MacTec said: If I can't empower people or spread light, what's the point?
I wish more people had this attitude. You're right its not the same as in the days Bruce was here more often, but I'm still glad I met you as you just fed me.I must say I've done a lot of editing on me own posts over the years!

Say there Alex, I never knew you had dreams like that, it kinda hurts my heart to see someone I like going thru that..must be a reason so you will come out stronger? this is what I envision for you anyway. but your confession if I may call it that, it shows exactly why you posted the title as you did.
I also believe as many do, that there will always be consequences to injure another intentionally, whether here or there. but I hardly think that dwelling on demons and hell serves any purpose whatsoever. simply put, we help each other with moving on from suffering, thru retrievals here or there. and if there is suffering and hell, it's not a static geographical location, its a state of mind.
Alex, wasn't your father a minister? did he indoctrinate you? its none of my business really, I just had this memory of you saying your dad was a minister. I should think it would be doubly hard to have a minister for a father.
As far as Howard Storm choosing to send himself into hell..I think that's sick and masochistic. I wouldn't touch that book with a ten foot pole as I believe in happy endings and thats my choice to believe in love conquering any error or sin. and if y'all didn't have any cheerleaders you'd all be in massive trouble, so accept me.

nah, I don't care if anyone accepts me, I just dislike seeing so many serious mugs around here never can lighten up and let down their guard for a single minute.
now, PUL, if I may talk about that...it's like the sun, it shines on the just and the unjust. but some can't feel the warmth of the sun, but see, that's why someone comes along and starts talking about the sun. and just because the sun shines on the unjust the same, it doesn't mean they don't have to pay rent like everyone else.
we all gotta take the garbage out, no free rides anywhere, but sooner or later if you live long enough, you'll find a little gratitude goes a heck of long distance to create your future circumstance here or there.
may we all take care of each other instead of finding fault at every turn in the bend.
love, alysia