http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Manitou

   This seems to have similarity to what indians refer to as the manitou. They believed that life exists in all things. I have accepted this concept for a long time now. Can't wait to get some salvia and experience it myself.   

JOURNAL ENTRY 105

Today was the second day following my new OBE/Yoga/Meditation routine.  I recorded 8 dreams, had one partial projection, and one full OBE. 

The way my OBE technique works is it programs my subconscious to wake me up at the time of separation, or moments before.  This is extremely convenient and easy, for I don't have to worry about entering a deep enough trance and fiddling with exit techniques. 

The first attempt I was listening to TMI's Lifelines hemisync.  I entered a very deep trance while programming my subconscious.  I was totally unaware of my body.  I slipped into a light dream state.  A few moments into the dream, I woke up in my bed and immediately felt myself falling from my body.  I then floated up, and was back inside my body in a medium trance.  The moment I came back I heard, "you are now coming back from focus 21, your journey is over.." something a long those lines.  I think the journey was cut short by Monroe's suggestions!  What a punk.  Just kidding.  I'm going to have to edit that track and cut out his vocals. 

I attempted to get back into a deep trance, but I could hear the neighbor talking through the wall, and I was done with Monroe, so I put on a meditation music track and fell asleep, knowing my subconscious would do the rest of the work.

After a dream or two, I woke up in bed in a deeply altered state.  I could see the ceiling above me in amazing detail.  Every bump and pore was sharply visible.  I felt much closer to it as well.  Suddenly I began to see these huge figures on the ceiling.  It was like a projection of crystal blue light.  The figures consisted of different shapes and symbols, and formed together to make up what seemed to be, at times, semi-humanoid figures.  One figure would change into another totally different one, each one flashing before me in about a second and then transforming into another. 

After a little while of this, I floated from my body and out the window.  It was a beautiful day.  The sky was a brilliant shade of bright blue, brighter than I have ever seen it physically.  It felt like a special day.  There were tons of people at the pool below me, some swimming and playing in the water, others hanging out poolside.  I noticed there were brightly colored beach balls in the water, and I thought, "I am going to remember the colors of these beach balls, and when I get up I am going to verify that they are real."  Just then a huge airplane flew right over me, not 200 feet from the ground.  My stare was fixed at the sky, and I considered shooting off into space and flying around with the planets.  I decided to stay close and interact with consciousnesses which were more my size.  Usually the energy of large planets are so intense they can be a bit uncomfortable. 

A group of men were near the poolside talking.  My grandfather was one of them.  They were playing golf, driving the balls into the distance.  I began talking to one of the guys, and he seemed to like me.  He invited me to play golf with him at his home sometime.  I went into a closet nearby and inside were a set of golf clubs which my grandfather gave to me.  Two of the clubs were only about half a foot tall, which you held in one hand and swung close to the ground.  Very weird, but I remembered the small club fondly as I held and observed it, even though it doesn't exist physically.  The man came over and said, "there are my clubs," and took the set my grandfather had given to me.  I told him he was wrong, that they were mine.  He asked my grandfather if they were his old clubs which he had given to me, and he denied it.  But I could tell he was lying.  Like he was afraid to admit it.  The man then asked my grandfather if he played golf ever, and my grandfather said no, lying to him once again.  It was like my grandfather was afraid to play with them, like he thought he wasn't good enough.  This concluded the experience.

A few notes.

It was quite random for me to have thought to verify the beach balls existence while out of body.  Such a strange thing for me to think, because I never worry about verifications.  Just the fact that I am there at that moment, more aware and real than in the physical world, is all the verification I need.  I guess it was just something to try for fun, for the heck of it.  I usually project to astral levels, and so physical verification is very unlikely. 

When I woke up it was cloudy and no one was at the pool.  An interesting thought occurred to me.  Before the projection I had a dream that I was at a party at my poolside.  It was a beautiful day, and of course the pool area was different from the physical in various ways.  It may be possible that I projected to that same astral scene from my dream.

My grandfather's appearance in my projection was more than random.  I thought about him this morning before the OBE.  Perhaps I had a glimpse into an aspect of his personality.  He used to play golf years ago, but doesn't anymore in his old age.  I invited him to come mini golfing with me last year, and he seemed reluctant, almost as if he was not confident, or that after all these years telling me about his golf days, I would find out he wasn't very good at all.   

