spooky2 wrote on Mar 15th, 2007 at 11:12pm:Hi there,
substance addiction:
I gave up drinking after about 15 years having my evening beer buzz. I "substituted" it with meditiation. No problems, I just didn't need it anymore, quite amazing. After half a year or so I drank again a beer, but the next day I didn't. So it seems in my case the addiction habit regarding alcohol is erased. I don't recommend to start drinking again when sober for a while, of course not, but when it happens, it's not necessarily so that you are condemmned to be a drinker again (for many it seems to happen this way, but not for everyone, that's what I want to say).
Well, still smoking... You know Blink, "slow suicide"; living already is slow suicide, if we expect we will not live forever, smoking and such only make it some years shorter.
But it's true, to actually see it's possible without, and even better, that's a strong experience. It's like "all is possible".
coursing God:
B-good, I don't think there's a kind of God entity who writes this in a book and then, in the afterlife, send you to an "appropriate" place for this. I too had some really unpolite debates with God (well it was more me talking...). The good thing in what you told is you trust in yourself, that's a really healthy position, as long as you don't forbid yourself to ask for help when you need it, you know you can't do everything on your own. (Or, which maybe is something for you, chose a sort of Buddhism as religion-to-play-with, where there is no God, but a sort of void-realm which is you, and you are God, for you have expanded until you're encompassing it all. Just a suggestion) In fact, I think to course God and get your life in your own hands is even better than to "serve" God out of fear - much better.
Spooky
Right you are, Spooky. My comment about "slow suicide" is not projected on anyone else. It is simply my own experience. I was sure what I was experiencing was freedom and relaxation while smoking and doing other things. But there was an ultimate price to pay. I know that I, personally, would have died from these things much sooner than I want to.....I gave them up (again) because I know that there is much left for me to do in this world and many family members whose hearts would break at the loss of my life. I could feel these substances squeezing the life out of me, and I could not control my actions any other way except by abstaining.
But, I will tell no one else how to live. I simply recognize that addiction is part of my personality. I am separating myself from certain things, but I will only congratulate those who chose this path for themselves. Others are welcome to their paths.
There are smokers who live into a healthy old age. There are smokers who simply cannot quit. There are smokers who live exactly the life they choose and it is their right and their freedom. No judgements.
Yes, life itself is "slow suicide" by one definition. We all have choices.
I choose to live now. And so these are the correct choices for me now.
much love to you, Spooky. you are a wise one. blink