Hey old friends... Im back and ready for some more action!!! hehehe

I have cut my old journal entries and placed them into this new thread so it is much smaller in size.  Enjoy the new entries, I plan to keep them coming...

JOURNAL ENTRY 15 Reply #51 - Dec 4th, 2006, 1:32pm

Last night I listened to Wave 2 part 2. I read in one of Bruce's articles that he had a convo with himself and requested to be able to percieve the nonphysical wheneever he desired, and he said that it works almost always. So thats exactly what I did. I didn't really have a convo, it was more of a one sided deal. Do you know if your suppost to imagine that your higher self is responding and come up with the other end of the dialogue yourself, or are you suppost to actually recieve responces? Maybe I should try it again and imagine I'm getting responces. It just seemed a little silly to me last night. 

Im starting to get really deep. A little disoriented at times, seeing different lights at times and moving dark objects. Its not like I felt when first starting. Then I knew I was in focus ten but my perception basically stayed the same in that state. But now it feels different. However, when it gets really different for some reason my eyes start to open. I dont know why. Just when I know Im really about to see something and go further then Ive been so far, my eyes seem to open if I dont clench them shut. But then that disrupts my relaxation a little. Any advise? Does this happen to anyone else?

JOURNAL ENTRY 16 Reply #55 - Dec 5th, 2006, 12:05pm


Wave 2 part 1. Now before I go on I just want to point out my mom was in the room next to mine in a very heated arguement on the phone, so I had to listen to that nonsense while trying to relax and do my thing... a very difficult task. So I get into focus 10, and I find it very easy to pass of my moms yelling, which is unusual for me. I actually feel an expansion into focus 12 too... which is crazy, I never would Have thought I could get so deep with all the commotion in the other room. But I realized it was definantly holding me back and I was loosing my focus, so I stopped. 
WHile falling asleep I skipped to Wave 3. Here he gives you an exercise where you create your own light rod tool. THen you imagine you have a shell of light on your body, and a didffernet color shell represents a different physical function of your body. Then if you have any dim spots on the light shell, you heal it with the light rod tool. I must say, I think it may have worked a little. I feel so good today. I usually always feel good, but today I feel especially good.    Very cool.

Reply #57 - Dec 5th, 2006, 3:09pm

I forgot to mention that last night during my session I began to have extreme energy sensations on the right side of my throat. It started just as a twitching, but before long there was energy shooting down my body from that spot and it was almost electrifying. I dont know why but I tend to get random energy activation at random places on my body. I was not comfortable with it after a while and rubbed it out. That didn't help much but I couldnt get rid of it by just focusing.


JOURNAL ENTRY 17 Reply #58 - Dec 6th, 2006, 1:23pm

I listened to Wave 2 part 1. I was really tired while doing it, so I wasn't really getting the most out of this session. What I remember is feeling disoriented, I think I was going deeper than I have before. Like I was lost in the blackness. 

This morning I woke up, and went back to sleep. But When I went back to sleep, I seemed to have entered that weird state I would go into in the morning where I would vaugly remember being somewhere else and being taught things. Well while in this state I was semi consious. I remember viewing the universe, I dont know if it was this one, but I remember seeing starts and I was in space. I just get the feeling Ive been getting where I was just told something but do not remember it.  I'm almost positive its my higher self. Ive been trying for so long to reach me, there has to be some communication going on.  I feel it.

Journal Entry 18 Reply #61 - Dec 8th, 2006, 12:18pm

Last night I decided to back to the basics and did a focus ten exercise. My proficency for entering focus ten has probably doubled since my last f10 exercise. After getting into ten I did a focus 12 exercise and got the usual expansion feeling. Ive been reading Bruces articles lately, so I decided that maybe to phase I need to start it out as an imaginational scene. So I imagined meeting with my guide, he was human form but made of light. I was talking to him for a bit, and then asked to do a retrieval at a hollow heaven. So we went to this place with lots of clouds, and I tried to talk to someone but it was a little awkward, so I changed my mind and asked to go to the park in focus 27. I tried to imagine what the park looked like the best I could.. I was still imagining this journey. Then I imagined talking to the lady at the park that Monroe described in Ultimate Journey, the one who greets everyone. I got a distinct picture in my head of what she looked like, so I was talking to her for a little bit but couldn't come up with many good questions. I was hoping maybe this imaginational journey would jumpstart some phasing but I dont think it did. After it didn't work out I just layed in the blackness. I was always seeing things, mainly just different shades of grey and black, some little lights. I would get a distinct picture of someone every now and then. One time a scene of two women walking in a distinct place outdoors flashed in my head. I concentrated on it but nothing happened. I was also shown a picture of this guys face. He reminded me of a backstreet boy haha. I read in Bruces article that in order for a retreival or phasing to work you have to totally shut down "the interpreter" and only be the perciever. Its hard though because every time I see somthing I immediately ask to myself who is that what should I do this and that. Any tips would be appreciated.

