I don't want to come off sick and twisted, but somone close to me recently died, the last death I had witnessed had been during my christian period, and it was depressing, ugly, confusing.

This time though, and don't let this rub you the wrong way, it was enjoyable.  Like, I had been thinking about this moment in my own life for a few years, and it was happening to somone right in front of me.  She was looking straight up at the cieling.  I just sat in the chair as her daughters and mom crowded around her, I just sat back and tried to focus the purest of love, set my intent on her soul.

It felt like everyone in the room just went numb for a few seconds, and then regained their feeling, with a lot less... weight on their shoulders.  It was an odd moment, but I felt like I had helped in a way.

I cried, but I wasn't sad.

Don't let your emotions get the best of you.  Yes, let them out, express them, but don't let them stop you from seeing things clearly, it'll be a very informative experience if you keep a clear head, if infact, you are there at the time.

Sorry, if that sounded weird, you have no idea how hard it was putting those thoughts into words 

Sorry to hear this Ryan.  Anything we can do to help?  Do you need to talk about what you are feeling and going through?  You must have shared this for a reason, so just know that anyone here is here to listen and be understanding.

Indiglo,

What a unique way to describe your experience.  There is nothing wrong with that.  You were telling it like it was.  I really liked the way you described your feelings.

Irene,

I know you became so much stronger because of John's illness and death.  I can't even begin to imaging what you went through.  

Love, Vicky

Lots of PUL to you, your family and your dearest grandpa RyanParis.

Indiglo said something quite amazing there.  We do seem to be trapped under a cloud of sadness,  though it is a true emotion that penetrates the very marrow but we believe in eternal life and this is the joy that will break through the cloud of sadness.

Irene love to you and your family.  And Rick who has also just said goodbye to a loved one, it is the circle of life and let us not fear death but embrace it for it says to us we are not just physical bodys we are spiritual and we go back from whence we came.  It is refreshing; it is as that moment before obe or indeed falling asleep - that first moment of breaking free is the only barrier between here and there and we know there is enough evidence to say the journey continues.

Pure Universal Love to everyone.

please excuse my tag now - it may not seem that appropriate with loved ones going home - may we find laughter and joy though in everything we do and everything that happens to us.

PUL to you and your family Ryan. I know exactly what you are feeling/going through.

A relative of mine passed away about 2 years ago from lung cancer. Consequently, I had a strange happening at work roughly a week ago that allowed me the opportunity to see a glimpse of where she was at in the spiritual realm. I also knew that with regards to her well being that everything was infinitely beyond the definition of okay.

Here's a brief synposis of my experience:

I was sitting in a chair relaxing when I got the distinct undeniable vision/apparition that engulfed my entire field of mindsight. It was a brief flash of an indescribably beautiful scene opening up in front of me (Similar to a Thomas Kinkade painting only infinitely more exquisite). At that very instant I knew that this was where my relative's spiritual being resided, and that it wasn't just her being but it was the best parts of who she was whilst physicaly alive. It was a very magical/PUL place that was enshrouded in sparkles of self illuminating light that were vibrantly alive. I had felt an emotion tied with all of this that was unlike any human emotion that I've ever felt before, so it is quite impossible to put into any meaningful words. It was such a brief glimpse/exposure to this place that my initial memory of the fullness of it faded rapidly and I was only left with a "knowing" that it had happened. But, an undeniable knowing.

I hearnestly believe that your grandfather will inhabit a very similar realm of spiritual existence. Only specially tailored to his individualized liking and personal spiritual need.

We are all together at all times... When we feel as though we are not, it is that very moment when we are in our most sincere state of heightened spiritual awakening/growth.

PUL,
Cosmic_Ambitions

That's lovely, Tim.

Ryan, my heart is with you and your family. My dearest grandfather passed away several years ago. It was difficult for the family to watch his progression from this life in the hospital, especially since he was kept on futile life-prolonging machines and treatments. However, I really felt contact from him after he passed over, and I cherish the moments that I spent holding his hand in the hospital before he died. These moments can be so difficult, but they are very important. They bring the whole family together, for better or worse....and your love and your presence are the best offerings you can make in honor of one man's life.  I hope you are able to spend these last days with him, and may you all find comfort when you need it.

love, blink