Hi heirloom,

I would say, get some of Bruce's cds and start trying retrievals. You sound like you would just love to help some other souls get to where they need to be.

We are all here for a purpose, dear one. Each person who comes into our lives walks up to us with a beautiful soul enclosed in a body just like yours. We all wonder why we are here, at this time, in this place.

Love is Real. Welcome.

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welcome Alanna

when i was in my twenties I had some of those thoughts and feelings too. as I was pondering about being nothing, having no body, etc, I received an image in my mind I've never forgot that I attribute to a guiding influence or a nonphysical being helping me stay in life.
heres what the dialogue was like:
Me: I want to go to the other side.
Helper: you want to what?
Me: float around with no cares because theres no meaning here. I don't want to be something. Iwant to be nothing.
Helper: look at the speck of dust floating. want to be that?
Me: maybe.
Helper: but the wind takes it where it will.
Me: it doesn't have control?
Helper: no, it doesn't even know its a speck of dust, let alone have control.
Helper: at least now you are more than a speck of dust and  theres a chance for you to do and be and see and feel and know and taste. the dust has no such chance, for it would have to be nothing forever according to the one who chose this.
Me: well, I guess its better to be me than it is to be nothing. then I could feel a smile coming my way as I don't remember thinking this. I just remember the fed up part as coming from me. helpers are there when you get despondent. when you change yourself on the inside people start responding differently to you and theres meaning in that because they are looking for the meaning in you. hugs, alysia

Hi Alanna,
for me the following worked:

--Try to develop a sense for the feeling that makes you feel bad. So that you can notice it when it's about to get stronger. When you sense it, try to go in a obeserver-mode, so that you could talk like this: "Ah, there it is again. I notice it. I know it. But I will not allow taking me over. I look at different things and keep it at distance."

--Think of the possibility that your life has a purpose. You just don't know exactly what it is. It could be a part of the purpose that you don't know much about it. But once it will become known to you. Meanwhile, keep on living. It will not last forever. Just day by day. You can make it, even if you don't know what it's all about--yet.

--You don't know the purpose. So, for now, make the best out of it. You can set it up for you like a game. I suggest you "pretend" to be polite, nice, honest, helpful, smiling at other people. They just like that, and it's easier to do than you might think. The reward comes often immediately. It's a good game to play, you'll like it.

I read "Destiny of souls", it's impressive, yes. I remember that little story about the person who was astonished when discussing/reviewing his/her previous life, astonished about the importance of "little things", little, but done personally with heart (helping someone with some pennies and/or telling the right way to go as far as I remember), rather than impersonally with money.

Spooky