Hiya
This is my first post here, so I am a bit scared. Actually, I am very scared.
Anyhow, this is my question: If someone's life is extremely emotionally painful, and if no one cares about them, and if they have no spiritual guides or guardian angels, then what happens if they take their own life in the afterlife? Will they avoid the pain of an unpleasant afterlife, or being reincarnation into a painful situation again with no guardian angels or spiritual guides?
Tragically, I am in that situation. After many many attempts to contact any guardian angels or spiritual guides, I have failed. I was a mistake being born into this world, and my mother regrets be being born even to this day. I have no family to find any comfort in, so no one would miss me, and me being gone would emotionally harm no one.
I really wish that there was some ray of hope for me, but after years of praying and wishing, there is nothing. I am so frightened and scared now, as I fear that I have fallen into "lost soul" status.
In many ways, I wish that I could just fall asleep forever, so that I would not have to feel the pain and rejection. Either that, or at least know that there was some entity in this universe that loved me for who I am, not what they expect me to be.
Well, I do not want to take too much of your time, so I shall end this letter. I do not wish to cause sadness or anything like to anyone else.
Thank you so much for listening.