JOURNAL ENTRY 31

Last night I listened to Wave 7, part 4, which assists you into meeting and working with guides.  Some things happened that I find it hard to explain.  Ok here we go..

I began listening at about 3:15 am.  I clicked out of the experience probably 10 minutes into it.  I figure this because I don't recall hearing any of the exercise dialouge after a certain point, I barely got passed getting into focus 12 before the clickout.  So I regain consiousness with a strange feeling.. a feeling like I was just with someone or somthing, I felt like I was just brought back by whoever this was.  Here comes the part that I don't get, the part that scares me a little.  This particular exercise was about 35 minutes long.  I regained consciousness at the very end of this exercise.  So I looked at the clock, and it is almost 5 am.  At the time I did not make the connection that there was about an hour of missing time, of almost impossibly missed time.  Just thinking about this gives me butterflies.  But I have to accept it, for it happened.

So I'm dreaming, and I gain a little bit of lucidity.  I am thinking some things, and it seems like my thoughts are distorted and skewed out by some outside force.  After a few moments of this weird feeling, I feel an energetic presence touch my arm and heard a noise, I forget what the noise was but that combined with the touch make me wake up.  It gets weirder.  It was about 9 am when I woke up.  I look out my window, and I see somthing and I didnt, and still dont, know what it was.  It was a little cloudy outside, but at this one point in the sky there were a lot of clouds, but there was an opening in the center of the clouds, and there was a light, not extremely bright but not too dim either, and this light was shining through the clouds.  But it was not the sun, for I could see the sun, and it definately was not the moon.  It was a separate light, a sphere of light I could see through the opening in the clouds.  I was a little freaked out, but also a little bit amazed.

This morning and even right now, for no reason at all I have had a couple of moments where I would feel the sense of doom.  Like being very scared, of something I consciously am not aware of.  After reviewing the events, I don't know what to think.  Part of me says, whatever happened, it probably had something to do with guides that I may have met unconsciously during my click out or somthing related to that.  But theres this other part of me that says, how could I have this missing time, this feeling that I am not conscious of its source, and these strange happenings all in one night.  Some part of me believes it may have something to do with somthing nonhuman.  Perhaps ETs.  The truth is, I have been unimaginably afraid of aliens every since I was a little kid, for absolutely no reason at all.  Just looking at a picture of them would cause the most intense fear ever, and I cant not overlook the fact that many people who have had experiences with abductions and such have had a fear as intense as mine at the thought of these beings, even though they do not did not know why at the time.  I cant over look the fact that growing up, I have always had a feeling of a presense nearby before falling asleep.  I cant overlook the fact that on a few occasions I have gained consiousness to find myself looking up with numerous beings around my bed, the same beings that have caused such fear in my heart for reasons I do not know.  And I also cant over look the fact that I am becoming a new person, most of my old fears have been dissolved, and the ones that are not totally gone are in the process, are getting smaller and smaller as the days go by.  I believe I have been seeking contact with these beings, unconsciously, and even a little bit consciously.  My interest in them has increased 10 fold over the past month or so, and the fear I have for them is nowhere near as strong as it used to be.  Part of me thinks that there is a chance I have had ET experiences  more than once, and the more open I become and the more I accept it, the more I will be conscious of them.  

But who knows, maybe Im just loosing my mind!


EDIT: A few minutes after typing this entry, I remembered a dream I had last night that was quite disturbing.  I woke up in my bed, and had a huge, red bump on the side of my neck with a decent sized hole in it, with some gooey stuff oozing out.  Just as I saw this thing on my neck, a memory came to me of an alien sticking me with some kind of long needle.  I knew that I had been abducted.  I dont remember anything that happened after this. 

So on top of all these weird experiences that happened in reality, not in a dream, I have a dream that connects the experiences directly to what I think may have happened.  Now realise I came to the (possible) conclusion about the aliens today, right before I wrote my journal entry.  I had not been consumed with the idea of aliens last night, even after I noticed the missing time I did not think anything of it, these conclusions are strictly based on the experiences I had.  I know somthing is going on.  I have to figure it out.

ditto for me what Rob said.  I'm amazed you've stuck with it this long. and look at the size of your journal here!

couple of things I note: from reading Bruce's books he tells of greeting others "out there" directing them to something, to somewhere. he notices theres is a blinking out process. some of his participants seem more awake than others that they are there. others kind of walk on by oblivious to their surroundings. these may be like our astral bodies, which are said to float around during our sleep while some of us are awake enough to attend a classroom, etc.
blinking out seems to be rather commonplace is what I'm trying to say. for think about it, that in order to not blink out, you would have to set an intention that you are going to maintain wafefulness throughout.

many people are working on this very thing. having lucidity within a dream is similar. we are given all kinds of exercises to awaken within a dream. I think it has something to do with the electrical impulses within the brain...and that the interpretative fuction of the mind is perceiving something it does not know how to translate and send back to the brain, the holding center of consciousness in C1.
therefore blinking out is natural. you have no data base built in. not yet.
yet you recall the needle in the neck. thats a symbol of what really happened.
the symbol is the brains way of attempting to interpret what really happened, it offers you the nearest symbolic reference point.

