LaffingRain
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hi Vajra we're sort of getting away from discussing reincarnation but thats ok, I don't mind. I went thru your post and picked out all the negatives so just to point them out to you so u would notice. not judging you, just pointing out where your head is at this present moment. I'll reprint the phrases that pepper your post and see if I can discover what it is you are really asking as its not exactly clear:
downside (smily face) I don't have ability...a negative.
under control
wrong thoughts....out of hand
mindfulness is limited, horrifying scenarios
most cannot conrol
element of chance
wrathful elements, demons and monsters, nonhuman realms
compulsive, driven
I'm unsure. lurking deep..
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I respond to words which make me feel something. from negatives like mentioned above all sorts of scarey, or boxed in feelings are picked up. so then I tell u this because I am not trying to fix you, but just what I feel when I read anyone's post, so I can get to know them better and maybe it will help, maybe not. and it is just a viewpoint in the end. ____ I see control of your thoughts is what you desire. we all can relate to that for sure! I can only say a meditation technique which worked for me but I wouldn't say that control of thoughts is like my talent but heres a little method: when exploring we have doubts: that what we do is worthwhile. we may feel pressured to be active in some project, or we may feel we are being silly. these are called doubts and are creative in themselves to produce our reality. so put all doubts in a satchel beside you, this in imagining, so you will know where they are when you come up from meditation, you can pick them up when you're done. setting aside doubts allows you to open up beyond those monsters and things you are concerned about.
nothing I say is going to help anyone to feel as positive and certain as I do feel about our future as humanity, its your own experience has to supply your truth. there is a way to think more on positive things though, that tends to make it a more positive world manifest. the more of us do this, the bigger and better it gets. we are supposed to keep in balance between negative and positive so we can see both sides of the coin simultaneously, this my guidance anyway and produces less fear for me to express. the idea is courage leads to fearlessness leads to PUL. everybody has different path to same destination though. not for me to say whats right or wrong. we must all speak for ourselves.
for yourself you say "you never know what's lurking"...
thats if you believe in murphys law. I used to. things still don't happen as we expect them to, but what changes in enlightenment process, is things still go wrong but it doesn't bother you anymore when they go wrong, as a matter of fact every negative you find can be turned into a positive and that goes for the afterlife as well this life.
I once had a monster chasing me in the astral, and the astral, my opinion is very similar to the afterlife planes, although monsters don't live on the high level mental areas, they are simply not smart enough for the classrooms up there. well, the monster chased me every night. so redundant activity..finally I said I'm going to let it eat me. I don't want to run anymore. I turned around preparing to die, said alright eat me. the monster said back, "you created me to chase you!" you're not supposed to confront me like this! now you are making me useless! and it dissolved because I alone had created it. I almost felt sorry for it as it died, but you can bet I was happy I didn't have to die after all.
I know you're going thru a rough time from your post, but just remember its just a phase, you're going to come out of it a winner, is my feeling, probably quicker than you think. my 2 cents. blessings, alysia btw, never say never. you say you don't have any experiences like us, but if you start looking at some experiences that happened that were odd, you might surprise yourself that you can explore, and you can do what your intentions for coming to earth were. say yes I can, don't say no I can't. theres nobody will get in your way to come from love.
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