experience CD's. 

Are you still using the Gateway CD's?

Thanks,
Aquamarine

Recoverer

I don't feel I am overdoing it.  I am just beginning to explore this concept.  When your dreams begin to manifest in the physical reality, it is important to know why, and perhaps then begin to take control of this ability/mechanism to further create your ideal reality.  That is all I am doing.

In doing sufficient research on this topic, I feel that maybe you are overdoing it with your interpretation of the parallel universe concept.  The keys behind this idea are experience and choice.  The idea is that everything possible to experience is experienced, each infinite variation in its own dimension of reality.  Every possible choice is therefore explored, and different choices obviously lead to different experiences, and therefore a slightly(or extremely) different world.  

However, these parallel worlds also exists in universes which follow certain fundamental laws, and a parallel earth will exist in a parallel universe, and while events will always be different, in this system the fundamental physical laws remain the same, as they will in parallel earths.  No thought pattern could ever lead to the creation of a Satan being in the physical, this would not follow the basic physical laws.  This being may be encountered in another level of consciousness, a nonphysical one.    

I am not claiming to have all of the answers regarding this theory, for I have just begun to explore its dimensions.  However, I am most certainly not going to disregard it as a possibility, especially since my experience has shown that at least one aspect of this idea is most likely true.  If you agree that the universe is infinite, and that our existence is infinite, and that there is more than one dimension of reality, then this idea should at least be entertained and explored before it is discarded.  

Is it so amazingly "out there" that in other levels of reality we experience every possible choice and thought during a physical life?This would indeed make an experience in the physical earth system more beneficial and practical, wouldnt you think?

I feel your interpretation of the dream world is limited. 

During sleep we drift into nonphysical levels of reality.  These experiences are translated into physical-ness, as dreams.

These levels have always existed and will always exist so long as consciousness is infinite. 

These realities do not simply dissapear just because we are not focused in them, just as the physical world does not dissapear when we sleep and our consciousness focuses into other levels of reality.  They will always exists, and a part of our consciousness will always be a part of these other levels.  It is simply a matter of focus.

I believe we do have activity in these nonphysical realms even when we are physically oriented during the day.  It makes perfect sense when you think of our higher selves.  They are always in these nonphysical realms.  It is quite easy for me to access these levels while awake, however my perception of them is different due to the different mechanism I am using at that time to access these levels.  They may come through as a visualization, daydream, or intuitional thought.  That is where intuition comes from- the nonphysical levels we simultaneously exist in.  Nevertheless, I can tune into these nonphysical realms to a certain degree while awake, just as everyone can although they may not realize what is actually happening, and therefore we must exist in them to some degree while physically awake.

I am actually surprised that you believe the physical world is more real than the nonphysical dimensions.  You must look past the illusion of time and realize that all levels of existence are simultaneously being experienced, and therefore at a higher level none came first and none came last.  They just exist.  To be honest with you, if you look at it from the illusion of time, you are wrong.  Our physical world comes from these higher nonphysical realms.  Where do you think our unlimited energy comes from???  The nonphysical comes before the physical in a linear way of thinking.

You are right that experience in the physical is much different from experience in the nonphysical.  However, that does not mean one is more real than the other.  My personal experience has proven this so. 

In a sense, dreams help us become aware of our unlimited selves. which we could call higher self.

limited self would be in the area what is defined as C1.

everyday waking conscious mind, necessarily focused on the days activities is C1.
the next state of consciousness is Focus 10. body asleep, mind awake.

Dreamwalkers is another term for those who surf their dreams for signs of reality, or gaining more lucidity of who and what we are, as human beings passing here.

physical reality is limited awareness, due to we are focused into generally, some job, or function we perform, or role we are in. In truth, we are unlimited beings when these dreams are trying to show us more info about ourselves.