JOURNAL ENTRY 19 Reply #68 - Dec 10th, 2006, 1:58pm

Last night I take it back to focus ten excerisises again. I'm on Wave 1 part 6. It seems like each time I do an exercise I get deeper than before, and faster. I get the 3D blackness almost half way through the tape, about 15 min... which is my record so far.  I see things that look like some hyroglyphics or some kind of symbols. I see this chineese dragon type thing. Then I see dots of light all over, and they start moving as if I'm moving through them. But I only get this feeling when I'm out of body, moving through space quickly. I'm thinking maybe this was the begining of a phase? I'm not too sure. The morning session was much much better...

This morning I woke up and decided to try an exercise in the morning. I've never done this before so I did not know what to expect. You know what happened? OBEEEEEEEsssssss.  I was laying down, and realised I was getting the sinking sensation that I get before I project. So I got vibrations soon after, and floated out. My vision was terrible at first, I couldn't see a thing. So I moved away from my body and demanded clarity and to be able to see, and my vision came. I floated out of my room through the wall and outside. As I was going through the wall, the first thing I saw outside is somthing I'm not too sure of, but for some reason I have a memory of it and a strong impression. But I'm not sure if I really saw this or not. But I think I saw an angel looking being floating up. I looked to the right, and about a foot away from my house was a door, just floating there. It was wobbling around a little bit. I wanted to go investigate but I was sucked back into my body. 

I was easily able to slip out again.  This time I rolled to my left. But my vision was terrible again. The demands for clarity and sight did not work, so I decided to try the good old spin around a billion times technique that I discovered to work well for sight.  It did not work too well though, so I flew up through the house and into the sky. My sight came when I was up in the sky finally. I think that when I spun around, I transported myself to a very very strange place. The sky looked like a cartoon. It honestly looked like it was drawn with colored pensils and crayons. So I flew down and saw a large field. This field also seemed like a cartoon. I saw very strange abstract sculptures. Then I saw something protruding from the field. I think it may have been bushes. They were sculpted into letters. The letters read... Georges Dream. I got a feeling that I may have been in someones dream world. My memory fades at this point and I don't remember much else. 

I think I'm going to do an exersise every morning. This one provided a few OBEs with no effort on my part, so daddy likes.

OBE December 12, 2006, 03:17:15 AM

I was laying down after waking up, and realised I was getting the sinking sensation that I get before I project. So I got vibrations soon after, and floated out. My vision was terrible at first, I couldn't see a thing. So I moved away from my body and demanded clarity and to be able to see, and my vision came. I floated out of my room through the wall and outside. It was extremely bright and sunny outside.  The moment I was outside, an Angel flew in front of me and up into the sky.   I looked to the right, and about a foot away from my house was a door, just floating there. It was wobbling around a little bit. I wanted to go investigate but I was sucked back into my body. 

I was easily able to slip out again.  This time I rolled to my left. But my vision was terrible again. The demands for clarity and sight did not work, so I decided to try the good old spin around a billion times technique that I discovered to work well for sight.  It did not work too well though, so I flew up through the house and into the sky. My sight came when I was up in the sky finally. I think that when I spun around, I transported myself to a very very strange place. The sky looked like a cartoon. It honestly looked like it was drawn with colored pensils and crayons. So I flew down and saw a large field. This field also seemed like a cartoon. I saw very strange abstract sculptures. Then I saw something protruding from the field. I think it may have been bushes. They were sculpted into letters. The letters read... Georges Dream. I got a feeling that I may have been in someones dream world. My memory fades at this point and I don't remember much else. 

JOURNAL ENTRY 20 Reply #70 - Dec 14th, 2006, 5:36pm

Since my last entry, I have been doing the exercises. However Ive been experiencing a hell of a lot of clicking out.  I think I have clicked out just about every night for the past 4 days.  I finally got Bruces Afterlife Knowledge Guidebook, and I read last night about the interpreter and perciever and how it relates to clicking out. So at least now I know why I was doing it and fix the problem.  Yesterday afternoon I clicked out within one minute. I can't believe I did that. I remember hearing the introduction to the exercise, and the next thing I know its over.  I think a big factor of my clicking out is that Ive been getting to bed too late. I need to start regulating my bed time!

This morning I woke up and listened to advanced focus ten while falling back to sleep. But only my body fell back to sleep. I got vibrations and floated out.  Some strange things happened that I will try to explain.  After a short while of exploring I went back into my body. Only I wasnt in my bed. I was in my old bed, at my old house, with my old sheets on me. But at the time, I didnt even realise I was not in the right bed. And I was listening to the same exercise too. So I relaxed again, and had another OBE.  I got out, and was somehow at a hotel on one of the top floors.  I flew out the window and saw one of my friends in the pool below. I went back into my body unintentionally soon after, but this time I was back in my real bed. In each of my OBEs, I was able to hear Roberts voice while he was talking.  Even when I ended up in my old house.  Crazy stuff.

