I got interested in this subject when I was about 19, being 31 now and not really into reading about it. I think the skills we use in day to day life are not very usefull when dealing with this subject in that we use both eyes and wing in our mind when dealing with normal reality, your normal going to the shop or work reality.

Buddha tried to explain that we need to take the middle path to reach a stable state which is consistant.


The bound between you and your father was very strong and normally parents are ment to be teachers to us in ways, how to act, how to carry on, then we get older and start to venture out for ourselfs.

Personally i am a bit of a thinker and always thought to myself I would be able to really know, how can I say, understand this subect, how it all works and what I should do. I gave up a few years ago but not affect understanding where I am now as a spirtual being vs how I should be, ie should improve and be a better being in all sense of the word.


We each are kind of like space stations seperate from each other but having ablitys we dont fully understand, the real universe is invisble but is precevable with the mind.

Heaven is being free from attachements and strong wants,mind being deep and unaffected even by death. I know this is all buddist expressions but they really are the base of how we each can become free'er and more happy.


I am very far from being a master, I will be honest and say I am not very responceable.


Life is very difficult but its so so important to do it right,to sort our selfs out. There are impressions you make when you conduct yourself in the right way which help others to click to things.

I was walking down the road the other day and I passed by a large open air restaurant, it had a large number of parents with children, there was the acostics (sounds) but also I was tuning into the mental forces in play there, Im pretty up on the stuff out of the monroe inst and sensing, women are masters thou , it was a very clear image I had there.

Life is kind of like a large playground and each of us are at different levels, but still we are like a single point of awaresness resting behind are eyes(just use that for this example) , and are awareness and focus is both affecting and receving at the same time.


When we each look at other people I dont know why but 99.9% of people are possive, ridged, fearfull, conflicting, when really there can be perfect group commincation and enjoyment.

It is very sad in fact the state of so many of us, do lacking in that middle path the results it gives.


I am glad you have proven to yourself life afterdeath there are even more impressive or strong examples of this question being answered in your life but then this is using your logical mind or 2+2 mind to question it.


Its good to have one eye looking out and one eye looking in, being a nice person and watching the whole story is a good thing to do. 


I wanted to post to you because I know that maybe you are a little sadend by your fathers passing, his cold legs, but rest assured he, you, I, and every body continue to have the opurtinity to grow.


I find life hard I dont think I will be as much of a sucess at it as my parents wished or invisaged but I have leart so much from it and I hope to be able to do much more good in mylife time but I have given up on impossible tasks.


Each of us are like children in the play ground Juditha, if you rest into that kind of thinking your never going to have any thing to fear and also you will be ready the next time a younger person needs a "question" answered.


Peace + lov

Its great you have your verification I think all of us who don't quite have that verification are seeking our own. For those of us who might think we are not as naturally gifted or psychics I believe we should just always remain open and don't dismiss the signs when spirit is trying to reach us. But it must be great when you feel that you have a proof positive verification.

I like to practice the mantra that 'There is No Death and There is No Dead'.

Never Say Die