JOURNAL ENTRY 74

Two mornings ago I had an out of body experience which was simply amazing, especially because it has been a little while since my last one.

I do not recall the exit.  My memories begin while fully out.  I seem to have been out in space, or in some type of dimension of infinitely vast proportion(which are all dimensions, yet it could really be sensed and felt as a reality). 

A feeling almost indescribable was flowing through my inner being, and I can still feel it to a small degree now and each time I remember this experience.  Sort of like a feeling of awe mixed a small dose of bliss.

I seemed to have been developing some sort of skills, or maybe simply playing with them.  I was first flying from location to location. I cannot remember exactly where I was leaving from and arriving to, but I do remember being surrounded in this vast dimension by star like things, either planets or beings, out in a dark space of immense depth and clarity. 

I get a strong feeling like I was learning something, some kind of nonphysical ability. 

I remember thinking of a destination(which I don't remember)  and where as earlier I was flying from place to place, I began stretching my consciousness from place to place in a way I don't think I've done before. 

I usually shut out almost all sensory input and just think of the place while stating the desire, and I almost automatically rip through dimensions until I arrive at my destination.  This time I was fully aware of all sensory input, and I stretch my consciousness in a way that almost can't be described in words and phased into the new dimension.

I get a feeling as if I was manipulating an energy in some magical way. I have a visual of myself holding a very bright ball of light or sphere of some sort during some point of the experience.

When I awoke in bed I remembered much more than I do now, and felt an enormous amount of love and awe.  I went right back to sleep after waking, a mistake on my part, for a lot of the experience and almost all details escaped me upon arising the second time, as if they were replaced by the dream memories of the next experience. 

For the entire next day that wonderfully mysterious feeling lingered within me.  This experience has seemed to change me in some way, it has added a depth, a new dimension to life.  I suppose all experiences of this nature which are remembered add greatly to your perspective.  However this one seemed to have been.. almost more important.. than some OBEs in the past.  Like I am consciously delving deeper and deeper into my inner self than ever before.

What d'you think of this meeting with your relatives? A visualization of what you're concerned with, or a visualization and kind-of-meeting of the subconscious of you and your relatives, or an actual, more "literal" meeting? Of course, could be a mix of all.

Spooky

I wanted to mention an interesting thing.  After my last OBE, upon arriving to my body I remained still and kept my eyes shut to have a moment to meditate on the experience in order to remember it better.  I began going over the details of what happened mentally.  However, I soon realized that I had slipped into a dream, because the next thing I knew I was somehow magically transported to another place writing my mental notes of the experience in my journal.  I immediately got up and physically wrote the experience down before the memories started to fade, but by that time some of the experience was already gone from my mind, and by the time it was all written down I realized I only retained about 25% of the total experience.  Oh well, better than nothing!

There have been a number of times where I was too sleepy to wake up after a dream, so I'd start writing notes with a non-physical body believing it would do the the trick, only to eventually wake up and find that no notes were taken, and the memory of the dream gone.

It has happened about 3 times during a lucid dream where I was communicated by what seemed to be a radio with a human sounding voice. As I wrote earlier on this thread, one night while wide awake I heard a radio voice speak to me for a while, and I had a strong feeling the voice had an alien source. Some of the words supported this.  This experience caused me to have a very positive feeling, as if I was communicating to very friendly beings that have human welfare in mind.

Recoverer

Thats very cool that we've had similar experiences and interpreted them in basically the same way.  

Lately I have been experiencing a lot of what seems like nonphysical alien interaction.  Either I will have a memory of an entire dream dealing with ETs, some even more real than my average dream, or I will remember only an image of scene involving aliens along with at least a vague feeling of something occurring involving these beings the night or morning before.  Very interesting stuff. 

Hawkeye

The voice recorder is a good idea, but I don't think it would work with me.  99% of my experiences are done with what seems like 100% of my consciousness in the alternate level of reality.  It is very rare that I experience a duality of being both in the physical and in another dimension as well.  I understand that it is something you can train to accomplish, retaining the duality... Yet it seems far more real and intense when I am totally immersed in the altered state.  Of course, ideally I would like to retain my consciousness equally strong in both realities for maximum recall.  I believe it helps when you have a partner or at least a recording of someone to almost guide you along and ask for feedback to keep a part of "you" here.

JOURNAL ENTRY 78

Wow.  This morning I awoke with the memory of being aboard an alien craft and interacting with aliens.  I don't remember how I got there.  We were traveling, and the aliens were showing me what our larger universe is like.  I first saw our Milky Way galaxy become really small as we flew farther from it, yet it seemed like we were getting bigger because I was still seeing it up close.  We then panned back farther and I saw other galaxies nearby ours(or the one I thought was ours- maybe it was another).  This whole time they were communicating with me, but I cannot remember the dialogue.  They made me aware of an agreement that I had made... or maybe that I was going to make... an agreement to come with them for a certain amount of time... and there was a purpose for all of this, one which I cannot remember.. I wish I could.  There were other people there as well.  I don't remember what these beings looked like.  Perhaps I blocked it out.  Or maybe they did.  I don't know.  All I know is that I was with these beings in what seemed like a space craft, they were showing me and telling me things I did not know, and there was some kind of agreement made to have interaction with them and a specific purpose for it.

Recoverer

It is true, those who interact with ETs do not always have the same story.  I believe this is simply because of the vast amount of different alien species which exist.  Not every species is going to have the same appearance, the same level of development, or the same motives. 

Some reports I have heard begin with the person only remembering bits and pieces of the interactions, and then develop to a point where detailed information can be recalled and relationships are developed between the individual and the ETs. 

It definitely seems as if things are advancing in my situation.  First I would only remember seeing them briefly during altered states of consciousness- a time when I had deep fear of them.  As my fear subsided,  I began having more interesting experiences with them, and I feel I remember this latest experience aboard their ship because my conscious mind is finally able to accept and handle their reality and intrusion into my life... and I am almost beginning to desire this.