Ikeep wondering if you have been treated badly all your life , if your reincarnated are you destined to suffer the same fate all over again because if that is so then i will definitley not come back to the earth plain ,its been a hard road ,so many twists and turns ,not good ones either ,sometimes i wonder how much more you have to endure before it all ends ,all the misery and fear and emotional pain ,i know there are people a lot worser off but when your going through it ,it feels like your the only one but through it all i,ve manged somehow to keep my head above water and that is because of my faith in god i know he is there for me when i need him

Deanna..I feel the pain in your post.

I don't think if you reincarnated that you'd have a repeat of the same thing..unless you chose to do so.

I think we choose the harder, tougher roads in life to advance a bit faster.

Perhaps a look into why the bad and hurtful things are/have happened to you would be helpful?

I've had to do that too.  My life has been anything but easy.  My oldest child is deaf.  He's almost 26 now.  My middle child is bipolar and currently in jail. (he's 24)  My youngest is 21, has a 2yo girl (to me, the most beautiful child I've ever known).  But, my daughter has only recently kicked a meth habit that nearly cost us all that dear little girl.

My husband has multiple health issues, from heart problems/BP/ to diabetes.  I work a very physically demanding job.  I wake up at 4am and often do not go to bed until after 10pm.

However, through the last few years of exploration, I have learned that there is a plan in all of this..and nothing is set in stone.  If I feel frustrated, angry or sad..I have a choice: Remain in that state..or find the way out.

Its the old "make the best of the situation."  of.."If life hands you lemons, make lemonade."

Hi dave thankyou for those beautiful words you wrote to me made me realise lots of things ,your a lovely kind person thankyou so much dave love and god bless deanna

Hi Deanna I have had a hurtful life,so much put down for being me,that i dont know how to be me anymore,which is why i have taken my picture off here,as i feel better with my little kitten,i feel i can be me if my kitten is there instead of me.

Thats why i go to the centre everyday,and yesterday the people who were there,i sat with them and we were saying we wanted to die,as Gods heaven is better,i could be me in Gods heaven .I have so much fear of facing anyone,as i do not feel that i am worthy enough to sit and express my veiws face to face,i have so many inebitions about myself ,which you know Deanna,i often cry to God and ask him why i suffer inside so much sometimes.

My kitten is my wall that i hide behind,and my love i send to you shirley and i pray there will be light,joy and happiness around you and your children.i love you all on here.

But i know that God walks beside me,and gives me courage to face each day,i love you Deanna.

Love and God bless you all  Juditha

Deanna and Juditha, as most will tell you, we've all been through the ringer here most of the souls on the path to higher learning will all have there story's to tell, I know thats why I began my search the pain has opened many doors for me. That would have gone unopened had it not been for my life path. I'm not saying I've enjoyed it one bit , but O how I've grown.

The key to all this is to really take a good long honest look at ourselves. To the both of you I feel you need to seek help from a healer, someone you both can connect with. I've used many modality's through my healing process, like Reiki, re birthing, breath release and affirmations. We are programed from birth with how we react to situations in our life, most of the programing has come from our parents and thats not to lay blame there , it just how it is. But we have choices in our lives ,we live in a free will zone after all. I used my free will to change how I viewed my life and I chose to release the pain I was born into , you can do the same thing. You just need to say to yourself I've had enough and take the steps to look for the right person to help guide you. If you ask your higher self or you can ask god if that feels more appropriate to you to guide you to the right healer for you then the right person will come into your life.Both of you are beautiful beings who have the ability to make changes in your lives.

As you both have such a strong connection to each other you may want to search out and find a coarse in Reiki. You'd find many souls that have the same interests as you do, its amazing how many people have an interest in this type of thing these days.Or you could buy the following book which I highly recommend Called YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE, by Louise Hay,Louise was sexually abused as a child and when she became a Young woman she naturally repeated that abuse within the relationships she attracted . After much pain she then contracted ovarian cancer. The book explains how she beat her cancer not through the medical modality's as they told her she would be dead within three mouth, but through the methods I have mentioned above. Its one powerful book and it explains not only how we can change our thoughts but how we can move the energy trapped within our bodies, that continues to repeat the pain. Please both of you take the time to look into what I have suggested. I only  want whats best for you both and I cant begin to tell you how much these things changed my own life .

I send you both love and healing and I wish you both a speedy recovery form your pain.

Hi Shirley, Light R and augoeidian Thanks so much for your words of knowledge and love and encouragement.God bless you all and i will put my picture back on soon. lots love Juditha.

I view my higher self/disc as one big loving family. When we create a new generation we don't find it necessary to kill off the members of a prior generation before doing so.  We are so close to each other, we don't believe that we can become closer by creating soul mates. We are all soul mates.

We've also found that our family extends way beyond our own little group. It expands to all of the discs that God has created. PUL sees no need for distinctions.

I believe we are completely free to love whoever we want. We don't have to find out if somebody is our soul mate first. Sometimes the echos of time can have an effect.

By the way, I must've got my wires crossed. I read about soul mates somewhere, and posted about them here. Sorry about that.