JOURNAL ENTRY 21 Reply #72 - Dec 15th, 2006, 1:58pm

I have been reading Afterlife Knowledge Guidebook, and am about 3/4 through.  A lot of my questions about phasing have been answered so far, and the book has given me a vast amount of tips on doing it. So I decided to try an exercise from the book while listening to advanced focus 10.

I place intent to contact and retrieve an individual who is stuck. Then I place intent to meet with a helper.  I imagine a being of bright light coming to me, and I hug it. Immediately I get a very strong sensation of love. Very strong. I did not even intend to feel this way.  So I introduce myself and say, lets go help someone.  I see tall buildings, were flying down from the sky, its a street in a semi-large city.  We float down to a black woman on the corner of the sidewalk.  I indroduce myself, she told me her name but I forget it.  I ask what she is doing, and she said she was waiting for her friend to pick her up.  I asked how long she was waiting for, and I think she said something like .. a while.  So I said, well my friend can give you a ride to where you need to go. She agreed to come.  Just then the helper pulled up in a taxi-looking car.  The woman sat in the front, and I was in the back.  I think the helper was talking to her for a little. But I clicked out soon after getting into the car. Otherwise I would have written down the experience and probably remembered much more of it.  The next thing I remember is waking up with missing time.  The usual feeling I get after a click out.  I'm not sure if this was an official retreival, I have never done one before. But I'm going to try every night.  What I was the most amazed about with this experience was the feeling of love I recieved when I hugged the helper.

JOURNAL ENTRY 22 Reply #75 - Dec 16th, 2006, 1:47pm

I attempted another retrieval last night while listening to advanced focus 10.  When I asked for a helper, I got an impression of 3 figures next to eachother a little in the distance.  I figured maybe this was a helper, so I asked to do a retrieval.  Suddenly I was in front of a store. At first I thought... I don't get it. But then I thought OOHHH maybe I should go inside. So we went inside, the helper behind me.  There was a woman, maybe age 50, all alone inside. I introduced myself, she said her name was Silvia.  I asked what she was doing there, and she said she was working.  I asked when she gets off, and she said whenever the person working the next shift comes in.  I got a feeling that this person hasnt come in in a long time.  And I was correct, she said she has been waiting a while to be relieved.  So I said, I have a friend I'd like you to meet. Just then the helper stood in front, he looked like a 30 year old good looking man wearing a suit.  He introduced himself, and they started talking. He said somthing like... What if I told you that you didn't have to work here anymore? they started walking out of the store, and I followed them. But I kind of lost track, and it was around 4:00 am at this time, so I went to sleep.

This morning I woke up and put on the advanced focus ten again. I did not have an OBE like I usually do, but I had a dream that I feel is worthy of sharing with everyone.  I can't remember ever having a dream in which I am not myself.  however, in this dream I was an old man. Probably 85.  I am at the doctors office with my wife.  They diagnosed me with Prostate cancer.  They said I did not have much longer to live.  My old wife started crying, and I hugged her.  However, I did not feel sad.  I did not feel any negative emotion at all actually.  Because I knew where I would be going, how amazing it was going to be, everything I had learned during my life on earth was soon going to be realised.  I am not sure whether I was a completely different person in this dream, just some old man, or if it was me in the far future.  Either way, there was nothing different about me except my age and appearance. So maybe it was me.

JOURNAL ENTRY 23 Reply #77 - Dec 17th, 2006, 2:41pm

I decided to try another retrieval with advanced focus 10.  I called for a helper, and saw a large black bird, maybe a crow, fly to my bedside.  I had no doubt this was a helper of some kind.  It started to fly out of my house, so I followed right behind it.  We went up really high, then suddenly we are in front of a house on a street that gives me an impression of New York.  I go up the stairs and enter the house with the crow right behind me.  The house looks empty.  I go up the stairs, and in the first bedroom I come to there is an old woman, probably 80, laying in bed. I introduced myself and was talking to her for a little bit. From the information I got from her, she was disabled in some way or sick, and needed some kind of an assistant or helper to get her out of bed and possibly bring her what she needed in bed.  She had been waiting for this person, or anyone, to come to assist her but noone has come in a long time.  She thought she was still alive and did not know she was no longer bed ridden in a physical body.  Just then I introduced the helper to her, there was no more crow anymore, but a man about 30 years old dressed nicely.  He told her she could get out of bed if she wanted, and told her to just try. She did it.  They talked a little more, then they both floated almost a foot off the ground and were drifting away.  I followed them, and we all arrived at a place that I immediately realised was the park.  This is the most detailed I have seen the park so far.  It was a very pleasant place.   

This lady with dark hair came up to me and asked if there was somthing I wanted to do or someone I wanted to see. I asked to see my deceased great grandmother, for she is the only close family member of mine to have died in my lifetime so far.  She appeared to me, but looked like she was 30 or so.  I was talking to her for a little bit, and asked if she could give me somthing to verify to my mother that I made contact with her.  I saw a image of a chair, and possibly somthing under the cushion like money or somthing.  So I asked my mom today if this had any meaning to her, and all she said was... well she used to sit in her chair a lot.  But then I thought.. maybe what I saw wasn't for my mom.  Just then an old, but a very faint memory came to mind, of my cousin finding a dollar or two under her cushion.  So I dont know if this was real or not.