In Dude's latest example, if we look at the emotions of the dream carefully we see a clue to who and what a human is. A useful clue, because once attained, Dude becomes aware that he loves his wife, but in his subconscious, he is fearful, and this produces a heartache as he describes it.

therefore, Dude becomes aware he is mistaken about the inference of the phone call, that he alone created the misperception. He relaxes, he creates his environment of returning to trust of his wife, he enhances the love that is there, which is the truth, and the fear was a misperception only.

To do all this, he stepped into focus 15, or into a future time and gathered the data, brought it back to real time and utilized it as he was supposed to.

Now, my complimentary obe story. I was traveling with a guide, a young man of nonphysical reality and I went for a test drive of the new van I would someday purchase, which I had asked him to find for me, in another state. This guide and I spoke mentally back and forth. he said he was inbetween lives. He did this sort of thing as a service to us in physical reality.

it was a pleasant ride. I accepted the van. several months later I move to the state, and find the van. Somehow I just "know", yes, this is the van and this saves me time of searching around for the "right" van. As I'd told him, it's very important, the motor is good, the ride is smooth, the color and body look good. when I drove in the van the first time, I re-experienced the same sensations of smoothness, and the same feeling of my mind expanding around the boundaries of the van. I was used to smaller vehicles..and the first time you drive something larger, you will know what I mean, about the feelings.

the dream had the same sensations as in real time, just as Dude experienced the effects of misperception of fear, or insecurity issues around his relationship.

The ability of the mind to go ahead of time and take a look at probabilities of what we will experience means the mind is in the act of creating it's own future outside of C1 boundaries.

It is taking ahold of the reins, and manning your own ship of destiny.

we are far more than we think we are.

recently I got guidance that before I can create my own reality, I must first be able to imagine it.
If I cannot imagine an event to take place, it will not happen. it must first be within the imagination which is to say I must entertain the possibilities, and then, if you entertain the possibilities long enough, it will be so.  focus has much to do with reality creating.

but it is true, we might be debating the egg or the chicken, which came first, from my pov, they both appeared simultaneously and both are real, as real is totally relative to the perceiver.

thanks Dude, it's been good to reflect on these things.

Reborn

The arm is a very good start.  Isn't it a cool feeling to have your energy body's arm floating around?  The best books to read on astral projection are Robert Bruces.  I own Astral Dynamics and have read it a couple times, that book should be at the top of your reading list if you want to learn about OBEs, for it contains both theoretical aspects and practical ones, not to mention he is one of the top explorers in the field(who is publicly known anyway).   

Its not a big deal if nothing happened your first time.  Its important to notice even the slightest changes in your state of concsiousness when doing these exercises, and yet you should expect nothing and just flow with the experience.  Any sensation out of the ordinary should be seen as progress.  Total relaxation is the key.  You want to obtain the most relaxed state as possible, by tensing/relaxing all of your muscles and doing mental exercises to quiet your mind.  Turning the lights off will best allow your eyes to relax, so therefore it should be done.

The best mental exercise to use, in my experience, is to simply notice what is happening in the blackness behind your eyelids.  This takes away focus from the physical and shifts your focus to nonphysical levels.  Usually when I use the gateway tracks, I do not try to leave my body, I instead phase my consciousness to other dimensions by doing exactly what I just said.  I usually begin to see snapshots of other realities and symbols relating to the nonphysical experience I am having.  As you progress further, the experiences will become more intense, more frequent, and more syncronistic in your physical life.  This is what you can expect if you regularly meditate with the gateway tracks... and its just the beginning.  Good luck!

