I Am Dude
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JOURNAL ENTRY 36
Last night I had the most profound, amazing experience of my life(that I remember). It is somthing I will never forget.
I fell asleep during my Gateway exercise, and a few hours after I fell asleep I regained consciousness and heard that the Gateway tracks were still running. I began to fall back to sleep, but my mind stayed awake and I felt my energy body loosening. I exited my body with tremendous force. For some reason I was violently launched from my body.
I was travelling through this amaaazing place, wizzing past what looked like billions of beautiful blue bubbles. I felt the most intense feeling of love and joy I have ever felt in my life, it simply overwhelmed me. I was so estatic with joy I began doing backflips. There were brilliant, indescribable colors bursting all around me. There were wonderous sounds. My feelings seemed to form words and were dancing all around in the beautiful colors. The senses I experienced(colors, sounds, feelings, words) were unlike anything of a physical nature. This was totally unlike anything I have ever consciously experienced before, and yet I soon felt a feeling of familiarity, and the feeling of wonderment of this new undescribable place dimmed, and I found myself half-remembering where I was. The intense feeling of love stayed, however.
I seemed to be flying through tunnels, and somehow it seemed as if I knew where I was going. I believe that whereever I was, it was very abstract, and the closest thing I can describe it to is going through tunnels. I found my way to a certain area, and I immediately knew where I was. The thoughts were mine, and yet seemed to be coming from an outside source. I believe it was my higher self. After translating the knowledge I recieved into tangeable thoughts, I came out with... "This area shows how human's corrupt has developed." What this meant to me was that every spirit gets corrupted in one way or another in their lives on earth, of course some far more seriously than others. The area somehow showed people's spiritual developement, and displayed how they have been corrupted by their earthly life.
While in this place, I have memories of certain friends and family members. Many of the people I remember from this place have truely been spiritually corrputed during their life. I cannot tell whether these people were actually there, or if it was just my thoughts manifesting.
The rest of the experience is quite fuzzy in my mind. The rest of what happened seems to be too abstract for me to recall in detail. Rather, I am left with subtle feelings of what occured during the remainder of this wonderful journey.
After regaining waking consciousness, I quickly wrote down what happened, shaking from the love and excitement I was still feeling. The beauty of what I had just experienced was unlike anything I can remember, I hardly have any tangeable thing to compare it to. I believe I have had similiar experiences such as this due to the familiarity I felt. Chances are these trips occured during my many clickouts. I hope to be able to recall many more abstract journeys in the future, and I am truely thankful for being able to embark on this journey and remember it.
BTW. I just began reading Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce. Reading this before bed, I experienced a newfound excitement for OBEs. This probably contributed to this spontaneous fullblown projection and my ablity to recall it.
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