DocM
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My father died in March. He was 83. About a week later, I had a lucid dream of conatct with him. He had been bedridden for the last three years of his life. It was, difficult for him. In the first dream, about a week after his death I was in the family home. It was lucid, exactly how things were. He was lying in the couch, and still appeared quite frail but alert. I approached him and said hello. We started talking. And then I said "this can't be happening. You are dead." At that point he said "no, I'm still here." I ran into the other room to get my sister and family. When we returned, however, the couch was empty. I took that to mean, in the lucid dream that I had made definite contact with him.
This morning I had an unusual dream. In the dream, I was in my current kitchen. I was on the telephone making a call, and somehow, my father's distinctive voice was on the other end. In the dream, I knew he had "left us," almost as if he had divorced my mother, and there was a rumor that he had gone into the insurance industry. In the dream, I suppose that I was calling to get a quote for insurance of some kind. Immediately, I recognized his voice. I motioned for my sister, who was in the kitchen as well to come quickly, that he was on the phone. I then let him know I knew it was him. He then asked me if I still listened to that radio station on the FM dial 104.7 or something. He said that if I did, I would get all the information that I needed. The dream ended, but I think I managed to tell him that I loved him.
I still have yet to sort out the symbolism in the dream. There were distractions while I was on the phone. Insects or pests of various kinds were in the kitchen; they were nuisances more than anything else. Distractions. I find that dreams are unusual things. I am annoyed that I couldn't bring my waking mind into this one more while I was ther. Why was he an insurance salesman on the telephone? Why did I get the distinct impression that he had left my mother and us in a way, almost as an unfaithful husband would have?
Evenso, I had the distinct impression that for contact to occur, sometimes it must be this way. That our minds are contacted via a dream through our subconscious and we put a strange "spin" on the interpretation at the time, only later to sort out the symbolism.
Matthew
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