This morning I think I may have had an OBE.  I say maybe because I only have a faint impression of actually leaving my body.  My memories of full consiousness begin when I arrive at a muesum-looking place.  I was floating all around looking at the place.  There was a pencil and some paper on a table, so I drew what the inside of the place looked like for some reason. I think I did that so I could remember the place better.  I have some more faint memories of floating around the place.  Thats about it.

JOURNAL ENTRY 24 Reply #79 - Dec 18th, 2006, 1:07pm

Last night I did the same routine as the past few nights. I called for a helper, and was waiting for maybe 30 seconds. Suddenly I see a chair with its back facing me, and there is someone in this chair. Suddenly the person in the chair stands up and turns around to face me, and walks over to me. He looked like a mix between a really tall elf and a court jesture.  He was wearing green, a goofy hat, and had facal features like an elf, and was very tall.  I asked him his name, and I got an impression of something starting with an E, but then he said I dont have a name.  So we lifted up, and the next thing I know I am looking at the side of a huuuge clif, probably 1 mile high, and at the very top of this clif is a house residing on the edge.  We go up and through the door.  The house was empty, and I got an impression of sadness. I was drawn to the person in the house, and even before I saw this person I knew that she was crying.  It just came to me. I went into the room and a lady was in her bed crying and crying.  I asked her what was wrong, and I got an impression of her husband and children.  I am not sure what to make of this. One thought was that maybe they died while she was alive and she felt responsible in some way. Or another thought was that maybe she had died and left them and felt bad about it. Or maybe she died but did not know she was dead, and her husband and children never returned home because she was no longer home but did not know it.  At this point I became distracted with other thoughts, somthing happened earlier that night and I started thinking about it, I got too distracted so I just cleared my mind and fell asleep.  Maybe Ill revisit tonight.

JOURNAL ENTRY 25 Reply #82 - Dec 19th, 2006, 12:59pm

I attempted to revisit the crying lady on the cliff top.  While getting into a deep focus ten, i realised my whole body was vibrating with energy.  I would get these natural vibrations sometimes while doing Gateway exercises, but these were much faster and stronger.  I did not even do any energy work, which is somthing I usualy have to do to get these vibes.   

My Jester-like friend came to me once again.  He knew we were going back, I think, because I did not even say anything, suddenly were on the porch of the house.  I went in, and the lady was not crying anymore, but was still sad.  This is where my fully lucid memory ends.  Sometimes when I click out, I come back with the faintest impression that I went on some kind of journey, or I was communicating or learning from someone.  This is the feeling I got when I became consious again.  So I don't know what became of the sad lady. Ill find out tonight I suppose.

JOURNAL ENTRY 33 Reply #119 - Jan 16th, 2007, 2:48pm

Last night I listened to Wave 7 part 5, which is a Focus 21 excersize.  During the count up to 21, I began to feel like I was no longer laying on my bed, but floating in space.  My state of mind was quite different than normal as well.  The next thing I know I became conscious and the track was concluding.  Darn clickouts.

This morning I woke up and put on the same track.  About ten minutes into it I felt as if I was free.  I slowly flew off my bed.  Once again, I skipped over the intense vibrations that are a common signpost of OBEs.  I am convinced that I simply do not need this vibrational state anymore.  I believe that Monroe eventually did not experience the vibrations after a while either. 

So I flew up into the sky.  It was dark outside, so I was obviously in a lower astral level.  My surroundings were extremely different.  There was a large building amoung many houses, and the entire area was surrounded by mountains.  I flew about a mile and reached a house.  I do not know why I went to this particular house, it just felt like the thing to do.  When I arrived there, something made me do a reality check.  I felt my face with my hands, and was shocked when my awareness skyrocketed.  I felt my hands on my face, and felt my face on my hands as if I were in waking consciousness.  Simultaneously my awareness became much higher.   

There was someone in this house.  Or somthing.  The details are not clear in my mind, but what I remember is seeing somthing there, and somehow letting it out of the house.  I get a strange feeling when I try to remember this part.

I decided to leave the house.  Things were seeming too real, and I actually thought that I may end up stuck permanently in this place if I did not leave.  I jumped and flew out of the house and into the dark sky.  I flew back to my house.  I have no idea how I knew which house was mine, because I was totally unfamiliar with the entire city.  I came to a house that was totally different from mine, actually it was totally different from any house I have ever seen.  It was even too abstract to describe it right now, no words can accurately describe what it looked like.  There was one very interesting thing about it.  On the outside of the house where my room was, I saw a sign.  It said, "Afterlife Knowledge."  I was amazed.  I wondered, why does it say this?  I floated back into my room and into my body.  This is the first time I actually went back into my body on my own, I am usually slung back into it.  Maybe I did so because the track was saying to come back to waking consciousness?