Hi Reborn,
I'm practicing the TMI/Moen "phasing" method, which leads to a split consciousness, meaning I'm fully aware of my physical body, and at the same time aware of another "place". This is easy to achieve, most of those who use HemiSync or follow Bruce Moens advice can do this.
More difficult it is to achieve to become totally unaware of our physical body, as in dreams, but remain our awareness, the type of awareness we have in the physical, so that we're able to bring the memory of those experiences back to the physical. I had that a few times, I can't do it at will. I twice could look through my closed eylids, had two etheric OBEs (well, you KNOW when you have one ), a few lucid dreams with awsome visuals, and a similar case as you told under no.6 (I think I've told this already, sorry):
  I had slept, and awoke from a series of dreams with "cold surges", as you told, not uncomfortable, a cool-wind feeling through my body. I felt someone was entering my room. An inner voice, or I myself, said: Nothing to fear. So I remained to be bodily asleep, but mind awake. This entity laid down beside me, then melted with me, again with that cool feeling. I think it was a kind of OBE, but viewed from an aspect of me which had stayed in physical awareness. Robert Bruce has an elaborated theory of this. I doubt that this theory is true, but it surely is a kind of theory you can work with.
  I appreciate your effort to master these different consciousness states. I second Dude, when you're practicing with HemiSync, notice and remember (write down) everything what "happens" (or not happens).

Spooky

must have been higher self, or like your more unlimited self interacting with you, by telling you that you could trust it would be there whenever you focused in on it.

when I first started thinking about how TMI coined certain concepts for us, the C1 = limited perspective. as I/there.  "I" is limited perspective, so to gain a particular experience.

There is to mean our greater self, or unlimited self, which is formless, so we get all sorts of form images to work with in this area, you received the cartoon, a large cartoon. you were being told that when you shift your focus, HS is there. When you want to ground into physical reality, you make another shift in focus.

Might be relevant to the little finger bending exercise in Bruce's reference.
Some personal comparisons: the dual consciousness I experienced is quite similar to yours, only instead of HS coming in as a cartoon which engenders a trusting nature, it came in as looking exactly like myself in this same body, only the facial expression was relaxed and smiling.

what HS did for me, in this respect was to show a glowing light within the eyes, to say it was the real me, while I had been suffering from an inferior complex, this then was quite instructional, as well a delightful visitation of the future possibilities of myself.

thanks again for your journal. I very seldom enter another focus level from C1, waking, except, sometimes when blogging I cannot type fast enough with what's coming in. seems like a couple dozen perspectives try to feed into the same paragraph. in that case editing must be done.

I remember a few years ago, daily feeling like an alien; the body became quite foreign. It couldn't be me, I would say to myself, for I have no zipper to unzip it's mysteries, see what's inside of this thing. it seems it was a phase I went thru to understand what the real me is, the I/there.
when I started dreaming true, where the events would play out in real time, I began to panic, because I was now a puppet it seemed of HS. or once I called it a hologram of higher self, this body and personality/ego.
that seemed to work ok as a thought system for awhile, as a dream vision was given of a funnel of light narrowing one end to the body, and widening at the top to say, the connection was wider from HS.

I noticed a change in the obe scenario. instead of the energy body walking, running or leaping out there, instead I started to glide everywhere, attended by a feeling of mental spaciousness.

when I first started obe-ing I used to flap my arms to get off the ground. lol. the effort was excruciating and yielded only a few feet.
now I just glide or ride something like an escalator, or it's like I'm on it when I think of someone to visit.
I like the way you said your innermost being was being materialized into the flesh, and that your most prevalent mental state determined your experience.

I found this is true.

Reborn

You experienced what I call "clicking out".  This is when you have an experience in a nonphysical dimension, but cannot remember it due to your innability to translate it into physical terms.  Instead, you simply experience a period of missing time.  It used to happen to me all the time, and still does occasionally. 

During resonate tuning, I usually bring the energy through my mouth, or sometimes through my entire head, or sometimes through my whole body, as if it is seeping in into my pores.  I then release the old energy either out of my mouth, or out of my entire body, once again as if it is coming out of every pore in my body.  You should experiment with different techniques and do whatever seems to work best for you.

Thanks Blink and Dude.

