JOURNAL ENTRY 98
Yesterday I had one of the most insane experiences ever. I smoked Salvia Divinorum aka Diviners Sage, a natural psychoactive herb which produces intense spiritual experiences. If you haven't heard of it, take a look here.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Salvia_divinorumWithin seconds I felt a change in perception. I was sitting on my carpet, indian style, with my friend next to me. Suddenly my consciousness entered an altered state which is extremely hard to explain. The best way to describe it is abstract. The very essense of my being was radically different. It seemed as if I was streching out to the left. I said out loud, "Oh, so this is what it is. It is so different." I heard myself saying this, yet it was not me who was saying it. It was my body, but not me. It seemed as if my body said this to me, and I was my higher self. Everything I was observing changed. I realized that everything was actually one thing, and I was in the center of it. The air, the furniture, myself, my friend, we were all a solid energy. The tv and comuter which I was sitting in front of lost all meaning. I no longer knew what they were. The tv seemed to become a doorway.
I was no longer in this physical system, although I was observing it from the abstract system I was now in. My thought process was totally different... things would make sense to me that make absolutely no sense in the physical. I began to walk around the room, totally dissociated with myself and everything in the real world, wondering what was going on. My friend told me to sit down and meditate, so I did. I sat on the couch and closed my eyes momentarily. When I reopened them, the tv and computer in front of me transformed into two people holding hands above their heads, forming an upside down v shape. More and more of the same people holding hands appeared and beamed into my consciousness, one in front of the other, until all I was observing was them. I remember saying with understanding, "their hands are in the center.".. or something like that. It made perfect sense to me what was going on at the time.. it was an abstract concept which I was observing in my abstract state of consciousness. In retrospect it makes absolutely no sense.
I was feeling prickly energy all over my body. My friend smoked it shortly after I did, and he was now crawling around on the carpet, talking to himself. It was the funniest thing I have ever seen, and I was laughing so hard I could hardly breathe. I was observing him in a different way. His being had a different meaning to me. It is almost impossible to explain. I soon began coming out of it. I would look at the carpet, and it would stretch out and come back to normal. I began to think more and more clearly, until I was back to normal.
The total time I was in this state was about 5 mintues, although each moment in the altered state was almost timeless. Things that are meaningfull in the physical meant absolutely nothing, and things/ideas/thoughts that dont even exist in the physical had great meaning. This was an awsome experience, and has added a new dimension to my life which I cannot really explain or describe. I plan on trying it again next week in a different setting.. probably on the beach. Perhaps I will have a totally different experience.