I was back in my body, but I again felt the ability to slip out easily.  I began to wonder off from my body once again, but I thought that maybe if I had another journey, I would forget my first one.  So I woke up and wrote down the experience.

JOURNAL ENTRY 34 Reply #126 - Jan 23rd, 2007, 9:21pm

Between recently starting a new full time job and the begining of the spring school simester, I haven't had much sleep lately, let alone time or energy to do my Gateway exercises.  Hopefully I get my sleep schedual back on track soon!

I listened to Wave V parts 1 and 2 last night.  They are non-verbal tracks with metamusic, and are suppost to help you develope non-verbal communication skills.  I did not know this until just reading so, I was clueless of the purpose of these tracks last night.

While laying in focus ten, I felt a tingly energy sensation at both of my temples.  It became stronger and stronger until it was begining to feel uncomfortable.  Last time this happened I sat up and rubbed the pressure out.  However, this time I let it go and decided to ride it out and see if anything unique happened with the buildup of energy.  The energy felt as if it was going to burst from my skull.  Just at that moment, it shot to the back of my skull, and immediately zapped down my spine with intense speed and energy.  It was such a rediculous amount of energy going through me, I literally lifted off of my bed!  My entire body jumped up a couple of inches.  After this, I felt a rumbling, movement of energy feeling in the base of my spine.  Then it subsided and I got on with the exercise.

I was laying in focus ten after being attacked by my own energy, when I got the sense of floating in a dark space.  The music coming from the track seemed to give me a certain feeling.  Not so much of an emotion like happiness or excitement, but more like a feeling of being in a unique environment, and I felt a pinch of familiarity with this feeling, as if it was not totally new to me, although I have no conscious recollections of being in this place.   

The same thing happened with the second track.  I found myself floating in a new environment, different from the first one, but similar.  I felt as if I had experienced things in this place before, even though it was my first time there that I can remember.  The feeling I got was very simliar to one I got the other night while walking down my street at night.  I was walking down my block when my perception changed drastically.  I felt as if I were in midevil times, and that there was a large castle in place of a house I was walking by.  I did not see a castle, but I felt like I was very close to actually stepping into the past as I was hit with this unique feeling of being there.  It was a feeling you get of a place you have been to before and are well familiar with, and therefore have a certain feeling associated with this place.  The strange thing is, this was the first time I felt this particular feeling, and yet it felt as if I had felt it a million times before.  I was reminded of this feeling while listening to track 2.

JOURNAL ENTRY 35 Reply #128 - Jan 24th, 2007, 6:31pm

Last night I listened to Wave VII part 5, entry into focus 21.  It instructs you to go to focus 12 by yourself, and then counts up from 12 to 21, assisting you into focus 21.  I got into focus 12, and then the count-up began.   

"12."   

"13."  I see myself bursting with light and energy in a place of light with beautiful clouds all around me, yellow sunstreaks coming out of the energy burst.   

"14."   

I now have a feeling of just being somewhere, a place so extravigant and brilliant and wonderful I cannot begin to fathom it.  All I am left with is the feeling of being there.    I am filled with joy and awe. I feel this for just a few moments.

"You are now coming back to normal waking consciousness."   

Wait a minute.  What happened to 15 through 21?   

It took me a few moments to realize I had clicked out.  I was still filled with a feeling of just being in an undescribable place.  The memory was so close to my recollection, but got dimmer and dimmer each moment.  I guess my conscious memory cannot handle what I had just done, where I had just been.  O well!

I listened to the same track two more times.  Each time, the same thing happened.  I would hear up to a certain number, then would feel as if I were in an abstract state of consciousness and the next number I would hear would be 4 or 5 numbers higher.  I would enter this state after about 14 or 15, then come back to semi-normal consciousness, and waiver inbetween these two states for the remainder of the excercises.  What I remembered from these altered states of consciousness was too abstract for my conscious memory. I would only be able to get back feelings associated with the state I was in, rather than a concrete memory.

JOURNAL ENTRY 36 Reply #129 - Feb 5th, 2007, 6:16pm

Last night I had the most profound, amazing experience of my life(that I remember).  It is somthing I will never forget. 

I fell asleep during my Gateway exercise, and a few hours after I fell asleep I regained consciousness and heard that the Gateway tracks were still running.  I began to fall back to sleep, but my mind stayed awake and I felt my energy body loosening.  I exited my body with  tremendous force.  For some reason I was violently launched from my body.

I was travelling through this amaaazing place, wizzing past what looked like billions of beautiful blue bubbles.  I felt the most intense feeling of love and joy I have ever felt in my life, it simply overwhelmed me.  I was so estatic with joy I began doing backflips.  There were brilliant, indescribable colors bursting all around me.  There were wonderous sounds.  My feelings seemed to form words and were dancing all around in the beautiful colors.  The senses I experienced(colors, sounds, feelings, words) were unlike anything of a physical nature.  This was totally unlike anything I have ever consciously experienced before, and yet I soon felt a feeling of familiarity, and the feeling of wonderment of this new undescribable place dimmed, and I found myself half-remembering where I was.  The intense feeling of love stayed, however.

