
ok Vicky, you twisted my arm!
I had been trying to go obe forever and was frustrated with the efforts. bout ready to chuck the entire notion when thought I'd try something new.
my usual method was to lie flat as a board on the bed and simply wait for the vibrations. the vibrations would always come after wishing hard for a few days that they would, and that I'd then go obe.
it was fun thinking I even had this much control. I could make vibrations occur by pure desire; whoop de do! but I'd always fall asleep after the vibrations and recall absolutely nothing where I'd been or even if I'd been somewhere by going out. I assumed I was exiting the body as a unit of consciousness.
to describe the vibrations, each of us experience it slightly differently. mine felt very pleasant, like waves all over the body originating in the crown chakra and flowing down the body. almost felt like PUL, although I didn't think of it that way then.
another time, recently felt the vibrations with the addition of a sound like a train rumbling through the platform of my mind!! what the 'ell? must have been one of my rusty chakras, but I swear this was real!
ok, back to point by point thing. was so frustrated with just the pleasurable vibrations never taking me to the mental planes I wanted to go to, I was thinking this and making the decision to give it up; I think someone was listening to me think these thoughts and assisted me that day, and so its hard to say I did this all on my own..must have had help as it just happened that I "popped" out and became an orb for what seemed like an hour, but was really only perhaps 15 minutes or 30.
I thought, well since I know you have to be relaxed to do this, I wonder why I relax so well I fall right to sleep? maybe if I sat in a chair then I would not fall asleep. so that was the new thing to try. I kept arguing with myself that this was too much work trying to relax and stay awake at the same time. lol...so I promised myself I wouldn't stress out while trying to relax!! I remember some deep breathing exercises my spiritualist church had taught me. I used the in breath to count to 10, the out breath to count to 10. this is hard too. concentrating on the in and out breath shuts the mind effluvia up just long enough so you can pop out of the body; maybe...it worked anyway. as you're doing that you're thinking, would be nice if it worked...you're talking to yourself, or a guide. you're asking: will it work? the other voice is saying concentrate on the breath and shut up for one minute. you pop open an eyelid to see if you're still in the room. yup. still in the room. breath. you do the relaxing then by centering on each muscle of your body to consciously release the tension even in your toes and your eyelids. all my tension is on my face, so I had to relax each eyebrow, the lips, my tongue, yegads, I had to notice wherever I held tension; I had to relax all of it. finally, then you get an itch, and you relax the itch without touching it. meanwhile this voice in your head or your own self is asking you to make a plan. where do you want to go "if" you get out? so you pick a destination that you know about. maybe you visit a friend. you have to have a definete destination, and this is where I went wrong in all my other efforts, I just didn't have a destination; even if you want to go walk into the sun, something crazy, you have to have an idea where to sail or you're not getting out.
I'd been relaxing for close to 20 minutes thinking this is a waste of time really when I started to feel a peaceful quiet settle over me. I was completely content to just sit there. it no longer mattered if I got out or not it was so peaceful that I smiled at myself and just accepted myself that someday I would get this kind of knowledge if I kept focusing on it. and it didn't matter if it was today. thats when I felt something an action going on between my physical eyes, like a wind sensation. a small imaginary door opened there and a sensation of a pop, really subtle. I focused my awarenss in that part of my body. a body form formed on this little energy which seemed to glide forth. I followed it as this pinpoint of awareness that I was I and I had just succeeded to be going somewhere finally and completely aware of my physical body in the chair, as not being me, but since I had relaxed it, I had gathered the tension from it and now had impetus to travel out of it.
what if? what if I could? I kept wondering that. I meditated on it. for years. and even now as I sat there I wondered what if?
Bruce has breath exercises in his books and so he knows a secret of the breath, how it can quiet you down and deepen your mind levels.
In the back of my mind I'd asked for help. I believe there are invisible guides working these areas and so in my imagination they were there. what if it turns out its more than my imagination that they were there? and what if they are my disc members and we are all one?
hugs, alysia