If you read William Gammil's account, in the book The Gathering, I think it would set any fears you have to rest concerning aliens.
You may be working with them, but not fully aware yet.

maybe...your astral body somehow manipulated the Ipod? so that it would bring to your attention that you're actually working this area? 
I can't think of a technical reason as the tape should have stopped after 30 minutes right?

I have heard of people being able to effect electronics, and the spirits have turned light switches on and off..
my sister had a ghost that turned the TV on all the time..these are electrical powers being manipulated to catch your attention.  I would assume you also have guides around who are not revealing their presence until the right time.
I just assume that because I've had guides the same, but they work with me thru the dream state as thats where I expect to get help with questions.

I've heard of folks having a type of magnetism in their energy field, they can manipulate all kinds of phenonmenon. watches won't work on them.

one time there was a show on the radio, Art Bell or the other guy, George. they asked all the audience to get out their broken watches. they were going to get them running again. a very large percentage called in that it worked now.

the power of the collective mind. in your case, its a little different, like the Ipod rewound itself? started over?

ooooouuuuuu!   love it.

When I read: "I regained consciousness at the very end of this exercise," I just assumed that you regained consciousness "after" the end of the exercise.  I didn't appreciate that the i-pod was still going.  When I read you were a little scared, I should have gone back and read what you wrote more carefully.  Given some of your experiences and dreams, the term "scared" really doesn't apply to you very well.

Wow!  That is one amazing experience.  Some possible explanations come to mind but none of them seem to account for what happened very well.  As usual, I'm looking forward to what happens next.

Rob

I Am Dude wrote on Jan 5^th, 2007 at 8:40pm:


;D

  Anyways...  OOBD, have you read any of Rosalind McKnight's stuff?  I highly recommend both her books, but especially her first one called Cosmic Journeys which talks quite a bit about E.T.'s. 

   She was shown the probable futures for humanity from her time up until the year 3000 or so, and she saw that at around 2500 or so, it was probable that we would get into a brief war with some not so positive E.T.'s. 

   In other parts of the book, her guides talk to her about these not so positive E.T.'s, and basically they relayed that they don't have the best of intentions, and they, like the much more spiritually advanced ones, have been abducting and implanting folks for centuries.  The friendly and very positive E.T.'s however keep a close watch on them and their activities, and they will use the implants from these not so friendly E.T's for positive purposes of communication.   

  I've had dreams about both groups, as has my life partner too. 

   Anyways, from what her and her guides indicated, this war of 2500 is not going to be that big of a deal, if it happens, since we will have help and similar technology as the not so light filled E.T.'s.   

   I was kind of hoping that Bruce's work with the E.T's who had no heart awareness (possibly the "grays"?), might change this probable future, but i have no idea, haven't been given info on this.   What i do know, is that there are still some rather dark beings out there who are attracted to humans and to Earth because of the Law of like attracts and begets like.   

   Nothing to worry about though, i don't think, we are ultimately protected i believe and positivity/love energy is all we need to be safe anyways, cause ultimately nothing can harm the real us,  at least imo.

  Anyways, if you haven't already read her books, i think you would quite enjoy them.   Much of the material in Rosie's first book comes directly from the explorer sessions at the Monroe Institute (not called that then) with Bob Monroe.     In fact, part of my tag here is taken from this book, cause Rosie has a guide whom Bob and her called "Ah So", since he gently refused to give out a name (not wanting to tie himself in too much with the Earth again), but he had a slight asian accent so they just decided to call him Ah So ;D. 

  All the best

These are called self retrievals Dude and I felt much the same way to do a few of them. Especially a kid about 3 yrs old. the joy of reunion is like your daily energy level increases.

hard to explain but I think you have done a good job with the words. I don't think the general public is doing self retrievals but I'm sure it's a part of the TMI program to teach it.
I picked it up from reading Bruce's books and Monroe's. Never been to TMI but read alot about those who have gone there and my stories are similar so I know anybody can do them if they put their mind to it.

what I think happens is, (can only speak personally) a piece of me, like energy, like a self image stuck in time, stuck on the surface of this movie I call my life, broke off due to the inability of my mind to accept..well, my family had moved from a house and left me alone in the house and so I thought I might die.
my mind could not accept this had happened and so I forgot. I forgot because it was unacceptable to remember. and painful.
when I found her sitting there I went through the motions of retrieving her then gradually the memory would resurface and I would accept it had happened and then is where the energy gain would occur in the physical/emotional vehicles.

you know it's like dancing down the sunny side of the street after such a retrieval.