I seemed to be flying through tunnels, and somehow it seemed as if I knew where I was going.  I believe that whereever I was, it was very abstract, and the closest thing I can describe it to is going through tunnels.  I found my way to a certain area, and I immediately knew where I was.  The thoughts were mine, and yet seemed to be coming from an outside source.  I believe it was my higher self.  After translating the knowledge I recieved into tangeable thoughts, I came out with... "This area shows how human's corrupt has developed."  What this meant to me was that every spirit gets corrupted in one way or another in their lives on earth, of course some far more seriously than others.  The area somehow showed people's spiritual developement, and displayed how they have been corrupted by their earthly life.   

While in this place, I have memories of certain friends and family members.  Many of the people I remember from this place have truely been spiritually corrputed during their life.  I cannot tell whether these people were actually there, or if it was just my thoughts manifesting. 

The rest of the experience is quite fuzzy in my mind.  The rest of what happened seems to be too abstract for me to recall in detail.  Rather, I am left with subtle feelings of what occured during the remainder of this wonderful journey.

After regaining waking consciousness, I quickly wrote down what happened, shaking from the love and excitement I was still feeling.  The beauty of what I had just experienced was unlike anything I can remember, I hardly have any tangeable thing to compare it to.  I believe I have had similiar experiences such as this due to the familiarity I felt.  Chances are these trips occured during my many clickouts.  I hope to be able to recall many more abstract journeys in the future, and I am truely thankful for being able to embark on this journey and remember it.

BTW.  I just began reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce.  Reading this before bed, I experienced a newfound excitement for OBEs.  This probably contributed to this spontaneous fullblown projection and my ablity to recall it.

JOURNAL ENTRY 37 Reply #137 - Feb 17th, 2007, 9:35pm

Full time work + full time school = loosing consciousness during Gateway Experience

That is the equation I have discovered.

I've been doing the exercises every night, but I am constantly passing out during them due to extreme tiredness.  Last night I managed to stay conscious long enough to remember the experience.

I was listening to Wave 2 part 1, focus 12.  It seems I can instantly get into focus 12 now.  Whether I am laying down doing an exercise, or sitting down in a chair for a minute.  I have a way to feel myself joining the source of infinite consciousness(this is what it feels like anyway).  I will myself to become one with everything, and almost instantly loose most of the awareness of my body, and it feels like I am HUGE.  Not body-wise, but consciousness-wise.  It is a feeling of total peace and tranquility.

So while in focus 12, I feel myself entering a deep trance.  The heaviness of my body lets me know I will soon be able to have an out of body experience.  Then total lightness sets in along with light vibrations, and my energy body's arms reach up and I start pulling an imaginary rope, lifting upwards.  However, I only feel this lifting for a moment, and I am instantly back into my body.  However, I do not think I was actually sucked back into my body.  I did not feel the usual pull that I get when I am brought back, or the dropping sensation.  Rather, it felt as if my conscious awareness shifted from my real time body back to my etheric/physical body.  According to Robert Bruce, sometimes during OBEs, our awareness does not enter the reflected energy body having the OBE, but rather stays inside the etheric/physical body which is still laying in bed immobile.  I believe this is what happened to me.  Its ashame, I probably missed out on a great experience.

JOURNAL ENTRY 38 Reply #141 - Feb 27th, 2007, 9:50am

Last night I listened to the Focus 21 track of Wave 7.  I was well rested at this point, having just slept a good 6 hours, so I knew something interesting would happen-that I would actually be awake for!

I soon lost almost all bodily awareness during the countup to 21.  I then got a strong ability to visualize and see what I was visualizing perfect.  I saw myself on a familiar street, and I was flying down this street, turning down this street and that street, all familiar places to me in my town.  Soon I was actually on these streets, flying around at high speeds.  Sometimes my legs would scrape the ground, and I would feel them going through the pavement.. a weird feeling to say the least. 

I then find myself back in my body.  However, I do not feel back in my body.  I feel as if I am floating in an infinite void.  I am a geometric shape, spinning around in all directions, expanding and changing forms.  This was a very abstract feeling so I am doing my best to desscribe it.

Soon after I see a scene in my head.  It is a midget and a model food shopping.  I believe they were a couple.  I was just watching this scene as if it were a movie.  However, this couple goes to a clothing store inside this food market(?), and at this point I find myself actually at this place, my consciousness flying around.  In this clothing store I notice a clothing brand that catches my attention.  I look close and it says, "Astral" on the logo.  I thought wow!  I would probably buy this if it were real.  Of course, the word astral is significant to me.

I then find myself back in my body again, falling deeply into the trance state.  The final sinking sensation let me know I was about to leave my body.  A few more moments in an abstract state of conscious meditation and I was soon floating up towards my ceiling. 

