Hi All! Again,it's been a long time since I've posted on these boards, but here lies one of the first significant places of help through probably the most challenging time in my life thus far...so I like to check in when feeling up to it, and have a bit of time on my side. I notice, that as much as I love to simply read through several topics, if I'm going to post at all, it should be right after reading the original poster...then I have the added fun when I go back and read through the entire thread....I can be long winded as it is...forget it as I pick up yet more and more information....lol...
Personally, right now I'm in a transitional stage on many levels, and am finally starting to feel more responsive and the simple passage of time and a grudging willingness on my part to ask for help, has been playing out in ways I hope to someday share about, as I hopefully become stronger from the experience. One thing I found to be very helpful throughout all my life is writing down my ideas and thoughts, and reading the ideas and thoughts of other people. I literally just let myself be drawn to a subject, and decided to try and post my very humble two cents about whatever my mind can dive into at this time...

I want to try to at least loosely,follow the train of thoughts here(very rich and engaging,by the way), and simply put out my little views or experiences...soo,the first question was in thinking about such things like channeling,OBEs, astral travel,NDEs, and finally ADCs....and how much relevance is given to each of these. I'm one of those(I'm not sure where my lable lies,lol) that has always been attracted to these subjects,and since I love to read, found as much literature on these sudjects as I could, b/c I have had personal experiences with all of the above...and I don't say that in any way as a la-ti-da kind of way at ALL....I have been learning and my understanding about all of them,and experiences with all these things have continued on,and I constantly am interested in hearing the differing view points on the "why"s and "how"s of it all from many different places and people. I feel blessed b/c I feel no conflict within myself about one thing...that all religions, and experience or relating with something outside our immediate selves, or inside, for that matter....that it is a very personal and individual thing to each person,and there are many paths to the same creative source,and some common denominators about life. I am pretty eclectic in my beliefs....and each experience that I've had with any of the above mentioned things, has been important to me usually on many different levels, and that I think all of them have value. It's kind of the way I feel about my two sons...they are both so entirely different personalities...and they compliment each other and myself perfectly...I honestly cannot say I love one over the other, and the love would be the kind that is not comparable. I'll never tire of reading yet more and more experiences like these from others that have them...it has been a gift.
There was a valid question of why verifications of post mortem survival are so rare...or seemingly rare,esp.the more spectacular kinds...and that is something that I've wondered about myself(whereas it seems that I've been lucky to have a rather rich supply, and then others none,and maybe just none"yet",or it isn't time,or perhaps they've already mastered these things in another way,at another time....who knows?)...and have since had my own thoughts on these things....some people I believe we have more immediate karma, work,or need of closure with...etc....and then I think probably there are certain processes that some of us have to go through that could make it at least not in our own time, wether that's the deceased or "survivor". I can offer one humble example of this in my life.My grandmother died when I was like 11 turning 12.She happened to be very sensitive, dare I say psychic...but right from a very young age her and I clicked,we were very close...and my mom admittedly even envied that a bit...b/c her own relationship with her mom was often strained...my mom is downright fearful of her own sensitivities, so kind of rejected that in her mom, to really simplify this...and I was/am way more like my grandmom...I felt her when she died, I knew what time she left, even before going home and getting the news, b/c it was unexpected, and my parents were amazed that I knew, before they told me...but anyway...even though their relationship was often strained, there was real love there,and my mom and grandmother made a pact...my mother told me about this...that whoever died first, would come back, if there was life after death, and make it known to the other.....it was a kind of chuckled at thing,but known in the family. However,my mom got increasingly frustrated, b/c she said that even though she could feel love for her and maybe a vague sense of love from her,she hadn't experienced anything.....she knew that my grandmom would remember the promise...but nothing(although there has been some instances now, years later, but my mom is more open now, as well)...anyway....my godmother was my mom's best friend at the time...she only recently died herself,from cancer....but she was very close to my mom,and she really liked my grandmom,though she is a total skeptic, or was, in anything like an afterlife. Anyway...It was a couple years after(she died),and I was in my toughest teen years,running away,and spending long periods of time on the run...and my mom was understandably, distressed. So...one night,my mom said she was awakened suddenly from a sound sleep, about 2am, to the sound of "someone"calling her name, very loudly,and in her ear,so that she woke up and tried looking for who was calling her....she said she couldn't recall the sound of the voice, but that it was loud.The next day my mom's best friend and my godmom called my mother, very very shaken...she wanted to tell my mother about something that happened to her the night before, but first swore her to secrecy...finally my mom got from her that the night before, around 2am, she recieved a phone call. My godmother said she was immediately awake, and phone calls at that hour were something alarming,thinking of her five kids...etc... she swore that it wasn't a dream....