Kranada wrote on Feb 27th, 2007 at 2:11am:You know funny you said that because I REALLY want to get into retrevials! I want to master my projections and help as many people as I possiably can. Last time I was out I asked for a guide but nothing happened. I assume that either I wasnt out long enough or I need to advance a little further before a teacher will come to my aid.
good for you!
I can tell you're sincere and your desire will propel you forward to a retrieval. I really think we need help to find our first retrieval, so my suggestion is you are being monitored for your particular talents and the helpers will then know where to place you in the scheme of things.
a little story about guides...back in the 80's, around the time I did my first retrieval after reading Monroe, I read a lot of other books about master teachers and Kahil about whether I was worthy to receive higher teachings, whether I had cleared enough debris out of my consciousness...we all feel like not good enough sometimes to attain whatever. in my case I went thru life with feeling like a failure in most everything I did.
so whatever, have to get rid of such thoughts...a month or 2 of consciously wondering if I could get a guide set up the desire to fullfillment, so desire and intention is very important to be thinking on. One day I was in my kitchen multi tasking not thinking about higher thought at all..and a voice in my head stopped me in my tracks and I wondered if I had heard what I thought I heard. the voice said "I am with you now."
then I thought, I found some thoughts that said I had been found, or a guide had found me as acceptable student material, so that I could be worked with to be growing and to stop suffering my failure thoughts.
naturally I was overjoyed I was worth to be taught by what I perceived as a master teacher who had gotten thru to my C1.
along with guides comes a feeling of trust in the journey, then this expands to greater trust as u go along and your retrievals increase you become a success by extending this trust that gets developed. its a part of the PUL concept.
I think you are about to make a leap. I'm happy for you and sure you will not have any problems of overcoming unworthiness feelings like I did!