I was approaching the ceiling quite slowly, and was soon passing through it.  However, somthing began pulling my backwards.  I thought I was just being pulled back into my body, but I soon found out I was wrong.  I began to see my room enlongate as I was being pulled backwards.  There were a lot of windows or posters on the walls and ceiling, and this whole room was just being stretched out as my point of view was vanishing backwards.  The room was dark and shadowy.  I then felt a pretty deep pinch on my left shoulder.  It did not feel pleasant.  I immediately thought... this must be some kind of negative entity.  Whatever it was, it came from behind me and did somthing to give me an unpleastant feeling on my shoulder.  I immediately snapped back into my body, and still felt a buzzing sensation in my shoulder a moment after. 

I wonder what happened to my shoulder, and who did it?  I sure as hell wasn't sticking around to find out.  Especially not in that low level I projected to.

JOURNAL ENTRY 39 Reply #161 - Mar 9th, 2007, 9:37pm

Last night I fell asleep listening to Gateway, as usual.  I did some light chakra stimulation before I passed out.  Anyway, during a dream soon afterwards, I became very lucid.  I immediately decided to have an out of body experience.  Suddenly I was in a black void observing geometric patterns moving and changing.  I was not aware of any exit sensations, or at least I do not remember them occuring.  My next memory is me being out of my body.

I was in a place that seemed to be in front of my house.  However, it was extremely different.  My house was actually a fire house, and there was a large field across the street, where in real life there is actually only a small grass lot.  However, there was a body of water where my bay actually is, so I believe I was in an astral realm in the same spacial location as my physical location.  The sky was sunny with some clouds, quite beautiful.

The first thing I remember is observing a group of guys outside of the fire house.  They appeared to be fire fighters.  They seemed to be having a good time conversing and joking around.  I flew away, towards the field. 

I decided to look at my hands, and almost immediately they disintegrated before my eyes.  It was as if they had just been burned extremely quickly by an invisible fire.  My hands and arms were gone.  I looked away, and glanced back at them.  They were there again.  I then flew up into the sky with extreme speed in an attempt to shift dimensions to an astral realm, not knowing I was already in one.(I realized I was in an astral realm after regaining waking consciousness)

I came back down to the field where there was a man standing next to a fire hydrant.  I flew to the edge of the field, and passed by a half bull-half human being.  I had to dodge to the side to avoid him.  He was doing some kind of labor, it seemed. 

Still under the impression that I was not in an astral realm, I spun around with great speed to shift dimensions.  When I stopped, the sky appeared to be slightly darker, and things were different.  The top of the fire hydrant in the field was cut off.  The man next to it began talking to me.  He said.. "I'm trying to teach you how to.." and the rest, I forget.  All I know is that whatever he wanted to teach me, I was not interested, because I payed him no attention and flew to the fire house.  I get the impression it had to do with labor.

Things were very different at the fire house, as well.  The group of fire fighters were instead dressed in postal uniforms.  They were drinking beer, and looked not so well-groomed.  A group of guys, who were wearing the same uniforms the postal guys were wearing before I spun around(which I assumed to be fire uniforms), soon approached the postal guys.  They said they were in the military, and started making fun of the postal guys and giving them a hard time. 

It seems as if I may have shifted dimensions slightly, by spinning.  I am thinking that in the dimension after the spin, the people there had different status, different roles, different lives than they had in the dimension I was initially in.

Your experience with the energy and your connection to aliens is quite familiar to me.  A couple weeks ago I saw a bright light in the sky appear while looking out my window in the middle of the night.  It stayed put for about ten seconds, then disapeared.  I was in awe, I couldn't beleive I just saw that.  So I was going back to sleep, but I wasn't going back to sleep.  Instead I was drifting into a deep trance.  I started to feel a upwards pull, and was about to leave my body.  However, I believed that the UFO I saw(or whatever it was) was abducting me!  I quickly aborted.  I feel back into this state another two times, and thought I was being abducted again.  When I woke up I thought... darn! I just missed out on 3 OBEs cuz I saw a stupid light in the sky!  Oh well, you live and you learn.  If I was being abducted, I wouldn't have had any control over whether or not I stayed or left.  Heck, next time I'm just gonna let them take up!

Reply #167 - Jun 26th, 2007, 6:47pm

I am considering starting my Gateway excersizes once again due to an experience I had last night.

It wasn't anything special (for me, anyway), but it brought back the feelings of excitement and wonder which are caused by going out of body.

I sleep on my back every night with my fiance next to me.  I woke up for a few minutes, then fell back to sleep.  However, I did not fall asleep, only my body did.  It entered paralysis while my mind entered the familiar altered state that always accompanies paralysis.   

I was unable to see, but I felt a spirit next to me.  It was raised slightly, maybe a foot or two higher than I was.  I felt what seemed like an arm touching me.  I knew it was my fiance, because she was sleeping and the spirit was right above her body.(Our spirits raise out of our bodies while we sleep in case anyone did not know this).  At the same time, I heard my fiances voice.  I am unable to remember what she said, or thought, since I was most likely hearing her thoughts.  Then the experience ended.

