JOURNAL ENTRY 14

Wave 2, part 1. Feeling semi-expansion on the count up to focus 12, not as much as before. I was very tired, I didn't start until like 330 am. My energy body was pulsing and wobbling as usual.  I did begin to see somthing in the darkness. I am not exactly sure what it was. It was dark and was moving around and there were several of them? Im not sure, but I got too tired and went to sleep.

My dream tests continued last night. I drempt I was being chased by this dude who wanted to beat me up for some reason, I forget why. So after running for a little while, I realized that I don't need to run anymore. I stopped running, turned around and faced this guy. He stopped, and I cant really remember what happened but whatever did happen I made it happen with my mind and willpower. Im leaning towards I caused him to stop in his tracks and threw him with my mind? Something like that... Anyway, at that point I realized I was dreaming so i started to fly all around and it was just great. I think that after a while I slipped back into a normal dream though..

Hi OoBDude and all,

listening to Focus 12 HemiSync sounds makes me feel expanded too- as if I become bigger, beyond the physical body limits. Though I listened a couple of times to F12 sounds, I couldn't develop a relationship to this state; it's mostly a bit confusing, unclear; I sometimes get pictures very fast, or am in an unreal environment. So I used it only to deepen relaxation, and/or to heighten my mental awareness.

Spooky

Alyssia,

There is an ancient "relaxing breath," practised in India of 4/7/8 that I highly recommend.  One sits in meditative position, breathes in through the nose to a slow count of four, feeling the breath go down to the toes, hold it for a count of seven, and then slowly breath out through the mouth to a slow count of eight.  Even five minutes of this breathing is prodoundly relaxing.  The fact that yogis have used this pattern for centuries must mean something.


Doc

Last night I listened to Wave 2 part 2. I read in one of Bruce's articles that he had a convo with himself and requested to be able to percieve the nonphysical wheneever he desired, and he said that it works almost always. So thats exactly what I did. I didn't really have a convo, it was more of a one sided deal. Do you know if your suppost to imagine that your higher self is responding and come up with the other end of the dialogue yourself, or are you suppost to actually recieve responces? Maybe I should try it again and imagine I'm getting responces. It just seemed a little silly to me last night.

Im starting to get really deep. A little disoriented at times, seeing different lights at times and moving dark objects. Its not like I felt when first starting. Then I knew I was in focus ten but my perception basically stayed the same in that state. But now it feels different. However, when it gets really different for some reason my eyes start to open. I dont know why. Just when I know Im really about to see something and go further then Ive been so far, my eyes seem to open if I dont clench them shut. But then that disrupts my relaxation a little. Any advise? Does this happen to anyone else?

I forgot to mention the dream I had last night. I was being chased by zombies. I was running through this building. The next thing I remember is I was chopping these zombies down with an axe. Most of my chase dreams I am semi lucid during them and I realize it is a dream. But this one I had no idea I was dreaming, I was totally taken with it so chopping them down was my only option at the time. Obviously had I been more lucid I could have taken some more effective and nonviolent actions.

Wave 2 part 1. Now before I go on I just want to point out my mom was in the room next to mine in a very heated arguement on the phone, so I had to listen to that nonsense while trying to relax and do my thing... a very difficult task. So I get into focus 10, and I find it very easy to pass of my moms yelling, which is unusual for me. I actually feel an expansion into focus 12 too... which is crazy, I never would Have thought I could get so deep with all the commotion in the other room. But I realized it was definantly holding me back and I was loosing my focus, so I stopped.
WHile falling asleep I skipped to Wave 3. Here he gives you an exercise where you create your own light rod tool. THen you imagine you have a shell of light on your body, and a didffernet color shell represents a different physical function of your body. Then if you have any dim spots on the light shell, you heal it with the light rod tool. I must say, I think it may have worked a little. I feel so good today. I usually always feel good, but today I feel especially good.  Very cool.

I forgot to mention that last night during my session I began to have extreme energy sensations on the right side of my throat. It started just as a twitching, but before long there was energy shooting down my body from that spot and it was almost electrifying. I dont know why but I tend to get random energy activation at random places on my body. I was not comfortable with it after a while and rubbed it out. That didn't help much but I couldnt get rid of it by just focusing.

same here Dude. I wake up in the morning alot hearing conversations I am participating in and its always a sense of a group. you will get so you can start remembering what was said, first parts of it, then sometimes whole sentences, or parts of a rote of info. as you go on into your day the rote unravels into further info of whatever you're working on in your thought system.
for the most part the participants will be group members here speaking personally, as this is where I think on things. we are all connected, its not just the body..its our universal mind that is connected, and mind never sleeps.

Bruce mentioned this phenonmenon in another post; that he observed himself in 3 locations having 3 different conversations. but at first its just a vague sense of having been somewhere, maybe a sense of excitement, even some other feelings can reveal where you've been or what you learned or are learning.
you are definetely within a school of thought and others are participating in your learning. this started happening for me back in 2000 and has increased somewhat. you are doing good. always set your intention to remember where you've been and it should get more clear who and what you are! we all strive for that kind of information.

love, alysia