starstream
Ex Member
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Ok,I have spent quite a few weeks now ,before settling down to go to sleep, talking with "helpers" on various things. A few nights ago,I asked if there was anything they could tell me about where my life is going,but I did add that I would understand if they couldn't,if I had to figure things out for myself.
I woke up,with an amazing sense of OMG,why didnt I realise thats what that dream meant!.
A couple of months ago I had a proper nightmare,I woke up yelling and my heart was racing like a train.I rarely have bad dreams of any description.
In my dream I was teaching my mum to drive,in a car similar to my own,yet it was an automatic,mine is a manual. I was the passenger,and talking her through a three point turn,yet where we were attempting it was on a pier.Whilst attempting the manouvere in my dream,my mum hit the acelerator instead of brake,and the car flew off the edge into the water. I should add,at this point I awoke terified,as my one true fear,is being trapped in a vehicle whilst submerged in water.
Since I was very small,my mum has struggled with alcoholism,and I have suffered as all loved ones do,when faced with this challenge,but my love for the person my mum truly is has kept me strong and always there to help her,no matter what pain it may cause me.
the OMG moment,was understanding that in the dream,as in life..I can teach her,guide her,support her,but at the end of the day,the choices that mum makes,are her own,no matter how catastrophic they may be.therefore I must bear that in mind,and not allow myself to feel that I am responsible for her.
I am truly impressed with how strongly,as soon as I opened my eyes that was the impression I got,and I should point out that I was not asking for guidance on that dream, I had in fact forgotten it. But it makes perfect sense .
I did also get a vague impression that perhaps it was a warning,that perhaps my mums battle will not end well,hence showing me my greatest fear(the water thing) but at the end of the day we all have our paths to walk. BTW,my mum does not drive and is now far to old to learn.
What do you guys think?
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