An open invitation a Tunnel of Light followed me

Journal 7 May 2007

Having suffered a CSF leak subsequent to spinal fusion . I have been restricted to bedrest . On occasion the pain is unbearable . I have prescription narcotics , icepacks and pillows . I use meditation, trance and projection  I have been writing to peers asking for remedies  and I have been experimenting with energy techniques to help me also .But  sometimes the pain just gets ahead of me .

That evening , my head was mishapen with edema . I had three large lumps from the fluid gathering over my scalp . The resulting headache had me in silent gasping tears . I prayed for grace to endure. On the ceiling above me appeared a vortex like the pupil of an eye . Constricted in the centre,it pulsed above me.

An arm came out of this hole of swirling light then . Upon this arm , was a long flowing sapphire blue sleeve . I saw  her long golden hair curling in the energy . She looked so lovely like a painting in a cathedral .

She floated then ,half out of the circle,  extending her hand .  I did not hear her . I got her message in my mind instead because my tears had lowered my vibration and my clairaudience was affected .

She told me God loves us and I did not have to endure this suffering .

I was given three choices . I was told I could come home now with her . I was offered the chance to leave my body in a stasis and enter a coma . I was told I could be given grace to endure this night and decide later . I chose to live in the pain .

I was assisted from the study ,where I have a second bed beside my computer,  to my bedroom to retire for the evening . A great calm came over me and I felt such love and peace . As I walked this tunnel followed me .

Every room I went to , it was above me  but it was never in front of me . It had not appeared on the computer or on the television . It only appeared above me on the ceiling .

I woke many times that night and I lay there for hours on some wakings afraid to move afraid because I might cause the pain to escalate. But I was never afraid to die . God is such love .

I saw so many entities in that light . I saw a toothy grim in a skeleton form smiling and pointing upwards into the tunnel . I saw a banshee in black wailing and shedding tears . I saw my father who silently wiped a tear away come out of the tunnel and stand beside my bed .

And I felt complete peace to know I could leave , and I did not have to suffer anymore . I had pleasant dreams too. And When the sunrose, the pain was over . I have not had such horrible discomfort before or since .

Hi there Clair, good to see you back here! I was wondering where u went. I love this story of healing as might give a perspective how it's true, why suffer? I see no reason to be in pain if we are all one with god, then I see a god that agrees, suffering can be a choice, like living or dying is a choice.

once we're conscious we have a choice on these matters. so she must be your guardian spirit or perhaps even higher self as I see it.

last year I knocked two vertebrae out of wack, was suffering and crawling on the floor a few days or so, had to stay on the floor as getting up from bed was too painful, was easier to crawl on floor. lol. had to sleep a lot too. your ordeal was worse, but my book lay on the puter and it was important for me to finish it but I couldn't sit up for long time.

so like you, I called a peer, a good friend who is a natural psychic healer. It was I believe his first time at healing someone of something this magnitude, where a lot of people are getting surgery for this condition, to keep the slipped discs from coming out again.

to make a long story short, you did good to ask for help and so did I, because as for me, this fellow now knows he can heal someone he sets his mind to it.

but I know we have helpers on the other side and so glad you know about the choice thing and about how we can be free of pain as a choice too. like a mental choice.

this healer who was in midwest and I on the coast, worked with a chinese spirit doctor to push my vertebrae back in place, two of them and he correctly located which vertebrae in an email and how even my leg was effected. during the night I jumped when they got pushed back in and then drifted off into sleep again.
he's such a dear friend as he worked for hours to accomplish this for me, just so I could sit at the computer and finish my book.

I put this friend into my acknowledgements page as without some of you guys on the forum, there just wouldn't be any book at all.

thanks for sharing and I think you are a wonderful light to have here; I feel very good about your story, like theres no way to go from here but up. love, alysia

"this healer who was in midwest and I on the coast, worked with a chinese spirit doctor to push my vertebrae back in place, two of them and he correctly located which vertebrae in an email and how even my leg was effected. during the night I jumped when they got pushed back in and then drifted off into sleep again. "

Oh Alysia, thanks for telling that story!
I had no idea that things like this were happening.
I hope you have posted the story of this healer somewhere.

Love,
Boris

Aunt Clair:

Sorry to hear about your back pain. I had lower back pain for years, plus upper back and neck pain.  Many people have lower back pain even though they don't have any disc damage, while many people "don't" have lower back pain even though they do have disc damage. Dr. John Sarno and studies have found this. I had it without having any disc problems. I found that psychological issues caused my energy to be blocked in various places. Once I became clear of the psychological issues the pain went away. What a relief, because I went through a period of time where I was getting only 2-4 hours per night of sleep.

Spirit guidance helped me get rid of the blocks in various ways. One night my guidance asked me if I wanted to be shown something. I answered "yes." Guidance reved up my energy level so I could feel where my blocks were. Then I was provided with a short waking dream that told me what caused the lower back block. It was the fear of negative minded spirits.  Something I'm a lot clearer about today, but not 100%.  Financial/career concerns can also cause lower back pain.

I'd say that my lower back is about 95% better. I occasionally get some muscular tightness. But not that awful pain near the spine.  My upper back and neck pain have also gone away.  As I went throught the kundalini unfoldment process physical problems throughout my body were dealt with in stages.

Thank you for the replies . I do believe in remote healing and I am a  healer myself . But I have not been able to mend this CSF leak though I do try .  I do energy exercises each hour drawing in energy to do spinal bounces as described in Robert Bruce's NEW tutorials . Still , I had another NDE last night . If anyone knows of ideas to mend the spinal leak , please let me know . I see the surgeon on Monday , they might try a procedure called a blood patch , I am not sure.

Alysia:

Regarding the relapse, I don't know what specifically is going on for you, but my feeling is that the effects of spiritual healing can be temporary, if the source psychological issue isn't taken care of.  A symptom is cleared for a while, but eventually the cause of the symptom causes it to reoccur.

LaffingRain wrote on May 17^th, 2007 at 3:45am:

Hi Clair-
The dural blood patch technique should be effective within minutes. That should make it easier to sit up or stand.

It seems that the body is prepared to plug and heal transdural leakages, so that blood in the vicinity of a leak clots notably faster. 

I would guess that an appropriate visualization would be to visualize blood  flowing to the site of the leakage and then clotting, as the dura and other layers of the spinal canal heal themselves normally. This would also be appropriate during treatment.

Best wishes for a prompt, dramatic and total recovery!
dave

Alysia:

I believe you are being oversensitive towards me. If you read my last post you'll see that I wrote "I don't know what is specifically going on for you."  I wrote about how the cause of a problem has to be addressed before complete healing can take place, because you wrote the below. I did not do so to attack you. I partly responded to "so can't figure why it would come back." My main intention was to make a general statement about spiritual healing. I thought you would agree with me, because a while ago at Linn's forum you wrote about how some of your attempts to spiritually heal people didn't work, because some people aren't receptive to being healed. One of the key reasons they aren't receptive is because they don't deal with the source issue.

Alysia said: also I remember Linn's healing group. I was healed one Sunday in that group temporarily. some really great vibes there. then I had the relapse and it was worse than ever, so can't figure why it would come back. probably I sat in the same position too long at the puter. not healthy. but we need to show each other we can heal each other.