That's a good description of fear and love Rick, thanks.
And the muscle position - very interesting.
Your experience is making me think about the path of Nos, Book of the Resurrection which is based on Nietzsche's work. Which is based on the Hindu philosophical system and Yoga. Awesome reading.
The path of Nos which is the way of A-Mor (A=without and Mor=death - without death) It was the initiatory doctrine of the troubadours, the
Minnesangerand the
Fedele d'Amore It was a kind of tantrism, a magic love. and talks about the Circle of Returns searching for the entrance to the Hollow Earth and the Cities of Agharti and Shambhalla in the Himalayas, and the City of the Caesars, the Giants and the White Gods in the Andes.
After each Turn of the Wheel; He (Jason) finds himself in the secret chamber in the mountain. There is a Round Table with thirteen seats. The thirteenth seat being for the Master; twelve Knights and one Master. The thirteenth seat is called the Siege Perilous and in order to sit there Jason must fight a well-armed knight or else a huge cleft opens up under the seat and swallows Jason up. He has been swallowed up many times in this seat and starts the path of Return again searching for the entrance. Also, each Knight must come to the Round Table with His Lady, wearing the red gown of resurrection.
... well, it just reminded me of this literature.
i do believe this literature is talking about the Black Hole which is in the centre of our universe (possibly the Galactic Point?) the whole theme of this literature (which in my mind is a genuine path)
is a
reversal eg Nos = Son and the entrance to the Hollow Earth is the
inversion of our earth through a or the black hole = the Circle of Return - caused by the polar shift of the earths magnetic north pole (every 42,000 years)
Nos literature is fill of the polar star also re-reading the Michael books it is written that the universe has periods of reversal; a outward time and a inward time.
To me Jason; a initiate of High Order - remembers the Circle of Return where he entered the Hollow Earth (this must be a purely spiritual state or climate) and has also experienced the Outer Earth (as we are now) through each re-incarnation (for the period of afterlife in the Outer Earth state is not the same as Hollow Earth state, i think) he searches madly for the entrance to the Hollow Earth that may only come about through the shift of the poles or going into the black hole. Possibly both.
This is just a theory of mine - i might be wrong but somehow its all making sense to me.. and it's wrapped in romance .. but it is a romance that has been embraced by the Hindu philosophy and tied in with Orphic literature. Further to my theory; Christ is the Son of the Gold Sun (Outer World) and Lucifer is the Son of the Black Sun (Hollow Earth) and we find that they are One (The Prince of Light and Darkness) and beyond the Gold Sun and the Black Sun is the Ray of Emerald Light.
It's just what your experience made me think of.