The day (9th July) before yesterday I moved onto "advanced focus 10" session.  When I was doing my resonant tuning I felt that each time I breath in, I feel tingling all over my body like goose bumps.  I guess this is energy coming inside me.

Not much happened yesterday.  I did the resonant tuning but no tingling.  I did however feel tingling in my feet as I did the resonant energy balloon (visualizing energy coming out of my head like a fountain and then back into my feet).  But much of the tingle was in my right feet.

When I got into focus 10, there was no difference at the beginning.  Then after a while, I felt a change in state.  It felt darker and there was a build up of pressure in my head (I am all the while accepting the fact there is the energy balloon happening).

Dude:

I've heard a voice quite clearly numerous times. I've found that only one sentence at a time can be communicated this way.  There have been occasions where I had dialogues, but it is hard to remember what the dialogue was about once the conversation is over. I remember one time I was holding a conversation with a being and I noticed it was smiling at me funny, as it waited until I realized that I was having a conversation with a spirit being. As soon as I realized this the conversation ended.

For some reason it is easier to receive visual images than hear a voice. Even when it comes to dreams, either waking or asleep, very little dialogue takes place. It is more a matter of having an understanding of what was communicated.

My feeling is that spirits don't have vocal chords. Therefore, they create words that can be heard in a manner that is different than we create them. It also seems as if they deal with blocks of information, rather than a word by word manner. They also think in a manner that is more abstract yet more complete than linear thought.

JOURNAL ENTRY 67

This morning I entered an expanded state of consciousness as I remained awake while my body fell asleep.  I became aware of a presence approaching me to my left.  It came so close, it was touching me.  I felt its energy right against my body, a tingly warm pressure.  I knew it was some kind of spirit.  It touched my hand and began to speak to me.  I felt its gentle energetic hand in my hand.  I couldn't make out what it was saying, however.  It almost seemed as if it was speaking in different language.  I then snapped out of this state with a burning curiosity of who it was and what they wanted.  Ill find out in time... this is the second time this week I have heard a voice.  This time the being even touched me.  There must be a connection.

JOURNAL ENTRY 68

This morning was the first time I have attempted to leave my body in quite a while.  I woke up earlier than usual and went back to sleep about 25 minutes later.  I stayed awake while my body fell alseep, and quickly entered an extremely deep state.  I willed myself to fall downwards, and as if I were being pulled by gravity, I began falling at high speeds.  My visual perception was not quite working, all I saw was blackness and vertically moving grey blurs (I was the one who was actually moving).  I stopped falling, but my vision was still nonexistent.  I then tried an old trick and began to spin in place.  I forget what moment I began to see exactly, but the next thing I can remember I was in an unfamiliar room.

I was flying around this room joyfully, remembering how amazing it is to be out of body(its been a little while since Ive been consciously out!).  There was a large mirror in the center of the wall.  I flew right through it, and flew right into a room exactly like the one I was just in! 

Upon entering this new "mirror room," my perception changed in a way that is hard to explain.  It was almost like I could see from more than one place at once, or maybe I could see in more than one direction at once. 

Flying through the mirror was fun nevertheless, and I did it a few more times.  Approaching the mirror, I could see my face with amaaaazing clarity, as if I were not only physically there, but that I had super vision and could see every minute detail on my face. 

While flying through the mirror the second or third time, I realized that there was now another me flying around.  I am almost sure I saw myself pass by me.  I thought, "did I create a copy of myself by going through that mirror?" "Maybe that is a 'mirror me'"... or maybe I became the 'mirror me'... I dont know what happened to the mirror me after I saw him the first time.  Maybe he left and did some exploring of his own...

The last time I flew through the mirror, I began to concentrate on changing the imperfections I noticed on my face and making my face perfect... with my super vision, it was easy to see every tiny flaw right before passing through the mirror.  I went through thinking that when I reemerge, my face will be a perfect version of what it is now.  I turned around to look in the mirror again, but it was gone!  The mirror disappeared. 

