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I attempted another retrieval last night while listening to advanced focus 10.  When I asked for a helper, I got an impression of 3 figures next to eachother a little in the distance.  I figured maybe this was a helper, so I asked to do a retrieval.  Suddenly I was in front of a store. At first I thought... I don't get it. But then I thought OOHHH maybe I should go inside. So we went inside, the helper behind me.  There was a woman, maybe age 50, all alone inside. I introduced myself, she said her name was Silvia.  I asked what she was doing there, and she said she was working.  I asked when she gets off, and she said whenever the person working the next shift comes in.  I got a feeling that this person hasnt come in in a long time.  And I was correct, she said she has been waiting a while to be relieved.  So I said, I have a friend I'd like you to meet. Just then the helper stood in front, he looked like a 30 year old good looking man wearing a suit.  He introduced himself, and they started talking. He said somthing like... What if I told you that you didn't have to work here anymore? they started walking out of the store, and I followed them. But I kind of lost track, and it was around 4:00 am at this time, so I went to sleep.

This morning I woke up and put on the advanced focus ten again. I did not have an OBE like I usually do, but I had a dream that I feel is worthy of sharing with everyone.  I can't remember ever having a dream in which I am not myself.  however, in this dream I was an old man. Probably 85.  I am at the doctors office with my wife.  They diagnosed me with Prostate cancer.  They said I did not have much longer to live.  My old wife started crying, and I hugged her.  However, I did not feel sad.  I did not feel any negative emotion at all actually.  Because I knew where I would be going, how amazing it was going to be, everything I had learned during my life on earth was soon going to be realised.  I am not sure whether I was a completely different person in this dream, just some old man, or if it was me in the far future.  Either way, there was nothing different about me except my age and appearance. So maybe it was me.

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I decided to try another retrieval with advanced focus 10.  I called for a helper, and saw a large black bird, maybe a crow, fly to my bedside.  I had no doubt this was a helper of some kind.  It started to fly out of my house, so I followed right behind it.  We went up really high, then suddenly we are in front of a house on a street that gives me an impression of New York.  I go up the stairs and enter the house with the crow right behind me.  The house looks empty.  I go up the stairs, and in the first bedroom I come to there is an old woman, probably 80, laying in bed. I introduced myself and was talking to her for a little bit. From the information I got from her, she was disabled in some way or sick, and needed some kind of an assistant or helper to get her out of bed and possibly bring her what she needed in bed.  She had been waiting for this person, or anyone, to come to assist her but noone has come in a long time.  She thought she was still alive and did not know she was no longer bed ridden in a physical body.  Just then I introduced the helper to her, there was no more crow anymore, but a man about 30 years old dressed nicely.  He told her she could get out of bed if she wanted, and told her to just try. She did it.  They talked a little more, then they both floated almost a foot off the ground and were drifting away.  I followed them, and we all arrived at a place that I immediately realised was the park.  This is the most detailed I have seen the park so far.  It was a very pleasant place. 

This lady with dark hair came up to me and asked if there was somthing I wanted to do or someone I wanted to see. I asked to see my deceased great grandmother, for she is the only close family member of mine to have died in my lifetime so far.  She appeared to me, but looked like she was 30 or so.  I was talking to her for a little bit, and asked if she could give me somthing to verify to my mother that I made contact with her.  I saw a image of a chair, and possibly somthing under the cushion like money or somthing.  So I asked my mom today if this had any meaning to her, and all she said was... well she used to sit in her chair a lot.  But then I thought.. maybe what I saw wasn't for my mom.  Just then an old, but a very faint memory came to mind, of my cousin finding a dollar or two under her cushion.  So I dont know if this was real or not.

This morning I think I may have had an OBE.  I say maybe because I only have a faint impression of actually leaving my body.  My memories of full consiousness begin when I arrive at a muesum-looking place.  I was floating all around looking at the place.  There was a pencil and some paper on a table, so I drew what the inside of the place looked like for some reason. I think I did that so I could remember the place better.  I have some more faint memories of floating around the place.  Thats about it.

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Last night I did the same routine as the past few nights. I called for a helper, and was waiting for maybe 30 seconds. Suddenly I see a chair with its back facing me, and there is someone in this chair. Suddenly the person in the chair stands up and turns around to face me, and walks over to me. He looked like a mix between a really tall elf and a court jesture.  He was wearing green, a goofy hat, and had facal features like an elf, and was very tall.  I asked him his name, and I got an impression of something starting with an E, but then he said I dont have a name.  So we lifted up, and the next thing I know I am looking at the side of a huuuge clif, probably 1 mile high, and at the very top of this clif is a house residing on the edge.  We go up and through the door.  The house was empty, and I got an impression of sadness. I was drawn to the person in the house, and even before I saw this person I knew that she was crying.  It just came to me. I went into the room and a lady was in her bed crying and crying.  I asked her what was wrong, and I got an impression of her husband and children.  I am not sure what to make of this. One thought was that maybe they died while she was alive and she felt responsible in some way. Or another thought was that maybe she had died and left them and felt bad about it. Or maybe she died but did not know she was dead, and her husband and children never returned home because she was no longer home but did not know it.  At this point I became distracted with other thoughts, somthing happened earlier that night and I started thinking about it, I got too distracted so I just cleared my mind and fell asleep.  Maybe Ill revisit tonight.

yes I too hope you revisit Dude. sometimes this happens, that you are needing time then an aha moment comes and you know what to do.

the jester; I get the feeling its the same guide as before appearing differently. I also get the feeling he wants you to give him a name. that way, you are in charge of the relationship, not him.
the lady could be stuck in her beliefs. I would suggest to re unite her with her children and husband and then ask a guide to conduct her there. see if they allow you to go with them to the reception area on focus 27 and watch what happens. sometimes they will allow it, sometimes not. speaking personally. you seem to be a natural at this. thanks again for your work.

love, alysia

Nice post, Dude.

Sometimes, it is important to state intent that you will remember the entire experience.  You can try this with dreams, almost anytime as you are falling asleep, and it works most of the time. 

Some say "I don't dream."   Ha!  They do, they just don't bring it into waking consciousness.   

State your intentions calmly and clearly before your retrieval including your remembering.  I bet you won't click out as much.


Matthew

Great that you got back there, Dude.

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The jester man appeared in my mind as I called for a helper.  We lifted off, and immediatly I saw an image of the huge cliff, then we were on the porch.  Before I even went inside, I could tell that I did not feel as if anyone was inside.  I walked in the house, and it did not have the surreal feel it did the previous times. I went into the room, and the lady was gone. I wasnt sure if my senses were playing tricks on me. I asked the jester, is she here anymore? He told me no.  I sensed that she had moved on, I'm guessing it happened last night after I clicked out.  I decided to end the journeys for the night and just layed in my mind listening to a later track in the series. I think Wave 5.1. I don't know anything about the track, what level it is suppost to get you to, or anything because there were no verbal guidance, only sounds.  I got deeper than I would have with the early tracks, and it felt like i was doing backflips through space.  It was very disorienting.  Im going to check the manuel that came with the tracks to see what that one was.

Yes, very good read OoBDude. Very similar to my journeys (I only was a bit slowlier lol). So you see it's not that difficult to go back to a location once you get the trick. Maybe, if you like to try to have another look at The Park/Focus 27, think of your impression of it, and the helper who was there, the dark haired lady.

About this last hemisync piece, backflipping through space and disorienting, I had that when I listened the first time to a focus 12 playback.

Spooky