I love the research you did Bets..newbies appreciate it as it ties the two worlds together for them if they don't do retrievals themselves or know what they are exactly.
I once did a similar research! kinda shocked myself but I had been so conscious, fully conscious while the body slept on that particular retrieval that the research part of it was just for fun. Briefly
its really hard for me to be brief, but I'm working on it! I asked guides what town I was in. I was given what I brought back as Langsford SD. I looked on a map the next morn for SD towns. A Langford showed up and I accepted I had added an "S" to the town as out there, interpretation can go awry so easily, especially when you are just beginning to find your wings so to speak.
I'm feeling really close to you these days Betsi, but I always did from the start. I still don't understand how u say I showed you something? its just that I'm the one who was often clumsy, or as you say, its was in the beginning, no knowledge what a gentle approach should look like when retrieving, or compassion to show. but u figure we got to give ourselves more credit, the fact we are even doing this work, the motivation itself must be compassion, because we don't get paid for it unless we get satisfaction from helping. theres little satisfaction unless we get the heart chakra active, and when I first started this retrieval stuff my heart was not that open, I just wanted to learn how, so I wasn't judging you as I once got chased out of a retrieval scene for being too harsh, lol, the guides said get out, you're not helping! see, no way am I gonna tell u my failures! haha! probably thats the most interesting is the failures though. all right. if u insist
yes, I think the mental has to be balanced with the heart area and it takes awhile and you are doing great! so am I! simply because its so hard to communicate these areas out in the collective where all the spirits hang, I like the way you describe the humor which is there; if not for humor, I would not want to go into some of these areas at all.
well, there was this drug addict who died. I thought I'd retrieve him. he already had a full house of helpers around him, they were nonphysical helpers and physical helpers can get thru faster..something about our vibrations...so along comes alysia to the rescue barging in like gangbusters..now I know where this guy was..it was not focus 23, it was 22. as he was very confused and semi conscious and totally unaware he was dead, I mean he lost his body. I did get his attention but I started haranging on him about "the drug pathway" and I was too mean. that was before I started considering PUL was part of the retrieval act. the helpers in the room had to undue the damage I had done and told me go home and think my approach over better
so I didn't even know what I was showing you until u told me. later, I considered well, I'm in training, still am, so the first thing to do is forgive yourself, then its really easy to forgive the drug addict for killing himself..he hadn't known what he was doing and didn't need to be told off. I hardly think your irritation at having them crowd your space is as bad as my little perfomance.
hope that clarifys that I didn't mean to hurt you but am always coming from my past experiences, and sort of doing a comparison with you. please continue to post any retrievals that you feel are appropriate for all our learning as if we don't talk about it, nobody will know what they are exactly except for those who have been doing it for awhile.
a friend of mine and a retriever also told me something about us retriever types; it really hit home in my gut...he said we are a little too focused on the spiritual side of life and this can tend to make us self deprecating people. omygod. thats also the first time I ever in my life used that word self deprecating! I had to go look in the dictionary and then spirit had to give me the spelling! don't u love it!
so I think I saw a resonant soul in you Bets, the likeness of myself acting out in these areas...we are to love ourselves nonetheless.
oh god I gotta get off the puter
I think the chair is growing to my seat after 6 years...
thanks for being here for me! and for all of us.