I immediately knew what this meant.  Without the mirror, I couldnt concentrate on the little imperfections because I could not see them.  Like the saying goes, out of sight, out of mind.  Less focus on my physical appearance will bring more confidence and allow me to be myself to the fullest.  I have made breakthroughs over the past couple of years in terms of my self confidence, and went from the low side of the scale to the high side.  I am still not always operating at 100% self confidence, however.(if I get a pimple or something it will drop a little)  I feel this experience will help me to remember physical appearance does not and should not dictate my true inner self.

Alysia

You are absolutely right, it was a very funny experience.  Especially when I told my friends about it, they thought it was hillarious.(none of them are really into obe's or spiritual things but they love hearing about my journeys)

I haven't thanked you lately, or everyone else, for responding to my thread, for your interest motivates me to continue the journals.  You guys are awesome!

JOURNAL ENTRY 69

This morning I woke up after 6 hours of sleep, stayed awake for half an hour, and then meditated to the lifeline track with the intention of having a nonphysical experience.  

I entered a trance very quickly.  My body was still tired, but my mind was alert. Half an hour seems to be just enough time to relieve my morning grogginess.  

I felt as if I was collapsing into myself.  I was waivering from a semi-deep to a very deep state.  It was difficult to achieve a state deep enough to leave my body.. I believe this was because I was dehydrated from drinking the night before.  

I began to see through my closed eyelids.  My vision of the room faded into focus, but then faded out.  In a final attempt to leave my body, I began to climb an imaginary rope.  This brought me into a much deeper state.

I began to float up, although I had no sensation of my energy body.  I sensed that I was approaching my ceiling, but I could only vaguely see.  This was probably more of a mental projection.  The expeirence only lasted momentarily.  

Had my physical body been in a more optimal state, I could have had a much more intense and prolonged experience.  I am going to try to make morning meditations an everyday thing.

Thanks blink

You would love the out of body thing.  Takes a little practice, but under the right conditions it's actually pretty easy, even for a beginner.

clapping my hands for you dearlite! it's strange, today I also received a report from my trusted friend BMc, another absent forum member who had an obe aboard a UFO last night, was told that he too is advancing beyond expectation into an "alignment."
formerly Bob Mc. explained the alignment to be called process of ascension, while I call it the shift in consciousness (resonates better with me as a shift in perspective requires a focus on things of a spiritual nature rather than material existence matters.)

anyhoo, I think we are all in for a ride here, if I am reading the signs correctly. and you are getting way out there Dude!

just a little word; it's said no two experiences of this nature will be the same, so I expect we will hear something different next time.

cant wait. love, aunty alysia

Thank you Alysia

Your right, I know too from experience that no two experiences in our nonphysical reality are the same.  Of course there will be similarities in experiences in the same nonphysical dimension, just as there are similarities in our daily experience here in the physical due to natural laws. 

hi dude, according to everything I've read on going obe, travelers have to work on raising their energy into the upper chakras or else we often encounter the sexual vibrations. but only in the beginning explorations.
I've been studying the chakras quite a bit, they have much to do with levels of consciousness.
Its the 2nd chakra responsible for sexual feelings.
if something is chasing you however, that is the survival chakra, the first one.
if you are in a battle and win, that is the 3rd chakra, of self empowerment.
if you are feeling love, you are in the fourth or heart chakra.

the other day I was sure you had reached the 7th crown chakra, where is these seldom experienced revelatory/god chakra.

apparently, we work with all these energies at one time or another.
well, back to the books for me!

one time obe I went into a lecture hall, met a forum friend there and we left together to talk about things. I wonder if u could find a lecture hall out there somewhere? of your interest. or the library, etc. it seems you are out there, but not able to identify where and that may cause you to blink off, as nothing is grounding you that is familiar. ? just a suggestion, I am not a very good ober, but in my dreams I do often verify in real time that I've met that person whom was seen there.

love, alysia