In conclusion, it seems that when I actually go through with my routine, it works like a charm.  My dream recall is through the roof, and I can bet on at least one projection a day.  But I have to make an honest effort to do this every day.  It is so easy to just go back to sleep and keep dreaming, but my desire to explore and evolve will not allow this for much longer. 

The cd is called Lifelines Freeflow Focus 27.  You can probably buy it online.  An old member here sent it to me as a gift, he said he got it from the TMI.

Don't forget to do deep belly breathing during the meditation!  It will induce a trance three times as fast!

What happened to your two friends on this trip? What was your perception of them, or were they not in your field of view so you did not notice them?

What was their reaction? Was there a 'straight' person who was looking out for all of you?

Yeah, wow! Say, was fear an element of that trip?

Spooky

My feeling is that if you take a drug, your energy field will be weakened and it will become easier for an unfriendly spirit to invade you.

Drugs take the place of neurotransmitters, and much of what you experience could be the result of altered biochemistry rather than something substantial.

Eventually a person will reach the point where he or she understands that what is available spiritually is so removed from what takes place with drug usage, that there is no way he or she would use a drug.

I know a man who had a marriage with a woman that was quite fine, until see took magical mushrooms. After doing so she became schizophrenic and wouldn't leave her bed.

I know a man who took acid, had a bad experience, and ever since he has had physical problems.

I know a man who knew all about the various psychotrophic drugs that exist, he even had a book published that explained how to use them. He used them in order to have spiritual experiences. He used to use his bath tub as an isolation chamber while tripping. One day he was found dead in his bath tub.

I believe I would be insulting the grace that has come into my life if I resorted to taking psychotrophic drugs.

It is a mistake to take drugs because of what somebody such as Carlos Castaneda wrote. His stories are fictional,  he had a cult like following, and he was a womanizer.

If drug usage is such a good thing, why did the hippy movement end in the manner it ended?

But I guess some people will learn the hard way, while misleading others.

JOURNAL ENTRY 107

This morning I had three brief out of body experiences. 

After programming my subconscious, I fell into a deep trance and slid out of my body with ease.  What I have noticed lately is that I have been exiting my body the same exact way every time.  I seem to slip out and fall downwards, while drifting to the left.  Every time there is a current which forces me to the left.  I don't know what that is about.

So I slid out, but I didn't feel like I was truly out of body.  So I went back to my body and slid out once again.  I still saw and felt nothing once out.  I wasn't completely sure as to what my state was.  I floated up, feeling the motion quite strongly.  I was out all along, but this was more of a phasing type experience.  In fact, it has been a while that I have had a nonphysical experience in my astral body.  Lately they have all been in what I believe is my mental body.  My visual senses came to me momentarily, as I found myself looking outside through my window.  The ocean had risen from the beach all the way up to the front door of my building!  A moment later I was back in bed, looking up at the ceiling.

I figured I'd give it one more shot, and slid on out again.  Really what I did was fall asleep, but my subconscious programming always catches me a moment before I pass out, right as my natural nonphysical separation process is about to begin.  Convenient, to say the least.  I found myself in my old house.  I flew around, just observing everything.  I decided to go outside, and this is when I realized I have a mental block.  I would fly to the ceiling or wall, and instead of flying through, I would stop and be pulled backwards by an unseen force.  I knew it was my beliefs holding me back, and although I knew that I could fly through the house with ease, it wasn't happening.  Just knowing that if I doubt my ability to go through the wall or ceiling it won't happen, an annoying voice in the back of my mind still doubts it, even though I know that the doubt is what is preventing me to proceed.  I apparently need to loose all doubt.  But I've done it a million times before!  I shall conquer this doubt in my next journey.

JOURNAL ENTRY 109

Yesterday something amazing happened which I can't remember ever happening before (perhaps when I was a little kid).  While going for a bike ride, I suddenly entered a deep state of remembrance.  It was such a deep state that I actually felt my inner state of being at the time being remembered.  This may not sound so extraordinary, except what I remembered was myself before my physical life.  It was such an amazing feeling!  I was filled with such joy and exuberance!  My thoughts were totally removed from the physical system of reality- they had no relation whatsoever.  My state of being was radically different- I was completely in the moment- in each moment- and each moment was SO beautiful.  I had such knowledge- I can't remember exactly what that knowledge was- it was more like a state of being content with the vast knowledge I had access to.  It was such a unique experience, and yet I knew this was a memory.  I knew I was experiencing my state of being when I resided in the spirit world.  This state lasted for about 10 seconds, and after that I could draw upon it at any time, including now.  How could I have forgotten!  Silly me.  I'll never forget again.