Yes, it is shocking when it really happens. It is devastating. I'm sorry for your loss and all that you are going through. This is a great place for you to find some answers, and there are lots of people here ready to help you find them.

When you say your father was religious, what do you mean? What kind of religion? What kind of person was he? What caused him to end his life?

I believe there are helpers who greet us on the other side, and that suicidal people find themselves in a transition area which is a healing one. There are those who believe that a person must somehow "redo" the lessons they missed here by ending their "contract" in this life, but I don't know anything about that.

I believe the love you are sending is your greatest gift to him. I feel that spirits hear and understand us but that it is not always easy for them to speak clearly to us. He is in a different world now. We will all continue to try to make the connections clearer and easier to understand, and in the meantime, love is the issue and the answer to all of our problems.

Inside of each of us, I believe, is a "survival" mechanism which assists us in "not surviving" if our essence, our core, believes we are better off out of this physical world. There is a place inside of us which embraces the place of "no things" and knows that our ego must let go in order to be free. What I mean is, there is a deep deep place of letting go, and some of those who commit suicide, I believe, have simply found that place, that place in their imagination and in reality, that place of "no things," which frees them from all that consumes their energy and holds them down. And so they leave, if they can.

What they sometimes forget is that the world of "things" is full of suprises and synchronicity and that this strange path in our lives itself is the precious lesson, one which is so rare and unique to us that no one else in the universe can trace its outline. It is in our hands. We often cannot see the forest for the trees.

Also, I think perhaps that some of those who commit suicide are not succumbing to irrational impulses, or despair. They are following their own programming in some unfathomable way that we cannot comprehend, as we do not live in their own psyches.  At least, we don't see that we do live there...we feel and believe in our own isolation here on this earth.

Of course we want to keep our loved ones in this world, and most of the time we are interested in staying here for a time. But we are all also adventurers who know we are born free, each with a spirit greater than we can comprehend.

Again, I am sorry for your loss, and for the abandonment you must feel, and for the unanswered questions you must have. But these questions will lead you to the place of peace we all seek. Our tears are real here on this earth, but so is our love, and there are no limits to how far and wide it can penetrate.

much love, blink

I find your father encased in a cocoon of golden threads, which is like a insulator blanket to allow him to adjust to the transition and prevent him from being pulled in to various belief systems just now. He is in the Healing Center, which I find to be on every level from 23 up to and past 27, wrapped in this cocoon of Pure Unconditional Love and Forgiveness until he is ready to work on it. I was not permitted to communicate directly with him, but am told though it was sudden his guides were "there" waiting.

I hope this brings you some peace. Losing my parents was very difficult for me even with our rather strained relationship, and it took me some time before I could really deal with it all.

We all stand with  you in the Light, and send you our PUL at this time.

Love and Light,
Thomas

Hi KP-
My condolences for your loss. It sounds like a shock, and a disruption of your reality.

From reports during regressions, the result when a person suicides is mostly based on the motivation and attitude at time of death. The biggest shock for many people is that God is infinitely loving, accepting and forgiving, which your Dad probably knew. So whatever his innermost purpose, he is being received with as much unconditional love as he is able or willing to accept.

After years of searching for a "hell" nobody has been able to find one.  It's a myth. The closest thing is the level of souls who are so prideful and egocentric that they refuse to acknowledge God, or any other way to exist - but the hell aspect is their own creation.

Spirits seem to hear and benefit from our prayers, so I suggest that you pray for your Dad, so that whatever his purpose was, he now can be at peace with it. You might also consider forgiving him for the grief he is causing you and your family.

dave

Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. I still can't believe this happened. My dad was a Christian, and tried to lead his entire life based on faith and the Bible.

Hi KP. Hang in there. PUL

Keep sending PUL, they can use the PUL to expand their awareness and move on. the grief keeps them tied to the Earth. have conversations with him in your head, he hears your thoughts. trust me, I've been there.
Keep telling him your thoughts and send PUL.

Dear KP138,
my Son passed to Spirit on the 6th by his own hand.
I must declare I am a Spiritualist and anti religion. I suggest it is used as a method of control and order and not as a means of unconditional Love based Faith.
I state that up front so you are aware of where I am coming from.
I know, which may for some be a strong word to use, my Son is safe and being well looked after by my parents and others who have passed to Spirit earlier over the years.
Contact has been made by my Son to me via three separate people. None really new my Son and facts were stated which made be 100% aware it was my Son.
Knowing he is safe and has been released from the burdens that he carried has helped.
Do not get me wrong I miss him. I cannot hold, hug and cuddle him. Yes we openly affectionate in public. Yes, we was a "monster" at times. Yes he did teach me "unconditional love", so his life was from a waste of time whilst he was here.
May You God Be With You.