see if you do not begin to experience greater equalibrium from now on out.
thank you for sharing, too many of us don't share their personal stories and I do so like to hear them when I can, as I believe self retrievals and retrievals of each other is going to be the new wave of the future and we get to be in the front.
guess how my guides got me to do that retrieval? they tricked me. I was going to retrieve someone else. they brought me to myself. it was just what I needed. it makes u wonder if there's more pieces of self to gather? maybe if we all retrieved our pieces we would have something to celebrate for a long long time.
thanks again, if you weren't here, I just don't know what I'd have to talk about!
love, alysia

JOURNAL ENTRY 32

I've been going to bed way too late lately.. I always fall asleep during the exercises.  I woke up this morning and decided to have a listen.  I fell aleep AGAIN!  I woke up when the exercise was over.  I decided that I don't need hemisync, took off the headphones and affirmed that I was going to leave my body.  Sure enough, I was able to lift out.  The past few times I've had OBEs, I have noticed that I have not gotten the intense vibrations that I used to get right before separation.  Maybe you don't need these vibrations as you become more advanced?

I was unable to see for a few moments.  I gained sight and floated out of my roof into the sky.  I was way up, in a place I am not familiar with.  I decided to ask for Jesus to come to me.  I stated my intent over and over, yelling it at the top of my lungs even.  After nothing happened, I called out for a guide.  I noticed someone walking in the street below, so I decided to investigate.  It was an older woman.  I walked (floated) with her, talking to her.  She was very nice and kind.  She seemed to have told me somthing, perhaps some kind of lesson.  I remember her saying, "you shouldn't do ... something... because... something."  I cannot recall the details of what she said, but I had a feeling that what she was saying was true to me, that she knew me on a deep level somehow.  I left her and went flying around.  I was not familiar with my surroundings.  It seemed to have been in some kind of urban city area.

I found myself back in my body, but floated out easily once again.  This time I found myself up in the sky, looking down upon a farm type place.  There was a small house with people outside of it, possibly BBQing?  There was a vast plane of grass and possibly some crops, the boarder of the area was forest.  I have a faint recollection of going down to the people.  I recall seeing some of them up close.  The next thing I remember is spinning around very fast.  I did this just to experiment, usually doing this projects me to a new frequency level. Perhaps it increases my own vibrations?  So after spinning, I saw white light come down, and I opened my eyes.  What I saw is very hard to explain.  It looked like a painting with the paint moving.  There were many oranges and reds, in motion.  This was what I recall the background of this place to be.  I noticed some abstract figures, they seemed like sculptures.  One was tall, pointy and green.  It is so hard to explain what I saw or where I was.  It was as if some of the things from the scene I was previously in(the BBQ) had stayed, but were skewed and much different.  The place almost reminded me of a hell-type place.  The colors of the area were very similar to depictions of a typical hell, the oranges and reds.  I was only in this place for a few moments.  It was as disturbing as it was amazing.      

JOURNAL ENTRY 33

Last night I listened to Wave 7 part 5, which is a Focus 21 excersize.  During the count up to 21, I began to feel like I was no longer laying on my bed, but floating in space.  My state of mind was quite different than normal as well.  The next thing I know I became conscious and the track was concluding.  Darn clickouts.

This morning I woke up and put on the same track.  About ten minutes into it I felt as if I was free.  I slowly flew off my bed.  Once again, I skipped over the intense vibrations that are a common signpost of OBEs.  I am convinced that I simply do not need this vibrational state anymore.  I believe that Monroe eventually did not experience the vibrations after a while either.

So I flew up into the sky.  It was dark outside, so I was obviously in a lower astral level.  My surroundings were extremely different.  There was a large building amoung many houses, and the entire area was surrounded by mountains.  I flew about a mile and reached a house.  I do not know why I went to this particular house, it just felt like the thing to do.  When I arrived there, something made me do a reality check.  I felt my face with my hands, and was shocked when my awareness skyrocketed.  I felt my hands on my face, and felt my face on my hands as if I were in waking consciousness.  Simultaneously my awareness became much higher. 

There was someone in this house.  Or somthing.  The details are not clear in my mind, but what I remember is seeing somthing there, and somehow letting it out of the house.  I get a strange feeling when I try to remember this part.

I decided to leave the house.  Things were seeming too real, and I actually thought that I may end up stuck permanently in this place if I did not leave.  I jumped and flew out of the house and into the dark sky.  I flew back to my house.  I have no idea how I knew which house was mine, because I was totally unfamiliar with the entire city.  I came to a house that was totally different from mine, actually it was totally different from any house I have ever seen.  It was even too abstract to describe it right now, no words can accurately describe what it looked like.  There was one very interesting thing about it.  On the outside of the house where my room was, I saw a sign.  It said, "Afterlife Knowledge."  I was amazed.  I wondered, why does it say this?  I floated back into my room and into my body.  This is the first time I actually went back into my body on my own, I am usually slung back into it.  Maybe I did so because the track was saying to come back to waking consciousness?

I was back in my body, but I again felt the ability to slip out easily.  I began to wonder off from my body once again, but I thought that maybe if I had another journey, I would forget my first one.  So I woke up and wrote down the experience.