Matthew wrote,
Quote:I can't get past the life is meaningless if we are all one bit too easily, and I have felt somewhat depressed by that today. I find meaning in the love of my son and family, my work, my interactions with others. If most of that is illusory, if merging with God into pure perception is the eventual goal, than my actions are not so much meaningful as they are necessary. To try to act rightly, as mentioned in the Bhagavad Gita, is based on right thought. So I should love my neighbor, act that way, and be part of society because I am a human being. I would like to find more meaning. Initially this came to me by small experiments that showed me that my thoughts could affect reality. This was fun initially, but carried no moral uplifting feeling or love with it.
Now, I am trying to heal and actually think lovingly of others, including those on this and other boards with problems.
But if our individuality and separateness from the divine is an illusion, then at some point we sit back with our mouth open, a glazed look in our eyes and say "why should I play this game any more."
We hear and know that the goal is to express and understand love.
I have been hoping to hear more from you, Don on these points, and was really hoping that Bruce, Kyo, and others with mystical experience would also weigh in. I think there are no answers that are absolute and some of it depresses me.
Dear Matthew,
Quite the contrary, life is realized to be infinitely meaningful and joyful, precisely because All the Cosmos is One, and precisely because the relative 'subjectiveness' of reality allows for the freedom of the spirit (ie. of each & all souls) to explore and experience reality with a unique perspective.
This is exactly as God (the Oneness) intended, for it is the basis of the purpose of Creation. A joyful, loving exploration of existence, and of the infinite possibilities, worlds, perspectives for this.
Matthew, it is very interesting what you're currently experiencing. Because when seen from a higher perspective, the Oneness of it all gives infinitely (quite literally) more joy, as does the freedom of individual creativity and expression, gives infinitely (again quite literally) greater purpose and meaning to it all.
And yet, you appear to struggle with depression when the cause is for Joy, and meaninglessness when the cause is for Purpose. I say this is particularly interesting, because from my observation and experience, what you are experiencing, is the deliberate swing of the pendulum from one end to the other - to gain keenest insights, understanding and mastery into various issues, as part of the learning process the individual often chooses to apparently begin with the opposite viewpoint, observes a internal dissatisfaction (or 'depression' or 'meaninglessness') that is indicative of a counter-truth with regards to his own nature, soul and truth.
Similarly, certain individuals choose to create negative karma, and in the balancing of that negative karma (the pendulum swings to the other end), and they experience a powerful learning and evolution in that area. For instance, the reformed criminal is particularly or especially understanding and compassionate, for both the perpetrator and victim, and has the strongest motivation to assist them.
In the Clarification work of Byron Katie, correctly applying the TurnAround always results in a joy that is directly equivalent of the earlier depression that was indicative of the false idea or false viewpoint (ie. false to, or against, the individual's own nature, soul or truth) that caused the difficulty, sense of depression, and so on.
And so it is here with you, Matthew. Your personal breakthrough in this regard, will consequently be of untold value when you are therefore able to assist others to break through for themselves, in similar issues or crises. In this case, of the Oneness giving infinite Joy, and of the freedom of soul giving infinite purpose and meaning.
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Quote:I can't get past the life is meaningless if we are all one bit too easily, and I have felt somewhat depressed by that today. I find meaning in the love of my son and family, my work, my interactions with others. If most of that is illusory, if merging with God into pure perception is the eventual goal, than my actions are not so much meaningful as they are necessary.
Contrary, contrary. The illusory or transient part, is only the form with which the essence underlies. The part that is *real*, is your connection, relationship and love that the forms are able to allow you to gain for yourself - the love for your son and family, your work, your interactions with others. It is the essence, the evolution, the love, that is the true purpose of all of these, that makes them completely real, meaningful.
The form serves the essence. The physical or manifested serves the spiritual. The body serves the soul. The interactions serve the relationship. The relationships serve the Love.
Merging into 'pure perception with God', or losing individuality, as the eventuality of existence, is one of the common misconceptions for many. How can you return to God when you have never left God? And how can you possibly ever leave God, when by definition God is the Essence, Totality and Simultaneity of All the Cosmos?
It is as if the hand fears merging with the body and losing it's individuality, while in truth, the body experiences itself as the totality, yet simultaneously the individuality, of all it's parts. Including as the silly hand that whose fear is but a false idea (false evidence appearing as real). For the hand will never lose its individuality, just as the body has never lost its universality. Indeed, the universality requires the individuality, and vice-versa. And both will exist simultaneously as One, forever.
Quote: I think there are no answers that are absolute and some of it depresses me.
Ahh, but therein lies the beauty and joy of it all. Because the absolute, or 'sum of all perspectives', depends on the relative, or 'individual perspectives', what this translates to, is that the Universe is a joyful, participatory experience, in which each and every being matters! The greatest purpose and meaning behind existence, can only exist when there is free will and infinite possibilities. It is God is enjoying Him/Her/ItSelf with the experience as an infinitum of diverse Beings, unique perspectives, and unique explorations of existence. The free will of each being, is therefore the free will of God. Can this get any more 'absolute'? Tis the Divine beauty of it all.
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On free will giving greater purpose and meaning. How meaningful would it be if an individual is forced to help others solely out of threat of punishment? As compared to say, if he helped others solely out of compassion and love.
Imagine if a man could freely rape and kill everyone else in the world without any punishment whatsoever, even including karmic consequence; and yet should he chooses instead (ask yourself the question, if you were that man... and only your own answer, not the answers of others, is meaningful to you) to respect, care for them, and help them evolve in joy, ie. he chooses to love them, simply out of his true nature (which is always determined by free will, see
here), simply because that is what he *truly wants*. Therein lies the true beauty, purpose and meaning of existence and free will.
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If there are 'absolute', pre-determined answers for everyone, which denies the reality of free will and unique perspectives, then there would be little meaning or purpose of that individual's existence. For the individual/part serves the universal/collective, every Being (or 'little self') serves his/her/its GodSelf - the Oneness that is manifested as All the Cosmos.
Quote:I suppose if we were to consider ourselves merely a probe then that would be depressing.
Right, Kathy. It's not at all depressing when you realize the truth that you're far from being 'merely a probe'. The depression, as always (ie. as with all depression or suffering), is indicative of a false idea. That is because the probe, or body, is always a vehicle for something greater, the essence behind it. Therefore, the probe itself is a form, and the true essence of the form, of the probe, is the greater being behind it. The probe is therefore not the probe, but really the being who sent it.
Therefore, you are greater than who you think you are (the incarnated personality, the individual, etc), you are in reality the higher self, the oversoul/Disc, the GodSelf (manifesting Yourself simultaneously as All the Cosmos).
Quote:Initially this came to me by small experiments that showed me that my thoughts could affect reality. This was fun initially, but carried no moral uplifting feeling or love with it.
The 'moral' uplifting feeling or love, the evolution and assistantiality, will come in when you (give yourself the willingness to) recognize the greater context by which your contribution to reality exists in. It is as if by itself, the mechanical rotation of the harddisk seems meaningless (possibly even depressing!), but when it understands the greater context of the functioning of the entire computer, it is a joyful, meaningful, loving (Oneness) act.
In regards to the above discussion then, Hilarion speaks of this when he says the following.
Hilarion on
"Universal Laws" audio CD-Rom :
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When taken to the higher, vibrational level, they become as if, the very Laws of Creation themselves, of the way in which, the matter, energy, interactions between them, ability for them to create purpose, to manifest Destiny, and eventually, return Love to God, actually then, is the path then created. As if those Laws themselves allow this."
Matthew, I will be sending you a private message.