I understand why my statement seems self-satisfied, Orlando. It is not that I have had a wonderful life all the time, certainly not....
But I do value what I have learned from the experiences I have perceived as negative in my life. They make me who I am.
I definitely have not always felt loved, and I don't always feel loved now. Human emotions don't allow for a person to feel constantly loved...no matter who we are. That's why we need to learn to love ourselves.
However, there is an overarching theme of love within the miracle of life itself, which, to me, is almost impersonal but not quite, and so grounds me in this life. I choose to see and feel this love. If I did not, then I would have many more enemies in life...
I guess I have come to realize that, for me, I am often my own worst enemy. This overarching love, which I can feel when I am mentally "clear," may all be in my imagination. I'll grant that.
However, it is wonderful to be immersed in it, and to hear occasional messages that appear to be directed to me and to others. Perhaps I'm just a "glass half full" kind of person. I try to be, anyway.
love, blink