certainly you may email me, anytime.
you want to know about male/female polarity differences? ok. ah, we all come in with a gender for the body. the gender or genitals usually hold the same charge as what the body suggests. but now we have souls who are feminine charge entering male bodies and vice versa, so we have our gay population. it just is.
so I'm not gay but I don't judge it. there is no right, there is no wrong. I follow TMI thought. ok, so the male charge is an action principle, the female charge is what is acted upon as the reception charge. the woman is the Earth, she takes the seed of the action principle and sprouts it. the man "shoots" the seed

this is funny to me, to have to explain charges.
ok, lol, the gun symbol can also mean an aggressive principle. in a war situation you will see the men carry the guns mostly, while the women usually tend the injured. you have your differences explained there.
what your dream said to me, the woman held a gun, and then she was on your lap with no gun. this tells me you are becoming balanced in your male/female traits within your soul. The woman part of you wants you to relax and don't be so aggressive and the woman is the passive part of you, which allows your receptivity to spirit guides, to your inner wisdom..but they are not going to draw you a picture or a map. you have to study and find out your priority questions and only ask one question at a time of the universe.
Caryn mentions watchers and I know we all have helpers and watchers and so do you, but they like to have you focus on yourself rather than on them for the answers.
try listening to intuition, try to have imaginary conversations and see how that works for you. love, alysia