(I had a phone experience myself, years later) but she continued on that when she picked up the phone,it sounded kind of like a long distance connection at first, but then started coming in clearer, and to her amazement, it was my grandmother.They had been friends in life,she knew her voice, but couldn't believe what was happening. Anyway, my grandmother reportedly told her that the reason that my mom hadn't "heard" from her was b/c of my mother herself..she said that my mom on a subconscious level decided it was too risky at this time in her belief system,to be able to hear her...she said she tried and tried but my mom could not hear,and that there was some kind of universal laws about the receiver being ready to recieve....she told her that finally, she was able to call her,so that she could give my mother the message she wanted to give at that time,which was not to worry about me(I was on the run, gone for months, homeless,hiding...etc..and at this time,I had some of the most intense spiritual experiences in my life thus far...and I felt very much taken care of,care free,unlike my present self, lol...)she wanted my mom to have faith that I had many spiritual watchers and guardians, and it was in my destiny somehow,and that I was well loved......My mom told me about it years later,and now recently, she's actually started having some ADCs herself...and she says now that she cannot really explain it, but that she believes now,that she would not have been ready at the time, even though she wanted it to happen,if my grandmom had contacted her...but that's only one tiny little instance, but the first that came to my mind.
There was some mention about the planes of astral travel,and ADCs...and I think that is interesting,I cannot wait to hear more when I read through, about the focus levels and such.I only know that I intuitively understand what is meant here,and I feel that certain dream states,astral travel,and ADC's are at least close to each other in dimension, or for lack of better terminology right now, levels of being...sometimes it has felt to me that there are almost tangible sensations in between these, and I for one...am content that I will spend the rest of this lifetime at very least exploring these.....and as I read information sometimes with certain material it feels more like an "Oh Yeah"experience, like I knew the info without having the conscious thought words to it, but it was like riding a bike, it all started flooding back materials with many instances for me...and I know I have so much to learn and explore,and am even one that suspects I'm not real "at home" in a physical body....and I feel kind of "homesick" all the time,to what I feel is a truer representation of my nature and myself...but so much can happen in a day! With so much of the rest, I picked up on what you said about best remaining open.....definately my feel...I hope I can remain teachable and open......
Sometimes silence says volumes...again,just my own take....like reluctance to enter into too much debate with others in similar fields,but with personal experiences...could it be as easy as knowing that there are so many realities,so many options,possibilities? So much is what we make it...so there might be little room,at least for me, I would hope that my experiences would not cloud anyone elses,or to say that theirs, if unlike mine is not as valid,....again, I find wisdom in different explorations...and I think it will always be personal in a way, but I find myself so much more tolerant of other peoples experiences,and have learned so many times almost nothing is impossible.....and/or a "mistake" and hope that my reality continues to change and grow,as much as I can handle it to at a time.
I think it would be good for me to wrap up my end here...

I have wondered too at sometimes what seem to perhaps be "imposters" coming through in a reading,seance,whatever it be called...and think that there might be many reasons or combinations of them for that....sometimes I think too, that perhaps a loved one might need helpers to help them energetically get to the point where they can express their thoughts as fluidly as some can....like a kind of "medium"on the other side, or after death...however it is put...and again,I think that the feeling of "I just knew"is probably the best thing to go with the gut feeling....of course there is the idea of picking up on the surviving people's thoughts, memories, feelings, knowledge of events...etc..and then there is the channel itself, we are all in some kind of transition,I think ...so in the end it has to be personal discretion and intuition....unfortunately sometimes it can be too easy to underestimate ourselves....or the myriad of possible interferences...I think at the end of the day,we all have to make peace with our own gut feelings and intuitions, and try and remain open to change......
Whew! What a mouthful...again,I'm grateful,and always will be to this site b/c it offers a place to put these thoughts out and exchange them with each other....I was happy to have the time today, and hope to be reading up some more....I love the minds in here,,,take care all...Tanja