Sometimes this life can wear us down a little too much before we realize that we are giving it all away. People, living their innocent lives, can catch us unawares and feed off our energy without our realizing it. At least, this is how I see it.
It can seem so few and far between that we receive unconditional love from the people that we know and love, much less from strangers. Although, sometimes, a stranger can cheer us very much. Let's all be real with everyone we meet, for that very reason.
However, in meditation is where we will find the unconditional love we are seeking. This disillusionment is often just weariness. Find a way to give more "space" to yourself, dear Juditha, emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually. Be as kind to yourself as you are to all others and insist on taking the time you need to rest and adjust to the abilities you are nurturing.
Find a way to frame this world in your heart as if it is constantly lit from behind the scenes. You are connected to the earth, and the sky, and no circumstances can keep you from the truth of this vision if you allow it.
If you squint your eyes you can almost see it. The light, beginning to dawn. It is a fresh new start.

You are struggling to make changes and to become stronger, and you will succeed in those things. But we are only human when we cannot draw upon the full strength of our spirits. And it is sometimes best to rest and give ourselves time to reorient toward the abundance and joy which is ours at all times.
love, blink