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It's so very difficult to physically forgive some one while here on earth and truly mean it. We say, "Ya, Ya, it's okay. I forgive you", but the feeling isn't always sincere. When we are alone with our thoughts, THEN we go on our guilt trip within ourselves and think, "I really should tell him/her how I am feeling and that I forgive him/her with all my heart, but I just can't seem to put it into words when he/she is around me." I know this has happened to so many of us. I had no regrets when my father passed away. We weren't a kissy, huggy family. My parents were very private with their love for each other. Above all, we all had respect, outwardly for each other. But the love emotion is not one that was taught in my upbringing. I had to learn love and forgiveness. It's ashame that we as a family lost so much by not showing our love outwardly in a physical, touch me- touch you expression. We were and still are very reserved. I openly apologies to my children and grand children when I have been mistaken. Yet, when my mother has hurt me in some manner, I find it very difficult to openly say, "I forgive you, Mom", though in my heart I may have said it a dozen times. My mother has only said that she was sorry for something she said to me, once. I was shocked! I tell Mama that I love her each time we say goodbye, now. Something else not done while I was growing up. Perhaps a day will come when I feel comfortable to say, "Mom, for anything I disagreed with you on and my feelings were hurt, I forgive you." Hopefully ---before one of us dies. Love and Light Carol Ann (cat)
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