I suffer of insomnia and therefore I have some sedatives etc to help me sleep. And so was another restless night yesterday and I took a quite big dose of pills. Shouldn't done it, I think.

I don't know if I did slept or not, but it didn't feel like it then. I thought I was awake but it could have been a "reality dream" where you sleep about being in your bed and stuff.

My left hand was hurting very badly, and I thought I'm having a heart attack due to taking too much sedatives or something. It felt very bad and I thought I'm going to die. I just hoped it won't hurt so much, but it did.

Then I started to hear angry voices in my head. They just didn't stop, though I didn't hear what they were saying but they were very angry. At some point there were dozens of different voices just shouting nonsense to my ears.

I was too afraid to open my eyes, but after the voices started, I felt I couldn't keep them closed. I tried and tried but they just made them to open. Room was like it always is, but after I closed my eyes again, I saw (with my eyes closed) a silouette of a middle-aged man.

I still don't know if I were sleeping or not, but it was very terrible and scary. But when I think about that now, it also was a bit amusing. It has never happened to me before, even if I have had a larger dose.

Usually those pills just make me sleep. They would have made it last night too, but it was more vivid than a dream, alot more.

I don't think there's much to say or analyze this awake-nightmare, but I just wanted to tell it.