So perhaps you will see some more posts with some more detailed experiences. Who knows.

JOURNAL ENTRY 42

I woke up in the morning, and wanted to leave my body.  I rested and kept my mind clear, trying to stay conscious.  The next thing I remember is feeling a falling sensation, and then an extreme lightness.  I floated up out of my body.   The room I was in seemed quite different, although it had the same feel to it.  I looked back at my body to make sure I was really having an OBE.  I was.  I was slowly navigating through the strange new house.  I looked at my hands, and they melted down to my elbows within 3 seconds.  I went back on my journey, but was sucked back into my body. 

I slipped out once again, quite easily.  I felt that I was low on energy due to my sluggish movements, so I attempted to draw energy into my energy body from my etheric body which was back on my bed, as advised by Robert Bruce.  This worked, quite well, for I felt energy flowing into my being.  I took a look at my hands, and they looked more solid than before, and did not melt right away.  They were quite deformed, however, for I had ugly, short, stubby fingers.  I went on my journey, attempting to leave the house.  I needed to get farther away from my body, because I felt somthing pulling me backwards when I would ease my focus on moving foward.  I created a rope going 45 degrees up, and i was pulling myself along this rope, trying to leave the house.  I was sucked back into my body and the experience was over.

Its great to have these all in one spot to review Dude. I'm sure somebody would benefit from these explorations. thanks! I'll have to review it soon. love, alysia

Hey OOBD, I'll be sure to read these when I get time. You inspire me to keep persisting even though I am only slowly learning Bruce's techniques. Welcome back 

Never say die

I realized somthing today during my OBE.  I often intend, and even attempt to leave my body before bed and after waking in the morning.  Sometimes I recall my experiences, sometimes I only have shallow impressions of my experiences, and sometimes it seems that I have no experiences at all. 

Robert Bruce says that a lot of the time when we leave our body, we dont remember it because of the mind split effect.  this occurs when we leave our body.  a duplicate of our consciousness is created in a douplicate  of our orignal energy body(the etheric body). from that moment on, we have multiple sets of consciousness.  the one in our etheric body, which stays with our physical body, and the ones in the reflected energy bodies which go on the OBEs to higher dimensions.

Our experiences are recorded by our consciousness as energy. when we return to our bodies, that energy is absorbed into our etheric body with our reflected bodies and consciousness, and the memory is translated from that energy.  the downloading of that memory depends on many factors, the most import is the conscious state of the etheric body and its reflected doubles at the time.  if levels of consciousness are low upon reintegration, the download is usually lost. 

when this occurs, absolutely no memory of the experience is recalled.  usually when this happens, you remmeber laying down, about to leave your body.. sometimes thats the end of your memory of the experience. sometimes you even remmeber feeling the energetic sensations that come before the obe. but then nothing happens, and you find yourself laying in bed as before, in trance.

this is because when you reenter your body, the download into your conscious memory bank is unsuccessfull.  you remember absolutely nothing.

so what i realized today was this-  when i am trying to have an obe, and i feel myself rising from my body, and i feel myself leaving my body, and i leave my body... i will always remember at least some of what happens during my experience from that point forward. usually mostly all of it.

this is because the memory download was obviously at least partially successful. if the download wasnt successful, i wouldnt have been able to remember leaving my body.  I realized now that everytime I have consciously left my body and remembered the exit, I always remember the experience as well.  I knew from the moment I felt myself leaving my body that I would remmeber the experience... it now seems as if I experience only the memory of my true experience.  without the memory, the experience is totally absent from my waking consious mind. this is how i know the moment i am aware and out of my body that i will remember my experience.. it seems as if i am experiencing everything at that time and after it happens at the same time.  i know i was there, but i only have the shadow memory to prove it, which is usually always at least partially incomplete or distorted in some way.

this is important about downloading the memory..thanks for your keen work Dude! it is my supposition, (and others) we may go obe and not recall it due to the veil between the two worlds, as it was called in days of old.
I too am persistent to work on bringing back memories, I do it by waking up and jotting down a few words or turning on the tape recorder.

then going back to sleep. even with this technique I can sometimes lose the meaning of what I've jotted down.  btw, Buhlman I believe has also a keyword to help memory: its "clarity now!"  I've heard this works.

in some of my previous obes I will become lucid in an obe if someone I'm interacting does something off the wall, then I know I'm "out." but still choosing to remain out but more aware that I'm out, because the thing that has been done is not possible in physical plane.

the museum seems like a lower level astral due to reference to sexual acts, and the feeling you got that you'd just as soon not be there. well, I see business is good for sex on the other side! haha! its a little funny.
I suppose we could put our body in the museum, oh yea, and here's my 1946 model, she had some fine gams, and over here we have an 1898 model T still in good shape!

   sounds like great fun as usual, I still can't keep up with you, but I am planning to review the whole thread. love, alysia