"When love is brought into any situation arising from fear, whatever is a product of that fear will disappear"
Vicky, I need you to help me to understand something. Ok, I am trying to relax, I feel confident, I make sure I do not get disturb by nobody, sometimes soft music to help in the search of relaxation, I concentrate in my breathing, etc.; in fact, everything that helps with the issue. But in that precise moment when I get to relax, fear comes due to distracting thoughts about everything but relaxation and peace. You stated that I need to replace those feelings of fear with love. I love God, I love my family, I love nature and respect it, but even though when I try to replace the bad feelings with the one of love for all those things I have listed, it is not enough. Consequently, I give up relaxing and I concentrate on other stuff (house holds, TV, pop music) just to get a little bit annoyed by all that and replace the fear with things that I can see, touch, listen with my earthly senses. Love is a simple word that has a complicating definition. As I said before, I need to practice, and no once and a while but everyday. Thank you Vicky!
Alysia, maybe you are right about a guide trying to make contact with me. Several things in my past have been happening since I was a little girl. My mother always told me that I was a special person; but I guess all the mothers say the same about their children. Anyways, my mom told me this story. One day( I was a baby when this happened) while she was washing the dishes at the kitchen she turn around and I was standing looking at her and smiling. She smiled at me and she went back to her chores but just took her seconds to realize something, my appearance was different; she turns to me again and I was not there. The kitchen door was open so she went outside desperate looking for me. Astonished, my mom could not believe what she saw. I was in my grandmother's arms but across the street from where we used to live, about 50 feet of distance from one house to the other. I couldn't crawl across the street in just a few seconds from where my mom was.
Another situation, when I was eight years old, my cousin and sister were talking about how wonderful weekend we had the week before at the camping. I said to them "what camping..." They looked at me like I was joking or something. They continued talking about details that I did not recall, about the pool, the games, the food, the other kids,etc. but with all that information I could not remember that day. Even, when my cousin and sister said I was there with them. They got upset with me because they thought I was kidding. In fact I remember getting angry because they didn't believed me, "If I was there I should be able to remember that day!!" What happened? Why that day is completely erased from my mind? Who was in my place if I wasn't at the camping?
The last thing( but I have more stories for later) when I was around 24 years old I went to visit my mom over the weekend at her house and in the middle of the night while I was sleeping,suddenly, I open my eyes because I felt a presence. What I saw was two figures similar to the shapes of humans and they were looking at me, like observing me. One was shorter than the other. I could not distinguish their faces or features, only the shapes, head and body. They were in the position like bending with their heads turn to their left and watching me sleep. Of course I screamed so loud I woke up everyone in the house. My mom came to my room and I explained what happened;" maybe it was a dream I said," but she told me maybe they are my guides or angels (I fricked out, but I let nobody see that)
Well, yes maybe is my guide or helper trying to connect or reconnect with me, and just the taught to see something that is not of earthly substance scares me. I appreciate you all reading my stories; you don’t know how much it means to me. God Bless you all, love and gratitude.
Marcela
P/S: I’m still learning English, so forgive me for my mistakes!