Hello Bets,

This isn't exactly the same but I was given evidence about 11 yrs ago regarding the relationship that I am in now in this physical life. At that time I had just 'unboxed' my lost childhood tramas with the help of my guides. They took me so far back that I relived a past life and recovered the last moments above before I took this life. I didn't understand what it ment then as a mater of fact I thought I was loosing my mind.

About 6 months passed and I was trying to cope but had another 'crash'. I really hit hard this time and was considering suicide. I was screaming at then to take me home now. My 'spirit friend' came to me with my guides and told me "hang on, someone is coming". Then the past life that I relived came back into my mind. I knew there was a connection but still didn't understand. I was still in panic and despair. My guides and spirit friend started talking franticly between each other, then my spirit friend said I could come home now if I really wanted to. Given that opportunity I had to think. Well I had a grade school daughter with no one else, so I opted to stay. I could feel their relief and knew I made the correct decission. I was not happy about it but decided to stick with it, it was the right thing to do becides if I still had things to do I did not want to start all over in a new life to do it. Panic and despair did not leave me but neither did they. I asked who was coming and lived the past life again. In this past life someone who loved me very much betrayed me thinking I would run to him for protection but instead my duty to those I loved caused my death. Yes I can remember my death too. Well this person was devastated and has never fully recovered. (this life happened at least a thousand years ago)

I got my answer a couple of days later when a friend of mine came to the door. He told me that he heard that I was available (I just broke off a bad relationship), and he filed for divorce from his wife. I was stunned and this did not seem like a good loving thing for me to encourage, I was confussed. He left so I could think about it. We had been good friends for over 10 years at this point. His wife hated me from the moment she say me, though I gave her no reason to. I tried hard to be her friend but she would have none of it. I asked guides 'is this right?' I saw parts of my past life again but it mostly focused on this fellows feet, confussing. A few days later my friend came back to see what I thought and guess what he was barefoot and it was exactly the same feet! So in my mind I said 'ok guys, if this is what is needed then ok'.

It took me a long time to tell him about the past life experience. All he said at first was "was I good to you?" I gave a very brief rundown and he said he that he understood that he was here with me for a reason. He said that the moment he first saw me he felt like he had to protect me from harm and allow me happiness. He also told me that he has several life rememberances where we met but he passed me by due to fear and he wished he hadn't. I do love him so on many levels but it is not the same 'soul love' that I feel for my 'spirit friend' and it turns out my guy knows this. He says that this is his lifes purpose..to see this through..to be my warrior and protector. He wouldn't think twice about running into a burning building after me. It all sound a little sad but we are really quite happy together, and he says that this was all he wanted was to have some time with me. How strange life is.

He feels that when this life is over he will be ready to proceed with whatever. I forgot to mention earlier that my guides gave me a glimps of how his actions in our past life together affected his other lives..he was so sad. I felt like it was my 'job' to save him from himself, and that makes so much sense to me new. So we see this as an opportunity to help each other grow. I think I need this cleared up as much as he does. How could I move forward while I know someone I loved was stuck in such sadness..I could not leave him like that.

This brings up some very interesting feelilngs from my 'spirit friend', this is hard on him. I can't explain it in words but the feelings I receive from him tell me that. He knows it is for the greater good and encouraged it but non the less, it is hard for him. We are just recently touching on those emotions and what a loving, growing experience it is.

BTW: I am posting with all parties in agreement. I will not use names and try to keep the really personal stuff just for us. So I am not violating anyone here, I am supposed to tell my story.

I too have someone waiting for me, and there is a promise in my heart to love no one as I do him, but I can't help it...it just is. He has given me permission to love in this life and encouraged it even though it hurts...that is love my friend. I have no doubt that I will always love him beyond reproach and even more so in the afterlife. As I have mentioned before I have put my 'spirit friend' through horrific tests in his short life here and his love never wavered. Anger, pain..oh yes, but the love remained and is still growning. Perhaps that was part of this lifes plan..to test his love one final time before spending eternity with him. He proved worthy, and I know that sounds selfish but maybe necessary. Anyway I am learning not to beat myself up over it anymore..well not so much...still feel ashamed sometimes but then his comes in and surrounds me and I am fine again.

Gee..was this to much information? lol

So although this is not the same Bets, I think it is still on topic.

Love you Bets, Stacy

Many thanks Stacy and DrDave,

Your responses are overwhelming so I'll just take on a bit from each for now---

Dave, your comment on a nunnery was right on, lol! My parents tried to convince me and we're not even of that faith ! but Guidance said they were cold places, not full of the vitality and spirit lthey had several hundred years ago.   You know I treasure your outlook, but right now it's confused by a recent dream/vision in which this man and i were taken up to a god-like figure who gave us a larger purpose for our coming life together. Then on another thread augo said be sure we're masters of our own dreams....? So I think it may be too late to change and do I really want to, as his obit. says he was a kind and generous soul. 

Dear Stacy, your love life is just phenomenol !  You are certainly a very loving soul !  I thought of what I knew from your postings and did not want it to seem the same, as you've kept a running relationship with your friend and my relationship was just revealed to me.  Thank you for sharing your situation further.  Oh, I was going to say, feet must be more expressive than our well-shod culture allows! I once glanced aat the sandaled feet of a co-worker and a voice said 'he was your brother.' At that time the past tense didn't make sense.

So, you've given me much to think about.
PUL
Bets