Don't worry, I haven't become a megalomanic....yet!!! Wa-ha-ha-ha (insert Diabolical Laugh here). But I do want to share 3 experiences where I became a mini-universe.
I've heard that Enlightenment starts out kind of vauge and then gets more defined over the years. Maybe what I'm going to explain is a metaphorical precursor, and maybe it's a genuine peek into the Deep Good.
The first time was when I was having sex, when I felt myself & my parter simultaneously click out into being 2 universes. It only lasted a few seconds (just like my love making
) but I distinctly became space, with forces in it. I didn't feel like I zoomed out and became intergalactic in size, or that I was everything, just that my body's cocoon momentarily broke and I saw/felt/became this other...
The second time was when I was in trekking in Nepal and my Sherpa guide gave me a strong Joint to celebrate their New Year (something like 2056 on their calendar). When I went to bed, the worse for wear, after a nite of circular dancing around a campfire, it was like everything lacked solidity. I know what the Buddist mean now when they say everything lacks an inherant reality. It was like everything was just a kalidascopic, veneer, subject to my own projection, and underneath was the vast VOID...yoinks. I don't think I'm ready for Her yet. At the peak of my freak out the universe condensed down into my solar plexus (although I was also still in it) and the stars started talking to me. Crazy, I know, no need to tell me. In retrospect, and I hope I'm not rationalising the experience, I think I was shown a metaphor for a real truth, but at the level I could handle it. I'm guessing the stars were really higher forces, and that's as far as I can understand it. Appropriately enough, I was rescued after I called on Buddha. I felt a powerful force/entity stabilise me while chastising me for being such a baby. Apparently my experience was kid's stuff which I should have been able to handle. I remembered upon awaking that I'd been talking to other members of my trekking party in the astral, and a fellow trekker told me in the morning that he had the same experience of meeting up in the astral, which was nice confirmation.
Interestingly enough, today at my son's swimming lesson I was getting a distinct vision/impression of a galaxy superimposed over the pool. Which ties in with the tale above and the one below, and the Swiss cheese model of the universe which is String & Membrane Theory. Sometimes I percieve alternate occurance under/overlaying reality. Sometimes it seems everyday reality is a multidimension code which can be read at many levels, and is also interactive. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking directly to peoples spirits which are well aware that they are eternal actors in a temporal play. Interestingly enough, the people's egos that I'm talking too don't know of the spirit level behind the everyday veil.
The third time was when I was half asleep and became aware, during (I'm guessing) a Delta brainwave state. Again I was a largely empty energy field (like a nite sky, but not cosmically large, just the rough size of my physical body) and my son's body (who was 2 and asleep next to me) was also a 'universe' and our energy streams were melding. Very Cool.
Some other interesting things worth mentioning was the time I was moving at what felt like supersonic speeds thru the universe (but I was blind!!!) and doing crazy hairpin 90 degree turns. It's funny how this stuff sounds so much weirder written down. At the time it felt relatively normal, and only the drug experience out of the 3 was scary. Note to self, drugs are bad.
The other thing I'd like to share from my treasure trove of highlights from my 20+ year quest is the time I had a real time OBE. I was sick that day (likely hungover) when I asked for healing. Soon I was a ball of energy rotating above my body, and then sitting on the end of my bed looking at an aboriginal. I'd just returned from an aboriginal settlement up north and was told by a tarot reader I had an aboriginal in the astral around me (who had died while I was up there.) The real time zone very quickly turned Alice in Wonderland-ish, with the sky turning purple, doors rearranging themselves, and dreamscapes appearing outside my window.
Another time both my flatmate and I realised we'd been seeing the same 'wormhole' in our loungeroom wall. I'd slept there on the floor one nite and woke up thru the nite to see something that looked like what you'd see from the bridge of the Star Trek Enterprise. My flat mate confirmed he'd seen it one nite returning from the toilet. Like the wall was gone, and the view was one of moving thru a star field, a bit like those computer screen savers.
All very interesting. Where is it all leading? Am I (and by extension, you) being trained to live in space, or maybe to become space, a la Jesus ascending into Heaven (to become the Heavens?). Who knows, but there's a lot of literature from other civilizations out there about the physical body becoming changed into a higher vehicle. Taoist talk of a light body, while Catholics talk of bodily ascending to Heaven.
Some interesting ideas here, let's compare notes everybody. It should jog my memory so I can share some more of my kooky experiences.
Love
Cris